Me: Fine I will. Sadie's middle name is… Simon
Everyone starts laughing except for Sadie
S: it was supposed to be Símon but the people at the hospital forgot to put the accent on the I on my birth certificate
We all laugh for a bit and Kwest rubs Sadie on her back to comfort her. After we finish dessert we sit there and have a little chit chat.
Faith: Jude, when Darius called he didn't say why you were in Montana
My family, Mason, and Kwest shift uneasily
T: Yeah why did you come to Montana?
Me: well I needed a break after tour and I hadn't seen my family in a while
Tim: something is telling me that is not the whole story
Mike: yeah and why is there so much uneasiness in this room?
Sadie gets up: hey Zoë why don't you come with me I think there are probably some cookies in the kitchen
Sadie and Zoë leave the room.
L: well I think Jude should explain it
Tommy places a hand on my knee and I pull it away
Me: thanx Liz for really helping out
K: Jude don't get all evil twin on them
Me: FINE! Well after Tommy left I was out of it. I basically had a nervous break down. It wasn't too long after he left that I had my release party for my album. At the release party I just couldn't deal with not having my best friend, producer, and wingman. Liam the asshole that he is…
Si: Language Jude
Me: whatever. Anyways Liam came backstage and basically told me to get over myself and that Tommy left on his own free will.
He puts a hand on my knee and I cant sit next to him any more and explain the story so I get up and start pacing the room.
Me: Knowing that he left me when I needed him most broke my heart and I just couldn't go out there and perform and act like everything is fine and perfect and peachy.
At the end of my sentence my voice started to crack.
T: Jude…
Me: NO! Let me finish! Anyways I slipped out the back and drove to Barrie where mason was performing on part of his tour. I kept on trying and trying to call him but your phone was off I swear to God I left like 300 messages on your phone
T: Actually it was 457 messages…
Me: Whatever. Well I was leaving a message when a guy came up to me and asked for a picture and I obliged. Then he ordered 2 shots of tequila and said that they were both for him but I kinda had one.
Mason: One?
Me: I'm going in chronological order ok?
Mason: ok
Me: well then mason asked if I would join him onstage. I sang a song then went back to getting obliterated.
T: that would explain some of the messages
Faith: ok so you got drunk
Me: yeah and mason had to do some interviews so he gave me the key to his room which I had a hard time holding onto. When mason left the guy came over and gave me one more shot for the road.
I chuckle and no one else does.
Me: ok um so I started walking off to the room and called after me cuz I had left the key on the bar. He brought it over and I grabbed the key and grabbed his hand and put it around my shoulder and led him up to mason's room. The last thing I remember from that night is telling him not to leave and that I don't like being alone and…
Tim: and…?
Me: I remember some flashes going off and that's it. Next thing I know I'm waking up to very, very, very loud knocking on the door oh and to mason in some cowboy pjs. I should tell you he even sleeps with that hat on.
I chuckle again.
T: Jude HOW STUPID COULD YOU BE LETTING HIM IN THE ROOM AND THEN TAKING PICTURES!
I cant look at him I just feel so ashamed
K: let her finish
Me: do I have to? How about mason finishes while I go try and regain my dignity?
I can feel the tears starting to push there way out.
Faith: Yeah sweetie that's fine
Me: ok thanx
With that I run up to my room and plop down on my bed.
MEANWHILE
T: How could you let her do that!
D: leave him alone! She wouldn't have done it if you hadn't left
Tim: Mason can you continue with the story?
Mason: well Jude woke up with an awful hangover and I answered the door against her wishes since she thought it could be Big D but it was Jamie her neighbor, best friend, and ex-boyfriend. Anyways he and Sadie had a hunch that she would be with me. I did the coffee thing for her and Jamie convinced her to face the music and since I was on tour I think I'll have Kwest finish up.
Kwest: Yeah so… Jude came back to a pretty upset Darius but he showed her why he was gonna give her a second chance. He showed her that she had reached number one. About a week went by when Jude got an envelope at G-Major that had a note and pictures of her in it. The note that basically said that if he didn't get $50,000 the pictures would go to the press. And the pictures were all of a passed out Jude. She showed it to me so I told her that she needed to show them to Darius. I went with her as back up. He said that we wouldn't pay him but that we would spin it our way. Lets just say he wasn't happy.
Faith: Why didn't he pay the guy off?
K: because he knew that if he did pay him the guy could still leak the photos to the press.
Tim: so what did you guys do?
K: we made her video to "How Strong Do You Think I Am" basically depict the whole story.
Tommy couldn't stand it anymore and stormed upstairs.
JUDE
I couldn't relive everything again especially not with him sitting in the same room. I had out my journal and guitar my stress relievers when he came bursting through my door. Here it goes another lecture.
Me: ever heard of knocking, Quincy?
He doesn't say anything and just looks like he is gonna murder someone. I'm getting fed up with the silence.
Me: Okay so usually when someone comes bursting through my door they have something to say so anything? Or am I gonna get the silent treatment and have you looking at me in disgust?
T: I just…
Me: you wanna yell at me Tom? Go ahead I've already heard everything from everyone so its not like I haven't gotten yelled at by D, Liam, Portia, Kwest, Jamie and my whole entire family except my mom. So go ahead yell. Tell me how stupid I was or am. Go ahead!
T: GOD JUDE! WHY! DID YOU THINK IT WOULD SOLVE EVERYTHING!
Me: no
T: THAT'S RIGHT YOU PROBABLY DIDNT THINK!
Me: You have no idea how much my life has sucked even before you left.
T: THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU GO GET DRUNK OFF YOUR ASS AND LET A RANDOM GUY TAKE PICTURES OF YOU!
Me: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ITS LIKE!
T: then tell me.
Me: sit down
He sits on my bed as I get up and start pacing my room.
Me: well you remember the day we were working on my song when Sadie burst through the door?
T: yeah?
Me: well when we got home we saw that the house we both grew up in was on the market. We went inside and confronted mom about and she said she was just testing the market. Anyways long story short mom and Don got engaged and then went to the court house the next day then went to Italy on their honeymoon. She left a letter in the mailbox for me and I have yet to open it.
T: Ju—
Me: let me get everything off of my chest. Ok?
He nodded.
Me: Ok, so I was also missing $10,000 I thought mom stole it since her name was also on the account. I was wrong it was actually Sadie… that's why she got the job at G-Major. Anyways Dad put in a bid for the house. He even tried to take out a second mortgage but it didn't go through so we lost the house and Sadie and I got an apartment together near G-Major. Then when you left I felt like everyone didn't want me or to be around me and that I was nothing. I felt that I was easy to be disposed of you know? So basically I felt better that night.
There was silence for a while and I was getting uncomfortable.
Me: ok so now you can speak.
T: Jude I don't know what to say
Me: You know what? Don't worry I wasn't expecting anything. Its not like you cared enough to ask.
With that I grab my journal and guitar and head for my bathroom.
T: Jude!
I slammed the door on his face, locked it and put my back on the door and slid down it. He started pounding on the door so hard that I could feel it shake so I sat in the bath tub with my old journal reading over the words I had started writing down. I am getting so sick of this pounding.
Me: TOM SERIOUSLY LEAVE ME ALONE! ITS NOT LIKE YOU CARE!
T: JUDE YOU KNOW I CARE!
Me: Bullshit
T: COME ON LET ME IN!
Me: GO AWAY!
T: NO!
Me: then I will
I get out of the tub and try to open the window but it makes a loud squeaking noise.
T: Jude what was that?
Me: GO AWAY TOM!
When I get the window open completely I start to climb out onto the tree right outside it. OW splinter how rude!
T: Jude come on please just let me talk to you
I look down below me.
Me: Oh fritter
I start climbing down the tree and about 6 feet off the ground I fell. God that pain is unbearable. I can't keep the pain inside and scream.
Me: OWWWWWWWW THAT HURT!
DOWNSTAIRS
Faith: Well we should get going soon tell Jude that we'll stop by tomorrow to say bye
Mike holding a sleeping Zoë: Yeah same here its past Zoë's bedtime
Z: But I'm not tired
S laughs: Will do.
They hear yelling from upstairs.
K: ahh how I've missed the Jude/Tommy fights
D: Should someone go check on them?
K, S, Mason: NOOOO!
Molly: Whoa!
Faith and Tim and mike and Zoë leave when the yelling stops for a while and then starts up again. They hear something fall out of the tree and a scream as Tommy comes running down the stairs. They all give each other weird looks.
Molly: ok now that was the sound of Jude breaking something
They all run outside.