an: This song is "Unwell" by Matchbox twenty. Some scenes are actual ones from the show. I trust y'all can figure out which are mine and which aren't.
I'm Not Crazy, I'm Just a Little Unwell
Key:
Things happening present
Past
Future
'Thoughts'
Song
Lena could feel the tears welling up in her eyes as she stared in the eyes of Kara Danvers. Her 'best friend' …Supergirl, famous alien. She saw her puffy eyes and tear marks but, at this time, they didn't matter.
They didn't matter because once again she had been lied to by those close to her. Lena could see it was tearing Kara up to lie to her. She saw the raw emotion on her face.
But she had been lied to. And she stings and crawls back to her walls at the even hint of betrayal. Lena walked off and she heard Kara break down sobbing as she walked past her…
All day starin' at the ceilin' makin'
Friends with shadows on my wall
Lena looked around her new apartment and licked her lips. This was it. New city. New friends. New life. Could she step away from Lex's reign of terror? Make friends that wouldn't use her?
Day 76 in National City. "And I am still as lonely as i've ever been," Lena whispered sadly. She laid down in bed and opened her phone. Oh. The first thing she saw was an article on Lex.
'Should probably sleep. Get energy for tomorrow', she thought.
All night hearing voices tellin' me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'
Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
Lena walked past Kara and couldn't keep her tears away, she did it. Kara finally admitted to her the fact she was Supergirl. She was now going to feel the same pain as she did. Lena hovered over the send button.
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
No. This was insanity. She could tell Andrea who Supergirl was. Yes, she was upset. But Kara needed to remain anonymous so she can help protect.
She wasn't going to put the world at risk because she got her feelings hurt again.
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
Lena could see Kara was hurt, both physically and mentally as the kryptonite hurt her. Surprise and shock in her eyes when Lena had her yell.
"I killed my brother for you! For my friend! Don't you understand what you've done!" she screamed.
Kara was seeing the Luthor in Lena for the first time. And it was all her fault. If she had told her the truth from like… year 1 then if wouldn't have come to this! It took her around 2 or so years to tell Winn she was an alien.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
Then lobbed her phone across the room as she saw another article on how she poisned a bunch of kids. This was awful. Despite Kara and Sam trying to help clear her name, she has no idea how long she can carry on like this.
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
Lena hugged Kara tightly and wouldn't let her go. Kara rubbed her back and Lena finally looked at her. Both of them on the verge of crying. "I don't know what I would have done if you didn't make it," she whispered.
Kara smirked, "You probably wouldn't have delicious donouts — or any food really, until you passed out. Correct?" Lena let out a laugh she hadn't have the joy of doing for months (a year?) as Kara displayed her usual funny side.
I'm talkin' to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
"That's Lena Luthor," someone whispered to whoever would hear them. She was on the train for school.
"Why's she on a train?" another, older fellow, muttered. Mother wouldn't allow her the driver because she spilt some water at the table and it went on the wooded floor. So here she was, suffering through all the sideways glances and whispers.
And seriously….
And I know, I know they've all been talkin' about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin' wrong with me
"What is wrong with me?" Lena asked aloud and pressed delete.
Out of all the hours thinkin', somehow I've lost my mind
"Miss Luthor. It's 5:20am," Jess said as she came in with a pillow and blanket.
"Oh. Hi Jess," Lena said. "Sorry, can't talk, I have to fig-figure this out. If I times that by seventy….nine and then divideand move—" she continued mumbling erratically.
"Miss Luthor! If you do not turn off that computer and lay down on your sofa with this blanket and pillow, I will call Miss Danver and she will drag you home," Jess said loudly.
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
Lena showed the wine as she came into the room. Everyone was sat down and enjoyed the drink but Lena took her new knowledge and kept looking at Kara. That's when she saw it. How could she be so dumb.
"Lena, are you okay?" Kara asked softly. She came and sat next to her.
Lena plastered on a smile. "Yeah, of course. Why wouldn't I be silly?" Kara looked suspicious so she gave her a hug and scooting over to whatever game they were playing.
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
Kara spun around. "This isn't about Lex! This is about J'onn, and Alex and all the other people that could have been killed today because they're on my team. Don't you understand that?" she asked intense and loudly.
"No, I do. Of course I do!" Lena said with a frown.
"No, you don't." Kara said much calmer. "You have never known what it means to share a secret identity with someone. How much danger that puts them in. You-you- you never even understood that I kept my identity from you, because I wanted to protect you!" she snapped.
Lena couldn't speak. She just kept staring at Kara as she unleashed what she had been feeling.
"And I know- I know I hurt you by waiting so long to tell my truth. But what about all the ways you hurt me? You pretended to be my friend for weeks. You stole from me. Got me to steal for you. And then-" Kara scoffed, "Then you used kryptonite on me!"
Lena felt like she was going to cry; what had she done?
"I made one mistake- one- that was only ever made to protect you. And in return all you have done is hurt me in every way imaginable,"
Kara never took her eyes off of Lenass she spoke. All the pent up frustration. How she spent the better part of 4 years defending Lena against Alex, against J'onn, Winn, James. How she always helped her with Morgan Edge.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Lena sat on her desk and seemed so tired. "… An ungrateful daughter. Heroine. Bitch," Kara let out a noise of disgust. "They've all called for a quote. Not you though, that's not why you're here?" she asked quickly and hopefully. "Snapper Carr hasn't sent you here to shake me down?" Lena let off a nervous laugh.
"No, no. I'm here as a friend. I thought you could use some fried sugary goodness in your life," Kara held up the bag of donuts. "You eat donuts right?"
Lena stood up and donned an obvious look on her face. "Well…" she plucked them out of Kara's grip. "I am human," they both laughed.
I've been talkin' in my sleep
"Miss Luthor, wake up. Miss Luthor," Lena was startled awake. "Sorry, it seemed like you was having a nightmare,"
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away
Maggie put the cuffs on Lena and read her her rights while Kara stood, helpless.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
"I don't ever let my guard down, ever. And I did with Eve. She betrayed me. I let her in, and she lied… to me …everyday …to my face. About who she was…"
"The file was ready to upland," HOPE said. "Why didn't you send it, exposing Supergirls identity to the world? Did you forgive Kara Danvers?"
"She betrayed me, broke my heart. I could never forgive her," she walked off.
"I don't understand,"
"How could you? You're not a Luthor. We're scorpions. When someone betrays us, we sting," Lena said emotionless.
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell...
It was 5 hours after she almost killed Supergirl (by accident) with kryptonite. Lena sat on her sofa with photos of her and Kara.
She started sobbing. Her chest hurt but she couldn't catch her breath. Tears dropped like rockets onto her person, and they wouldn't stop.
She had lost her best friend for good.
She'd lost her only friend.
*I forgot any scenes w s6 and I just wanted to make my own