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Chapter Ninety Four - Greatest Love
Henry slipped into the motorcade after Elizabeth, pulling the door closed and secluding them in. He glanced up at her, watching as she gazed out the window, eyes closed and lips pursed as she inhaled and exhaled slowly, imaging the world pass by as they drove off. He slipped a hand over her thigh, gently squeezing but not disrupting her. Her hand found his, fingers gently curling around his and holding them as she continued to take a moment for herself.
'Are you ok?' He asked softly after a few moments. Elizabeth nodded and peeled her eyes open, her head turning, her gaze as soft as his tone of voice, a smile falling on her face as she looked at him lovingly.
'Yeah' she paused. 'Yeah I really am, Thank you for agreeing to come to therapy Henry, it really means a lot to me' her thumb started to stroke his skin, the softness a new found comfort for her anxiety.
'I'm sorry I didn't do it sooner. Seeing you in there was upsetting, I had no idea just how much you wanted me to come with you before, I just kept thinking about how I constantly dismissed you, telling you we didn't need therapy and I just can't believe I was so ignorant to how much you were struggling' he sighed heavily, shaking his head in disappointment about himself.
'We both overlooked things Henry, we're here now and that's all I want to focus on' she whispered, her eyes capturing his gaze as she lent forward, delicate lips brushed against his, the smallest gesture holding the greatest love. 'This whole weekend has been lovely' she whispered as she withdrew from him.
'It has, I don't feel ready to leave you' he sighed as his hand slipped into her lap, gently squeezing at her knee. 'I almost feel scared, I think' he stumbled on his words, trying carefully to describe how he feels without sounding stupid.
'Like when you leave you'll wake up, and this would have all been a dream, that there is no coming back when you leave?' Her voice delicately whispered as she empathized. Henry slowly nodded, smiling at her softly as he found comfort in her understanding. 'Me too' she confessed.
'I will be coming back' he confirmed, his voice a little forceful as he asserted himself. Elizabeth giggled, her nose wrinkling from her smile as she nodded.
'Of course you are, just don't leave the gap too long' she smiled
'Well, hopefully I'll be able to come at the weekend again, Jase and Ali always have plans and I normally have extra classes or conferences so slipping away should be easy'
'You still agree with me that not telling them is best at the minute?' She bit her lip nervously
'Yes, I think, if that's what you need to help you return to this relationship fully then I support that. Plus, sneaking around adds a little flavor' he winked, leaning forward and kissing her fiercely. Elizabeth placed her hands on his chest, giggling as his force pushed her back a little. She pulled away smirking, playfully rolling her eyes as she rejoiced in their private moment.
'I am in this relationship one hundred percent Henry, I am' she bit her lip nervously, his words lingering in her head.
'But? I sense a but…' he pulled back a little, his eyes narrowing on her as he watched her sigh inwardly, glancing to her lap for a moment before recapturing his gaze with her own.
'No buts, not really it's just that It's going to take more than a few romantic moments with you to come back from this, as a person, as a woman I mean.' She smiled sadly 'I don't know who I am anymore, and who I was with you is no longer the person I am today, I just need to find my feet and establish what one hundred percent in this relationship looks like now, I'm sure things might have changed. That's all' she swallowed, unsure if her confession would push him away. Her breath lingered in her throat until she saw Him smile softly at her.
'I can't wait to fall even more in love with the woman you are now all over again' he grinned, slipping his hand back into hers, a gentle squeeze of reassurance. 'I'll happily guide you to her if needed too' he whispered
'That will be nice' she spoke in soft hushed tones as she leant her head forward, resting it against his. Her fingers slipping from his hand as she tenderly traced the skin across the back of his hand, running up to his wedding ring finger, the empty space saddening her.
'I don't like to see this empty, it hurts' she whispered. Henry inhaled deeply and pursed his lips as he let her words float above him.
'One step at a time' he replied, the confidence within his tone setting aside her sorrow. She glanced up at him and smiled, gently pushing forward and brushing her lips against his.
'I don't want to go'
'I don't want to leave you either, however I am sure there is some foreign minister dying to speak to you, or some world crisis that I will never know about waiting to be averted by you. Madam Secretary' he teased and she stifled a laugh.
'You promise I'll see you at the weekend?'
'I do, and I promise I will call and text constantly, it will be like I am there' Henry attempted to soothe her worrying mind
'Hardly, but I'll take it. I'll have Blake schedule something for Friday evening so I can at least be home early' she smiled. 'I know I already said it but, Thanks for coming to see Dr Sherman today, I really appreciate it'
Henry nodded in response, slipping his hand around the back of her neck, drawing her into him, his lips pressing against hers gently as he savored the taste of her lips.
'I think this is my stop' he mumbled as he felt the car slow down. Elizabeth kept silent, a lump in her throat appearing as she mustered the energy to be alone again. 'I'm coming back, I promise. I love you Elizabeth' he pulled her in close, wrapping her tight within his arms as he protected her.
``Love you too, Goodbye Henry, Drive safe' she pulled back and smiled, watching him exit the motorcade, hopelessly wishing for the weekend to arrive.