FIC LAB PROMPT- "I wish the way I feel about you was enough for us to be together."
Edward brushes his hand against my cheek like it's the last time he ever will. "I wish the way I feel about you was enough for us to be together," he says, voice thick with emotion.
My eyes fill with tears as I grasp onto his waist, pulling him into me, never wanting to let go. Because I know when I do, it will be the last time. "Why can't it be?"
Edward takes a deep breath. "Bella, you know why. You're dating my son." He grips onto my hands still clinging to him, and pulls them away, creating distance between us.
"I told you, I don't love him anymore. I'll break up with him right now. I only want you." I'm full of desperation by this point and will do anything to be with him.
Edward becomes frustrated as he rubs a hand down his face. "He's my son. I fucked up and slept with you—his girlfriend—and as much as you mean to me, Bella, I can't lose him." His tone softens, "Maybe in another world we can be together, but not this one."
His words tear me open, and my heart aches. But I can't even be mad. Edward is right; I would never ask him to choose me over his only son. It's bad enough that we already went behind Jasper's back and betrayed him. This will break him, and he will never forgive either of us if he ever finds out.
"Can I have one last kiss at least?" I ask, barely a whisper.
Edward hesitates for a moment before something snaps inside him. He desperately grabs both sides of my face and drags me toward him as his lips consume mine. Tasting every inch of my mouth and savouring it. We get lost in the moment as he slams my back against his bedroom wall, biting and kissing my neck before ripping my shirt off, exposing my bare breasts.
This isn't sweet or loving. This is pain, sadness—anger at how unfair the world is. Finding your person but not being able to have them without losing everything else that matters.
This is our goodbye.
I eagerly unbutton his jeans, pulling them down with his boxers. Needing to feel him inside of me one last time.
Just as Edward's lips come back down on mine and his hands move to push my pants off, the slam of his bedroom door hitting against the wall freezes us both in our tracks. But we don't move away from each other, our lips still touching until we hear the one voice that was my worst fear.
"What the fuck?" Jasper roars, his voice full of fury. I'm too afraid to turn around and see the rage and hurt on his face.
He wasn't supposed to be back this early. But this is why it would've never worked between Edward and I. Because Jasper would've found out eventually, and this would all be over. I guess it just saved us from falling deeper than we already have.
I never meant to hurt Jasper. I loved him at one point until I met his dad. And then it was game over. The love I felt for him was stronger than I could fathom.
I just wish I could be enough for Edward, but I know I can't be. I've hurt someone close to me in the process of it all, and I'll still end up alone—without either of them.