Here you go. Sorry it took me so long, finals are coming up and my teachers are all trying to kill me. in the last week of school, i had 3 tests and 2 projects due. Here it is, all edited!

Disclaimer: You know that I know that you know (love confusing tongue twisters like this) that I do not own the Harry potter series under any circumstance.
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Jen's POV (A/N:her journal will start so there will be more inside into the other characters' life)

As I said before I don't want to do a journal or a diary which would be worse, well I would write poetry but…. Well just judge my first try at poetry

When there is nothing to do
Nothing to do say
What could you do?
In such a fine day

(AND IT GETS WORSE)

If you are confused…
Good then I made my point worth for
I'll admit I been accused
For making dumb poems that make me snore

(YOU AIN'T SEEN NOTHING YET)

To tell you the truth I had no clue
What crime I had done
To good poetry and all of you
I'll mend my ways and I'll leave this poem underdone

(ARE YOU TROWING STUFF AT ME YET?)

I'll make sure never to make
Another poem that deserves some sort of painful death
I'll admit I have made a mistake
And I'll end this poem as I can't find anything rhyming with death

(A/N: I really don't stink this much but… okay maybe I wasn't inspired but you can rush this things anyway back to the story)

Well there you have it... I-STINK-AT-POETRY! Well guess I am not meant to be the next Shakespeare…wait what am I sad about? That is actually a good thing.

Well I tried the diary thing and…. 1 run-on sentence for you: I don't want to be one of the those girls who writes Dear Diary, or who never stops giggling, or one of those people who never stops complaining.

Well lately I have been the complaining type… maybe that is why Remus is avoiding me. Note to self: stop complaining. I stink at the diary, and I refuse to try it…. So I guess the story is my last option if my brain had an idea…..

Maybe I should do what I saw in a movie… can't remember the title, but this girl recorded things she heard from spying on people…. I won't go as far as spying on people… well maybe once or twice but I'll mostly say what I am thinking… I'll just make sure to never say something horrible….and I should put a lock on it. I should get to the library to research possible charms that could help me… NOTE TO SELF: talk to professor Flitwick.

I should also buy a notebook next Hogsmeade trip, come to think of it, that is a great idea. After all I suspect the guys will be buying presents and just being guys, Amanda and Lily will just hang out… I suspect Molly will be asked out by Arthur by then. So it will just be me myself and I. Sounds kind of sad…but I am actually looking forward to being able to go to the library, and finally catch up on classes, considering I hardly listen and I stopped talking to Remus so I am in a little mess here. (See, Remus takes notes and I copy them).

I was in the common room, sitting in front of the fire. I checked the time, but it wasn't that late. It was only 5 in the afternoon still plenty of time to kill. I had just finished my homework, so I couldn't do that. I could talk to Molly… oh wait she is, 'studying with Arthur' …the
Marauders and Amanda are out of the question… maybe I should just head down to the library and hope that I don't bump into Lily or Remus.

YUP! That sounds like a good plan! I left the common room and headed to the library. Along the corridors I heard Amanda and Lily talking so there would be no trouble on bumping into her. I just hoped that I wouldn't bump into a jerk like Snape or Malfoy. As I entered the library, I greeted the librarian, "Um… Good afternoon Ms Lawrence. I was wondering
if you could help me find some books to help me protect my things from nosy people."

Ms. Lawrence seemed quite young (around her mid 30s) and just said, "Privacy eh? Well I believe that we should have some books over at the everyday charm section and if I may suggest it, you might want to look over at the transfiguring every day objects section but if any teacher asks you heard nothing from me." I nodded and laughed. I walked over the everyday charm section and found more that what I expected… I think humans are too curious for their own good….that OR people hardly respect privacy.

I decided to take 10 books… if I could carry them… sadly I couldn't find a way to carry all of them so I stood there analyzing the situation when someone poked my ribs and said, "Boo!" I nearly jumped through the roof and turned around to give that person a glare. I turned around and frowned realizing that it was Remus…He had a genuine smile on his face
that made my hearth beat slightly faster than normal.

I blushed, "Oh… um… Hi! What are you doing here? I figured you would be with Peter or James or Sirius." Remus smiled and said, "To tell you the truth, I wasn't in the mood to be with them…I can only stand so much of all of them together… I've actually been missing talking to someone sane." I laughed and said, "Really?" My heart was in the clouds and my
brain in Germany, so I just stood there nodding or saying the worst thing possible. After about 5 seconds, I made mycomeback and my brain took an airplane back, so I was able to remember I was "supposed" to be ignoring him. Remus smirked and said "Yeah, I've actually been wondering where you have been. Anyways I was wondering what you where you
looking for so enthusiastically, I mean you've gotten 10 books in the 30 minutes that you been here." I just nodded and said, "Oh I just decided to do a little extra reading on charms. You know, everyday uses, anyways I have to go it's getting kind of late…I still have to finish m y essay for potions... well I am sure you want to look for your books.. See you tomorrow at potions." (OH YEAH SMOOTH!)

I levitated my books and left slowly.

I felt kind of guilty for being so distant with Remus when he was flirting with me. Fine, so maybe it was just concern attention but come on, he said, 'I've actually been missing talking to someone sane.' HE.MISSED.ME! I snapped of my self debate to find Remus not too far behind with a couple of books calling my name out loud. Uncertain of what to do I stopped and smiled saying, "I thought you had to look for something?" Remus blushed and said a bit out of breath, "I had already found the books I wanted I just had to see if I could find something in the section of charms and that is how I found you. Anyway, I got what I needed so I figured we could walk together."

My head immediately started talking to me, "Stop! Just ignore him."… I just couldn't stand being mean to someone so sweet, "I see. Well then I guess we should get going." After an awkward moment I just said, "So… um… did I miss anything? I know I've been a little distant but it's only because I am trying to… don't laugh…. I am trying to help Molly get a
date with Arthur." surprisingly he didn't laugh he just nodded and smirked,

"I heard something along those lines but I didn't take you for the matchmaking kind of girl." I was confused for a second, "I'll take that as a compliment." Remus just smirked and said, "I didn't mean it as an insult if that is what you meant. It was more a question than anything and
you can't really blame me; I barely know anything about you." I looked at the ceiling and said, "Well ask away, I mean, if you don't know it's because you never asked."

Remus was taken back and said, "I guess so well if you don't mind me asking we never hear anything about… you know… your parents." I tried avoiding his gaze as I would not be able to complete a sentence if I was looking at him. "Well… my mother and father both work in the ministry and they travel quite often, my mother works as one of the best Aurors in her department. My father is in the Ministry's international affairs of the world. Anything else?"

Remus nodded and said, "Wow, you have quite the genetics. I can guess where you get your brain from." I blushed, thinking, "OH MY GOD! He has to like me, why else would he compliment me… but maybe he is just doing it by accident… I mean I tell James all the time he is smart and I don't like him." I just nodded and said, "Oh yeah… definitely raw improved
genetic intelligent from both….see what you are doing? You are going to make my head bigger if you keep this up… if you were James this would be the part when you asked for money." Remus laughed and said, "Well… I believe you just answered my questions... so how come you've been so distant? I promise not to tell anyone."

I felt cynical trying to find a reasonable lie but nothing came up so I just shrugged but Remus just raised an eyebrow and said, "I may not know you all that well, but I can tell you are lying. Just tell me the truth." I sighed and was about to actually say IT but I bit my lip before
I could say anything so I just shrugged and said, "Well I don't really- um know- wh-why exactly… it mi-might be because I wanted to give you guys a break because I am still in the 'how could she' state!… and I figure you guys would be tired of hearing me complain." Remus stood silent for a moment, thinking it over, and said, "We don't mind." I raised an
eyebrow and he laughed, "Fine I don't mind, well I understand that you feel a little betrayed and who could blame you? After all you trusted Lily…right? I think maybe you didn't even care that Amos broke up with you… I just think."

I nodded and just said, "Yeah, I am beginning to find it a little bit strange that you are able to read me like an open book." After an awkward silence I smiled, asking, "is it just me or is 10 books floating behind us seem a little awkward?" Remus looked behind… and laughed. I was able to break the ice but it wasn't all that great, the conversation just drifted from one thing to another and I stopped hearing compliments or potential flirt attempts to my misfortune.

I had decided that if Remus got to ask questions I should have my own turn so I gathered up my almost nonexistent Gryffindor courage and asked, "Umm, Remus? I just wondered if I could ask you a simple question." He wasn't really paying any attention and mumbled, "Sure."

I started while wondering if he would start listening and said, "if you had any secret you would tell me right? (At this point he was staring at the ceiling) Because you know that nothing could ever make me think any less of you…. (Let's put his hearing to the test) Well maybe there is something but it would include a broom closet with let's say Peter or
James… OR SIRIUS!"

I saw Remus' sour face but disgust was definitely overpowering with a hint of shock, and I could swear I heard a loud complain not coming from remus but from someone... I decided it was my imagination. I laughed, "HA! So you WERE listening!" He glared and rolled his eyes, "I can assure you I am not gay, if that is what you are asking… and I'll rather be killed by torture that be in a broom closet that with one of them… and I did hear your question and… um… maybe I do have a secret but doesn't everyone?" I realize what he was trying to say and I dropped the conversation, "Fair enough… but just know if you are hiding something and you don't want to tell me because it will make me think worse of you then is okay but just know that I value your friendship too much to just let anything ruin it."

I said this while trying to avoid his gaze. If he saw my face, he would have seen the pain and anger on it. While walking to the fat lady I muttered, "The fat lady." Yeah, prefects are slipping on creativity, thinking the obvious is what no one will think of. Remus and I made our way through and as we were almost at the common room when we began to hear voices. I started to tell Remus to be quiet and stay where he was. I stood quietly and heard, "Okay, Arthur, I have to tell you something… I want you to just hear me out. And don't interrupt me see I-."

MUAH HA HA I am sorry but I didn't want to keep on going. I hope this wasn't TOO mushy…I will dedicate a huge chapter to Sirius next, and James too… I promise to leave Jen POVout of the next chapter WELL REVIEW!