Nee! Hi! Wazza? Well, I'm here agaaain! Writing the next chapter to this em… weird story? xD… ejem… I have realized that I write one chapter about Win, another one about Ed… and guess what? This time is the time to visit Winry again in Rizempool! xD… ejem.. I'm a little bit hyper today… so…

Disclamer: I don't own FMA, any character, place, thing… or sexy boy (Ed)… but I wish so much I owned the last one xD

A brief reminder..

'Text' that means thoughts XP

Chapter 6: Keeping up with the world

Winry's POV

I opened up my eyes as the sunlight came creeping by the curtains of my bedroom's window. It was a beautiful day, I could feel that. But for me it wasn't so beautiful. My eyes ached, my nose itched, and my whole body felt numb. I didn't know what was worse, to get up from my bed and stand the pain, or stay there and feel like I'm a vegetable. After a while, I decided to get up; after all, I was hungry… at last.

It has been a week since granny died. At first, I was so shocked by her dead… then came the denial, and the thoughts of hope… then it came hate, the questions towards the one above us all… but after that, came the sadness and the sorrow, of finding out that this was real… and finally, the realization…

It all sounds so simple, but of course, it wasn't… it took me a while to change from each stage to the other… and in the middle of that… it took me a lot to stay alive… I hadn't been eating well since that day, and I hadn't been sleeping well either… it was as thought my mind had blocked out the ability to do all of the vital necessities of the human body. It was as though my mind and my heart were ruling my senses… my instincts.

There's no need to think of that now… I don't think I want to remember how I felt at that time… Now, I want to believe that the day outside is beautiful… and it can be for me too.

It had costed me a lot of tears, screams, things crashed, and sleepless nights, to get to the point of thinking this way. And I don't know why I didn't think about it earlier.

Granny was always very comprehensive, even if she was harsh sometimes. She was kind and helpful. One of the things she hated the most was seeing me getting depressed when Ed and Al came back beat up, or when they left to their journey again. She always used to comfort me with her sweet words. "Don't worry, they'll be back" or "That bean is too small that he can dodge easily". These phrases always seemed to cheer me up again.

And now that she was gone, it was difficult to accept the fact that, if the time came when they'll come back and if they'll leave me again for any reason, there was no one left to comfort me with those phrases…

But it was logical too, that she wouldn't be so happy if I spent the rest of my life weeping over her death, neither if I died for lack of sleep, or by lack of food…

Heaven then would be hell… if I joined her there, and she found out that I died because of her dead…

I don't even want to think about that.

I thought, as a little smirk showed in my face. I looked at my reflexion at the mirror. It was a pale, more slender face than before. My eyes were puffy by lack of sleep, and my hair was a mess. I sighed. I focused my sight towards the window (that was a door to the balcony), and the little sunray that was creeping through the shut curtains.

Maybe it's time to see the sun again.

I walked towards the window, and, slowly, I opened up the curtains. For a minute, I was blinded by the intense light that crept through; after all, it had been a week since I was exposed to sunlight. But then, my eyes began to focus, and as I watched the sight, I couldn't help but smile.

It was so beautiful. Today, the valley seemed to be greener, and the birds seemed to be more excited to sing. I opened up the door and walked outside, and I was greeted by a cool air that was so comforting and so pure. It was as though my body was gaining force by taking some of the wind, as my soul was telling me to keep up, and as my heart was telling me that today was a special day.

And I smiled. I truly smiled. For some reason, I felt like I wasn't alone anymore, like there was someone watching me from above. I darted my sight towards the blue sky. And I smiled again. I closed my eyes and opened up my arms, as a new gush of air came brushing at my hair, my pale skin and my nightgown.

I opened up my eyes and lowered my arms, and I said with the smile still present on my face.

"Granny, from now on, I promise I'll keep living with the same intensity as you did, I'm not gonna let you down"

I placed my arms in the handrail and cupped my face with my hands, enjoying the beautiful scenery in front of me. Suddenly, I looked towards the dirt path that lead to the house, and not to far away, I could make out a brownish blonde head.

My reaction was of so much happiness that without thinking, I screamed to him. "Al! Hey Al! Hiiii!" I waved my hand at him as he directed his sight towards me.

He smiled and waved back at me, and ran towards the house. I smiled too and went back to my room. I walked quickly towards the door, first checking my reflex in the mirror one more time, and walked out of my room, not caring if I had no shoes on, or if my hair was a mess.

By the time I got to the stairs, he was already there, waiting for me. A big smile painted on his face. I could see that he had grown some inches, and I was shocked by it, still not accustomed to watch one of the Elrics grow so fast.

I got the impression that the Elrics never grew… thanks to that chibi.

Ha… baka… if only he was here… I could tease him.

But he is not.

I rolled my eyes without meaning it. Nice Winry, nice. There you go thinking about the stupid alchemy freak.

"Nee, Win? Are you ok?" said Al with a worried look upon his face.

I smiled, almost falsely this time. "Yeah, I'm fine". I answered him.

"You seem kind of pale, and you look tired" he said, still with the worried look. "Are you sure you are ok?"

"Oh, come Al, I feel like I'm being x-rayed with that look of yours, I'm ok. Yeah, I may be a little bit tired, and hungry, but I can fix that!" I said with a half smile.

He half smiled too, and I noted a rose tint in his cheeks that confused me a bit. "I was just making sure that everything was ok… so… where's granny?" he said casually.

I don't know if I was hallucinating, or maybe it was by my lack of sleep, but suddenly I felt like the little light that was illuminating us had been covered, or better said, like it had lowered in intensity. But maybe it was just my imagination, because I blinked and I could still see the same light.

I smiled sadly, but just that. I didn't brake in tears, or clenched my fists, I just smiled sadly. I looked up to him and said simply "She passed away last week".

Now, it was his time to get pale. I could see shock, sadness and confusion in his eyes. "What?... excuse me, what did you said?" He said almost in a fearful voice.

And it reminded me of my first reaction. And now I could picture all of the reactions that he was gonna experience. And the time it will take him to accept it. It was like I was gonna live the whole experience again, and it wasn't gonna be easy. But he was one of my best friends; I couldn't just say that to him, without explaining more.

"This is gonna be a long day" I whispered.

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10 hours later

I was sitting in the living room, holding a cup of hot cocoa. It had been a difficult day after all. I had to explain to Al how exactly did it happen. I had to explain to him how I felt and how hard it was for me to accept her dead. And it was hard to see him so down, so depressed, when he is normally so cheerful and cute.

But now, I was sitting here alone. He had gone to sleep early. And I stayed in the living room even after he left. I had a blanket wrapped around my body, to protect me from the cool hair that surrounded the room. After all, fall was already reigning and its cool winds were already present.

This kind of weather reminds me of those times, when we used to cuddle up in bed and sleep together. I sighed.

I had spent so many times with those two that it almost seemed like all my memories were about them. One of my first memories is the one when I was 6 years old, and they transmuted a doll for me. But of course, I was scared, because it was kind of creepy for a 6-year-old to watch a heap of earth rising and taking form.

But that was one of the best presents they ever gave me. I still have it in my room.

I smiled, remembering how ashamed they seemed when they apologized to me for scaring me.

His face was especially very different, it was more evident.

I think as I remember Ed's face. It was very rare to see his face not contorted by anger, stubborness, worry or any of those kind of feelings.

After all, I know him more than anyone… maybe even more that Al… in some aspects….But this is no good. I'm tired. I better get to sleep if I don't want Al to worry more. I think it's enough of sad and depressing thoughts for one day.

I got up from the couch and headed towards my bedroom, taking with me the blanket. I entered my room, and changed my clothes to pajamas. I laid in my bed and wrapped myself with the blanket and covers. I turned off my bedroom's night light and drifted myself to sleep, not before thinking one last thing.

I just hope one day I get to see him again.

I close my eyes, and drift of to sleep.

To be continued…

Well, that's it, I hope you liked that chapter… not very important, not very romantic either xD, but I liked it… I guess… anyway, it was long hehe… if you got anything to say, review, I really appreciate it... for now..

Oh and…

Chibi – small

Baka – idiot

Nee – hey

Bye! xD

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