Some Dark Things Turn Light
by: Ethiawien
DISCLAIMER: If by chance you have heard it before my story, then it tis not mine!
A/N: Does anyone read this?
Chapter Three: St. Mungo's
The next morning, no one could find Kieran. They searched the whole house, and of course, Severus was the one to find her. She was in the upstairs library, about to kill herself, he tackled her. She was crying and sobbing, he held her and took the knife from her possession.
"No, let me do it. I lost him, I lost everyone." Kieran cried loudly.
"You did not, you have me. I love you, stop this." Severus was crying now. "We'll fight this, both of us. No more." She sobbed uncontrollably and fell into him, crying so hard she couldn't breathe. "No more, Kieran, I promise you, that you will ALWAYS have me, and I won't let you do this any more. I won't lose you too."
"I'm sorry Severus." Kieran sobbed. The rest of the group came in and seeing the knife, realized what was going on. "I just, I can't take hurting people. I hurt Ron and Draco, and Daddy..." Each of the three looked at each other. "I hurt everyone because of this, I was just trying to help."
"You saved Draco's life Kieran. You did help. They just can't see that you and Draco made a mistake. But you are going way too far with this." Severus whispered. "They all love you and care about you. Just give them time." Kieran sniffled. Severus picked up her left hand and made her look at her ring finger. "You think this is going to stop Ronald? He loves you. No matter what. It would hurt him beyond belief to do something this rash. Not to mention poor little Titania. She has not left me alone since you left." Kieran laughed softly. The group watched the two of them, it was so evident now how they had fallen in love over the holidays, with each other, the cold potions master and the lost half-lycan, were completely different people.
"You make everything sound okay Sev. You make everything right." Kieran whispered. "That's why I fell in love with you. That's why we got so close."
"We understand each other Kieran. How much mistakes and bad choices can hurt us." Severus told her. "We both have horrid pasts that have led to doing horrid things to ourselves." She sniffled and nodded. He hugged her tighter and closer to him. Ron got up the courage and came up to her.
"Kieran?" His voice was soft and tender. She looked up at him, with a slight look of fear. "Don't be scared my love." He gently touched her face. "I love you. Come with me. Please?"
"I don't want to hurt you again." Kieran whimpered. Ron shook his head.
"You never hurt me. I just over-reacted we all do that sometimes." Ron told her. "I never listened. I thought you wanted to break up, but that's not what it was, you made a mistake. I'm sorry if I hurt you." Kieran sobbed and hugged him. Ron mouthed a thanks to Snape. Severus smiled, the whole thing broke his heart but he rather she be happy.
As long as she was happy, in the loving red headed boy's arms, both Severus and Remus couldn't complain. The potions master looked up at his old rival, Remus was crying, like he did at Lily and James's funerals, and when he found out about Marie. Sirius and Harry watched, they glanced at each other, and Harry pulled Sirius away.
"I'm done." Harry said. "No more trying to separate them. They're both being torn apart, they have that true love like Mum and Dad had."
"I see that now." Sirius said softly. "She's got her father's heart, faithful to one, always, easily confused, but faithful. She'll never love anyone like she loves Ron, and Moony will never love anyone above Marie." Draco came out, tears in his eyes.
"I almost destroyed her." Draco whispered. "All because I can't take care of myself."
"No, Draco, she saved your life, and you were hurt to see her so distressed. Who knew that being back in Canada would effect her like that?" Harry told his old rival. "If anything you saved her back, she would have been a real wreck when you guys came home, she might not have even registered it, from what it sounds, you woke her up, and gave her something to get her mind off it."
"By taking advantage over her." Draco spat. "I'm my father's son."
"No you are not." Hermione said. That's the first time the group noticed her. She had been standing in the doorway of her room, listening. "You wouldn't be this messed up by it all if you were anything like him. In fact, you probably would have laughed." Draco looked at her with hopeful eyes. "I don't know if I can forgive you just yet, but I know at least that you're remorseful about it."
"Mione, Love, please, I didn't even register until she bit me. Something about I can't even explain it. It's like I was under someone else's control." Draco pleaded.
"You just might have been." Harry replied. It was a growing suspicion in the group, that passed when Remus and Severus came walking out.
"They needed private time." Severus said, patting a nervous Remus on the back. Everyone smiled. "They'll be okay, it's true love."
Severus was right, Ron and Kieran were in true love. The couple sat in the library, in each other's arms, crying. Ron had almost lost the one person who made him realize that everything Harry was doing had a purpose. Kieran had realized what she truly wanted, love, unconditional, everlasting, powerful, true love. She had never gotten that from her mother or step-father, or anyone in Canada, but she found it here. Ron, Remus, Severus, the three people that actually cared about her. She wished she could have a time turner, and turn it back to when her mother first moved to Canada and convince her to give wait for Remus. She knew everything would be different.
"Kieran. Love?" Ron whispered.
"Mmm?" Kieran replied softly, looking up at him.
"What do you say to getting up off the floor and going to get something to eat?" Ron asked. "Kitchen full of goodies."
"No, you can if you want." Kieran told him. "I'm not hungry at all."
"Well then, you want to stay here, or move or what?" Ron asked.
"I don't know." Kieran told him. "I don't want to move from in your arms though."
"I see." Ron smiled. "Then lets just, one, two, three." He apparated them onto the couch across the room. She smiled and snuggled into him, the two fell asleep just like that. He held her tightly and close to him, even in his sleep.
Remus came into the library about an hour after he had left to find the two fast asleep on the couch. He smiled warily and covered them up with a blanket. He looked at Kieran for a long while, she was so content in Ron's arms. When he first left the room, he was so nervous and jumbled, he had wanted to call St. Mungo's and have her self mutilation and suicidal thoughts evaluated and treated. Now, he decided that was a decision that she, Ron, Harry, Severus, and he had to make, as a group, but the final decision would be hers.
The next day, Remus called the four others to the same library. He sat down and motioned for them to do the same. On this particular day, he looked older than ever. Kieran sensed something was on his mind, but he was careful not to come into contact with her, as the whole point of this would be ruined. He took a deep breath and looked at them all.
"Before any one gets upset, please, let me finish what I'm about to say." Remus said softly. "Kieran, I think we can all say, that there is a large concern between us as to your self mutilation, attempted suicide and thoughts relating to both issues."
"Dad I..." Kieran began. Remus hushed her.
"St. Mungo's has a facility for this, and..." Remus started to continue.
"No!" Ron snapped standing up.
"Listen!" Remus commanded. "I didn't just sign her up, I called you all here to talk about it. She would go in and they'd help her. Give her alternative solutions to running around with a knife and cutting her wrists open every time she gets upset. What if she does it sometime and no one finds her? She'll die! She almost died during the school year! I know you don't want that Ron, and neither do any of us. I want to get her help."
"Snape's helping her!" Harry exclaimed. "She doesn't need to be held like some lunatic!"
"If anything I'm hurting her." Snape said. "I'm hypocritical, we all know that, and what kind of help is that."
"Do I get a say?" Kieran said softly. They all looked at her. "I'll go, if Severus does to." Ron looked at her and a tear started down his cheek.
"Love, you don't have to do this, you're fine, just as long as you're with me." Ron told her.
"I think I need this Ron, and Severus does too." Kieran replied. Severus looked at her.
"I'll do it, for you Kieran." Severus told her. Remus smiled.
"And what if Voldemort attacks?" Harry said, angrily. "I won't stand a chance without her."
"We'll have to take those chances to keep her around." Ron said.
"And if she dies in the war anyway?" Harry retorted. Kieran paled. Ron's ears turned red.
"You think this is easy for me Harry? I don't want to let her go into the hospital with Snape! But I know I have to, to have a future with her! I know I have to in order for this war to be won. I know I have to, because I'll never forgive myself if she gets killed because I didn't support something she needs!" Ron yelled. "I am scared to death of losing her. She's the best thing that ever happened to me. She made me see why you do all the stupid shit you do, you do it for love, and for people like me, who don't get a say in who rules their life! I'm doing this, letting her go, so that when the time comes the two of you can kill Voldemort, and neither of you are going to die!" They all stared at him. He went over to Kieran. " I love you, with all of my heart. I know it sounds stupid, I'm seventeen, but it's true. If you need and want to do this, I am behind you one hundred percent." She hugged him tightly. He started crying. "I don't ever want to lose you, not now that I know what it's like to have you with me, I never want to lose you." She started crying too. Harry looked at them with disgust before leaving, how could Ron just let her go into the hospital, they'd treat her like some lunatic, just look what hey did to Gilderoy Lockhart.
The next day, Severus and Kieran were signed into St. Mungo's psychiatric ward, in the area for suicidal and self mutilating magical beings. Kieran was in a private room, as her case was more severe than anyone else they had on the floor, and Severus was sharing a room with a house-elf, that was freed by it's master and was found lying in the middle of the tracks of Platform 9 and ¾. The first thing the specialists did, was evaluate the two. They brought Kieran into a room and sat her down in a chair with optional straps, but they didn't use them just yet.
"Miss Lupin how old are you?" the woman ask.
"Fifteen." Kieran said quietly, the straps on the chair were making her nervous.
"When was the first time you started harming yourself?"
"About four years ago."
"Why?"
"I did something I was ashamed of."
"And what was that?"
"I had sexual intercourse."
"You are ashamed for that? Why?"
"Because I did it under pressure, it was more rape than anything."
"So you started harming your own body because someone else raped you?"
"Yes, I thought that I should have been able to protect myself." Kieran whimpered, she started to tear up, and shudder at the memory. "Can we stop now?" The woman shook her head.
"Why do you want to stop Kieran? Did you ever harm this man that raped you?"
"No, I never did anything, I never even saw him again."
"Have you ever told anyone about this?"
"No, I just, I told them it was consensual."
"Why?"
"Because I didn't want everyone all over me about it, okay? I didn't want their pity, it wasn't worth it. They wouldn't have believed me anyway!"
"Calm down. Now why wouldn't they have believed you?"
"Because I was buzzed that night."
"Buzzed?"
"Half-way drunk."
"You were eleven and drinking?"
"Yes."
"What did your parents say?"
"My mom and step-dad didn't care."
"And you're real father?"
"I didn't know about him yet."
"What do you mean?"
"My mom raised me to believe that my step-father was my biological father."
"Do you have hidden anger towards her that damages your relationship now?"
"She's dead. We don't have a relationship. Okay?" Kieran was crying harder now, this whole thing was just a horrible trip down her worst memories. "Can we please stop?"
"No Kieran. Now, do you miss your mother?"
"What kind of half-ass question is that you stupid bitch?" Kieran said. "Of course I miss her!" The woman looked to a man behind Kieran's chair, and nodded, the man then strapped Kieran into the chair. She struggled violently against him.
"Kieran, calm down or we'll have to sedate you." The woman said harshly. "Calm down." Kieran looked at her, and stopped.
"You people are monsters." Kieran said angrily. The tears were still running down her face.
"Okay Kieran, this isn't about us, it's about you." The woman said. "Now, do you ever wish that you could have done something in your life differently."
"Yes, all the time."
"Name one thing."
"Sign up for this. Now let me go!" Kieran started to struggle out of the straps and suddenly she felt a pinch. Her whole body tingled and she black out.