But maybe "someday" will never come.
Maybe I'm just hopeless.
I'll never be able to play well.
Or march.
And I'll never, ever be able to be confident!
I can't think this way, I can't….
I have to think positively….
But it's a funny thing, realizing you're the worst;
While it gives you motivation to get better,
It also makes you want to give up.
And all I can think is
"Someday.
Someday I'll learn to push past this weakness.
Perhaps I've gotten better over the past months?
Someday, please let it be better.
Make tomorrow not such torture."
I do not wait for me to suddenly become better,
I wait only for the strength to try.
Someday, I'll gather my courage and go for it.
Someday.