We're not going to take this!

Disclaimer: I own nothing! I am just obsessing about it per usual. Used storyline from I get a sidekick out of you, and of course I don't own ANTM, or Tyra banks or Miss Jay. It would be cool if I did, but I don't.

Summary: why won't Lorelai assert some control over her spinning out of control life? What if she does? How would Luke take it?

I just read very troubling news. No ASP and co next year. We may despise her for what she did to OUR couple, but still they are the lifeblood of the show. She is the messiah if you will, and we the decipels. Today is a very sad sad day.

'I never meant to hurt you.' Luke starts off, and Lorelei just nods. 'I know that Luke, but you did.' She says and Luke looks at her miserably. 'I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to know. I think mostly I did it, because I was afraid that it would change things, and it did.' Luke says and Lorelei just continues to look at him.

Luke felt like he was about to be interrogated or at least charged with some heinous crime, and he decided to choose his words very carefully. 'When I found out, it was just as you weren't talking to Rory and right after we were engaged. I didn't want to ruin things, and I am very aware that you can just walk away.' He says and Lorelei just raises an eyebrow.

'Lorelei, we are both very aware that you are the better one in this relationship. I will always be in this town, and I don't feel the need to leave. But you are so much bigger than this town. I am sure you want to eventually leave Stars Hallow.' Lorelei scoffs at that.

'What's with people telling me that I am bigger than this town. Dean said something like that to Rory, but you are forgetting something Luke. I chose to come here, I ran away from the big world, and I am perfectly content to live the remainder of my life in this little fish bowl quirky town.'

Luke is silent as Lorelei huffs. 'I never said my reasons were perfect Lorelai.' He said and she just stared at him. 'Ok, you didn't want to ruin my parade. Fine, you didn't think we belong together, fine, but how does that explain that you have shut me out of your life.'

Luke knew that this wasn't going well. In his head, he envisioned a quick description of the series of events. He needed her in his life, and the sooner they both fixed this, the sooner things would go back to normal. He wanted to marry her; to have the life he wouldn't ever let himself envision all those years, when she was so unattainable. He wanted to be a father to this all of a sudden child.

'You know what I want Lorelai' Luke asked her and he steps closer to her and reaches out his hand for her. Lorelai looks wary, but she sighs and takes his offered hand. 'I want to forget this whole mess, and I want to forget what an ass I've been. I want us to elope with Rory and April there, and I want to never be separate from you.'

Lorelei's lip started to wobble and her deep blue eyes darkened with tears. 'I want that too Luke. But you need to understand..' She starts but Luke hugs her and the sudden touch, makes her forget where she is for a second. 'I know I hurt you Lorelai, and I will make it up to you.'

He leans down to kiss her and they are both very involved in what is happening between them. It had been that way since the very first kiss on the porch of the Dragon Fly. Sometimes Lorelai wondered what made that kiss happen, since both of them were very good at sabotaging relationships and moments like that.

They separated and both smiled, nothing could take away from the spark. 'Luke, you know that I haven't had a good record with relationships, but I don't want us to become another failure.'

Lorelai always suspected that her parent's relationship caused herself to be horrible with relationships. She watched her mother over run the house, and her father just fade into his work. She was desperate for that mutual partnership that she saw on TV and she knew that, it was the only way she would ever be married.

Chris was always in the wrong time and place, and when they finally were able to get to the same place, it was too late. She was just not meant to be with Christopher, and that didn't really bother him. It occurred to her one night, when she had first moved to Stars Hallow, that if she hadn't gotten pregnant, and they were not left with a huge responsibility, that her romance with Chris would just fizzle.

Isn't that what all young loves did? Lorelei didn't date until Rory was six, and by that time, she knew that she didn't need to have a man in her life. She wanted one. She dated casually but it was pretty hard to meet guys that didn't have baggage at the age of 22, if you believe it or not.

Max Medina was really the first man who her daughter knew about. She thought about that it wasn't normal, to be so afraid to let one man know her wonderful daughter. She saw Max and Rory become close and it bothered her. That was the first time she noticed that something was wrong with her relationship. Maybe it was her, but it irked her that her daughter was getting close to Max. It was just wrong.

Lorelai spent the next few years avoiding serious relationships, and Jason just happened. This was the first time that Rory wasn't in the house, and she could avoid the enviable. Lorelai knew that the relationship was doomed or something, and when it ended, she released the breath she didn't knew she was holding.

With Luke it was different. She never had to adjust her life to let him in, since he was pretty much in her life already. He knew her habits, her quirks, her past and he never questioned her about it. He just accepted her as is, and it's a wonderful feeling to have that.

She knew that everything was going well; until Luke chose to keep his daughter form her. 'We won't be a failure Lorelai, if we fix this.' Luke said and she smiled. 'Your right.' She said.

'I'm sorry about my stupid behavior Lorelai; I know that I shouldn't have hid April from you. You are the best mother, and I never questioned that.' Luke says but he looks like he is keeping something.

'Luke what is it?' Lorelai asks and Luke looks around awkward. 'Lorelai we both know that you are the better one of us, you're the better parent, friend, everything.' He says and she smiles. 'No I'm not Luke, we are equal. Now come here my hunk of coffee god.'