Chapter 8 – The Breach
'This is not me. Why can't I get that brat out of my head?' The troubled Yuki was fluttering with thought about the purple eyed vocalist since the night that he kissed Shuichi Shindo. Somehow he couldn't let go the feeling of serenity from that one kiss. Something inside of him felt satisfied and warm; he had never had this feeling before. He had dated many women, but none of them had given him the pleasure that he longed for. All the intimacy and lustful nights that he had were no comparison to this one kiss. The kiss was indescribable, but if it was too wonderful for words to describe then why did he pushed away and walked out? Why didn't he continue to hold on to that moment? Why? As he pondered his thought in bed; someone was knocking at his door. "Who could it be so damn early in the morning?" He sighed and went to answer the door. "Touma?" He sharply glared at the man. "I thought that I've told you not to come unannounced."
"If I did that, then you'll just find an excuse to avoid me." Touma replied as he welcomed himself inside Yuki's apartment and sat on the couch.
"Grr…" Yuki growled. "Why are you here?"
"I thought that I'll drop by to see how you're doing, that's all." Touma replied gently.
"I'm fine." Yuki's voice was cold. He knew Touma too well that he had other intention than just a friendly visit. "Don't play games with me. Tell me why you're here so darn early!" He demanded.
"I'm worried." Touma stared at the messy haired Yuki.
"About what?" He snapped at his brother-in-law.
"You."
"I'm none of your business!" Yuki stomped away to the bathroom.
"Yes, you are." Touma said calmly and followed his brother-in-law into the bathroom. He stood at the door watching Yuki washing his face, drop of waters dripped down his lovely curve face. Yuki was so beautiful even when he was all cranky and in a worsted mood. "We're family now and the least you can let me do is to be worry about you as a brother."
"We went through this before. I'm fine so just leave me alone. You have Mika to worry for, so do your job and go home with your wife." He said while fixing his hair.
"I'm doing my job. I love Mika and I will protect her. She is everything to me." Touma replied.
"Then stop coming here. I don't want to worry her."
"Mika is a lot stronger than you think." Touma continued to follow Yuki into his bedroom. He pulled out his black suit from his closet. "She loves you as much as she loves me and I love her as much as I love you. She has no problem with me being here, instead she encouraged it. She knew about us and she fell in love with me accepting the fact that I loved you."
"There was never anything between us. It was only you, not me." Yuki replied bluntly.
Touma looked away to give Yuki some privacy to dress. He always knew that it was only him who was obsessed with Yuki. Yuki had never opened up to him or even given him a friendly look. Sometimes, he would look back and be so jealous of all the women that had spent time with Yuki. Why would Yuki fuck all those women, but never give him a chance? Maybe this was Yuki's way of revenge, his way to get back at Touma for what he had did so long ago. The only thing that Touma can do to repent for his mistake was to look out for Yuki and to help him find happiness.
"Yes, I understand. I'm not here to stir up any history. I'm just concerned about you like I've always have. Recently, Mika told me that she hadn't heard much from you and I grew concerned when I didn't hear much about you from the media either. Are you still writing? What is the progress of you newest novel?" Touma asked.
"I'm not a printer; I have my ups and down you know?"
"Yes, I understand but…"
"Grr…" Yuki growled again. "The novel is schedule to publish on the 24th. Are you happy now?"
"Good enough…" Touma replied and remembered that he had brought something over for Yuki, "One more thing."
"What?" Yuki thought to himself, 'Will this jerk ever stop pestering me?'
"I met someone recently that I think you'll be interest in him."
"Him?" The picture of Shuichi Shindo popped into Yuki's head, "My romance life is none of your business either!"
"Just hear me out." Touma tried to explain as Yuki headed out to the door. "Here take this." He handed Yuki a disc. "This is a recording of our newest band. The vocalist of this band reminded me of someone that I've told you about six years ago after you had your accident and forgotten part of your memories. I think that he'll be able to help you retrieve those missing memories."
"What more crappy music?"
"Give it a chance and let me know what you think about it."
"Fine. I'll listen to it later." Yuki took the disc and placed it on the kitchen's counter next to the microwave. He exited his apartment and shut the door behind him leaving Touma staring at the closed door.
"This is the right thing to do." Touma said to himself and also left the apartment.
Yuki came back later in the evening, after a long day he was tired. He had been staying up late nights to work on his novel. This novel had given him a lot of migrate headaches, yet he overcame them. Now, he couldn't decide how to end the dramatic love triangle. He had written an ending, but he didn't like it. He still had a week left to submit his final revision and he wanted to revise it, so that it would have a more realistic ending.
He went to his kitchen to warm up some Chinese's left over that he had from yesterday. He popped the food into the microwave and noticed the disc that Touma had given to him this morning. He decided to give it a try and shoved it into his CD player. He sat on the couch to wait for his food while the music started slow and a voice sang.
Open your heart
I'm waiting here just for you…
Yuki recognized that voice; the voice that he couldn't get rid of. The voice that had been repeating itself in his sleep, "I love you! I love you! I love you!" The voice continued on to sing as Yuki closed his eyes and drifted away; yet he could still hear the lyric running in his head.
In the mist of nothingness
Where time transcends and carries on
It delivers my beats to you
Open up a passage way
Allowing me reach your aching heart
Dig into your deepest thought
I'll be your salvation
No mater where you are
Past, present and future
No matter whom you are
I will find you
So, open your heart for me
Your answer is waiting for you
Open your heart
Open your heart for me
Yuki had fallen completely asleep and had the most exotic dream ever; he and another man together under the moonlight. There was something familiar about the older man on top of him; the most attractive dark amethyst eyes, deepest pink hair and lustrous skin reflected from the twilight. The man before was too beautiful, every touch made Yuki squirmed with pleasure and every kiss took his breath away. That moment seem like an eternity of delusion that soon faded into a thick mist. The mist transformed Yuki's fantasy into an ocean of uncertainty, the current of the mist moved like the current of ocean waves, rapid then slow and freezing all at the same time. Yuki felt his whole body turned numb and cold, and the last thing he managed to see was a pair of terrifying eyes screaming at him.
"NO!" Yuki screamed trying to catch his breath. His palms were wet and his cloths were damned from his body's perspiration. The sight of those terrifying purple eyes had frightened him.