Chapter 25.
Harvey had a hard time falling asleep. He couldn't stop thinking about Mike. He really hoped that his associate wouldn't wake up, and it made him feel guilty for hoping for that, but he couldn't stand the thought of Mike waking up alone. He also couldn't get the image of Mike being intubated out of his head. The way they had to hold him down and force his mouth open. It had been absolutely terrifying.
As it turned out he only got a couple of hours of sleep. He thought about going to the office in the morning, but he ended up at the hospital, next to Mike. The younger man was the same as when he left him. He looked a bit better than he had the day before, but still looked really sick. The tube down his throat didn't help his appearance. Mike was still sedated and Harvey was told once again when Mike's doctor stopped by that he would remain so. They didn't want to remove the tube yet, since they wanted to give Mike's lungs and heart some time to recuperate.
"And how long will that take?" Harvey questioned.
"It is hard to say at the moment. At least another 24 hours."
Harvey just nodded and looked at Mike.
"I know it is hard to watch him like this, but trust me, this is what's best for him at the moment."
They talked a bit longer and Harvey and Mike was left alone after that. Harvey felt his phone buzz in his pocket and glanced at it. It was Donna who was wondering where he was. She also inquired about Mike. He closed his eyes and just stood there feeling like crap for a while. Mike was sedated and he hadn't told Donna. He didn't know how he had forgotten about that. It had been pretty hectic last night, and he had thought about letting her know, but it had been so late.
For a moment he took Mike's cold hand in his own. It felt so weird standing there next to the kid in the bed. He squeezed Mike's hand a bit, before he put it back down.
"I'll stop by later okay. Don't you dare wake up before that."
Donna was at her desk when he arrived at the office and as soon as she saw him she stood up and came to meet him.
"Is your phone broken Harvey?"
"No, Donna. I can explain."
"Yes I certainly hope so. Where is Mike?"
"He is at the hospital. He got worse yesterday, that's why I didn't answer you."
"Oh god. Is he okay?"
"They have him sedated, but he will be fine. You don't have to worry."
"Of course I worry, and what do you mean sedated? Why did they have to sedate him?"
He told her everything that happened, and listened to her frantic ranting afterwards knowing she needed to get it out. She apologized after and asked if she could do something to help.
"No, it's fine. There isn't much that we can do for him now. He is getting the help he needs."
"And how are you doing?"
Ha sighed and told her he was fine.
"You look like crap Harvey. You should take better care of yourself, you are not going to do Mike any favors otherwise."
Before he could respond she continued. "I'm going down there to see him."
"He is sedated Donna."
"I don't care. See you later."
Harvey got some work done, went to a meeting with the other partners but had a hard time concentrate on what was being said.
"Harvey?" Jessica's voice rose him from his thoughts, he looked around the room and saw that everyone else had left already, only Jessica remained. "You okay?" she asked and he slowly nodded but didn't move. Jessica came back from her spot by the door and sat down next to him.
"What's going on with you? I can tell something is bothering you Harvey."
"Mike." He sighed and she nodded.
"How is he doing? I haven't seen him in a while."
"He is intubated and sedated at the hospital."
"Oh my god! What happened?"
"He couldn't breathe yesterday, he kind of collapsed." After he told her what happened her only response was to tell him to go home.
"I don't need you here like this Harvey. Go be with the kid until he is better."
"But…"
"Louis and I will deal with your cases."
Ha thought about arguing with her, but he was just so tired, and a flash of Mike being intubated changed his mind. So he agreed.
He called Donna who told him that things with Mike was the same as before. Harvey went home and just collapsed on his bed. He hadn't know that he was that tired. He slept for a couple of hours and woke up feeling slightly better. After a shower and a bit to eat he went to the hospital again. Donna was still there.
"I just couldn't bring myself to leave him." She quietly told him. She was sitting close to Mike holding his limp hand. He managed to convince her to head home though, and she told him to take care of the kid. He did.
"That's the plan." He reassured her. She left shortly after that.
"Just me and you then, kid." Harvey muttered to Mike's still form. "You're just going to lay there?"
He got no reaction at all from Mike, not that had he expected one.
"You know what? Jessica sent me home today because of you. I bet you never thought that would happen huh? I certainly didn't."
Harvey squirmed on the chair. It was pretty uncomfortable. The machine that was breathing for Mike was the only other sound in the room. A machine was breathing for Mike. Harvey still had a hard time taking that in. Now he was just sitting there.
"Come on Mike. This is so boring." He groaned and turned on the TV. He found a basketball game that was on. "You don't mind do you?" he asked Mike. "Though so."
– SUITS –
Mike wasn't sure at first if he was awake or not. He didn't think he was, because everything was kind of nice, but then, then he knew that he was awake. He became more aware of his body. He felt like he was floating at first, everything was moving around him, which was a strange feeling because he was pretty sure he was laying down. But then suddenly everything came rushing back to him. It was like he was hit with a wave, because everything seem to happen so fast. What he noticed at first was that he was actually choking! Something big was launched in his throat and he couldn't breathe, he couldn't swallow, he couldn't do anything. He had no idea of what it was. He didn't know where he was either. What was happening?
It needed to come out. He needed the thing from his throat gone, because come on, he was dying here! It felt so big, and it was forcing his mouth opened making his jaw feeling stiff. He opened his eyes in panic and lifted his slow hands to his face, but something was stopping them from reaching the thing in his mouth. He tried harder and tried to scream, but could only let out a gargling sound. He tried to trash and move his head from side to side as he fought whatever that was holding his hands away from getting free, there were pressure on his head as well. Someone was screaming. Someone was standing next to him and yelling at him. After a moment he realized that it was Harvey. Harvey was there and he was the one holding his arms. Why was he doing that? Why wasn't he helping?
But what was he saying? He was telling Mike to calm down, to stop. Harvey had trapped his arms hard against his chest now. It hurt. He took a hold of Mike's jaw and turned his head against him. The next thing he knew he was staring straight into Harvey's eyes.
– SUITS –
Harvey was so bored. He had stayed with Mike for a long time yesterday, before he went home and slept. He came back the next morning and the doctors told him that they would be easing up the sedation later, because some test they had done had them believing that Mike was better now. That had been hours ago. He had been told that Mike's body was exhausted and that he was probably sleeping right now. Harvey wished he would just wake the hell up. He needed to know if his associate was okay or not. He hadn't heard Mike speak in two days now. For two days he had been like this. Unmoving and silent.
The second Mike woke up Harvey changed his mind. Unmoving and silent was absolutely better than this!
At first Mike didn't seem aware of anything, but it only lasted a few seconds. He blinked a few times and then seemed to realize that he was intubated. He made a terrible gurgling sound and his hands started to reach up against the tube and Harvey knew that he needed to stop him. He threw himself forward and managed to grab Mike's hands with his. Mike fought him hard, but he pinned his hands down on his chest and then Harvey pushed the call button three times more than necessary. They needed help, now!
Mike was panicking. He was trashing widely underneath him, and Harvey had to hold on tight to prevent Mike from causing himself harm. Where the hell was the nurses? He couldn't reach the call button to push it again, and he refused to let Mike go. He couldn't let go, it wouldn't be good at all if he did.
"Mike, Mike, calm down. You need to calm down!" He was basically yelling, because it seemed like Mike couldn't hear him, like he was too far gone in his own world to hear Harvey. He just couldn't get through to him, and couldn't catch his eyes. It scared him. Mike's head was trashing as much as the other man could with Harvey's grip around his forehead to stop him from doing just that.
Finally Harvey managed to catch Mike's eyes with his. They looked into each other's eyes for what felt like a long time but probably just was a few seconds. But Mike finally had recognition in his eyes. Harvey could feel some of the tension in the kids body underneath him let go. Mike's arms stopped pushing upwards and the look of total panic ebbed away.
"Good, good, that's it. That's good Mike. You are doing fine. Just relax." He found himself repeating reassuring words to the kid, and the next minute the medical personal arrived and took over.
They made the process short of getting the tube out of Mike. No one bothered to get Harvey out of the room so he had the privileged to watch the whole thing. It looked very uncomfortable to say the least. They replaced the tube with a nasal cannula and told them that an oxygen mask was an option as well if Mike got worse again. Hopefully it wouldn't come to that.
Mike didn't seem aware of much that was going on. He was blinking slowly up at the people next to his bed and just nodded or shook his head at their questions. Suddenly they were alone again, and Harvey tiredly sat down next to Mike again, feeling the adrenalin slowly seeping out of him. Mike looked up at him when he sat down.
"Hi.." He whispered.
"Hi yourself. You doing okay now when you're not freaking out on me?"
"Yeah. My throat is sore."
"I bet it is. You had that thing there for two days."
"Yeah…they told me."
"You want to get some sleep?" Harvey asked after a moment of silence between them. Mike slowly nodded, and seemed to doze off a few minutes later.
Harvey studied the kid. Mike's gown had slide down a bit during the whole waking up and panicking incident. Harvey was about to pull the fabric back to its place when he spotted something white on Mike's chest. Was it bandages?
"Excuse me, Sir?" He jumped a bit in his chair. He hadn't heard the nurse stepping inside the room.
"Yeah, sure. I'll just head out for a minute." He stood and left the nurse to do whatever it was that she needed to do. He went inside again when she came back out and found Mike awake. He looked a bit flushed and Harvey thought it might be from embarrassment.
"Did you get a sponge bath?" He asked and smirked a bit.
"What? No!" Mike straightened up in the bed a bit. He looked a little bit better, a little bit stronger and not dead tired anymore.
"How long have I been here?" he asked.
"I told you that already. Two days."
"Oh. Okay." He got quiet for a while. "I'm pretty sure you didn't tell me that."
They argued about the fact for a while until Mike got tired again and fell asleep in the middle of their conversation. Harvey was trying to make a point, and when Mike didn't answer he looked up and saw that the younger man was in fact sleeping. Harvey rolled his eyes and stepped out for a while. He went and got something to eat and spoke to Donna. When he got back Mike was still dozing in the bed. When he woke up again he was pretty confused and didn't really seem to know much about anything. But Harvey had spoken to the kid's doctor and had been told it was normal. Mike was on quite heavy medication. So Harvey just did his best to follow Mike's lead and act normal.
– SUITS –
He was at the hospital. He just woke up. The hospital. It was a good thing. It was also a good thing that he knew where he was he guessed. He got confused sometimes. It was kind of scary. It definitely wasn't anything he was used to. Confused wasn't him. He didn't do confused.
Except he did now. He was in the hospital. Wait, he had already thought of that. What was wrong with him really? Was he brain damaged or something? He should ask Harvey about that. He looked to his left where Harvey was sitting looking at his phone. He asked and watched Harvey's expression. He looked confused too.
"What? Brain damaged? What are you talking about? You are not brain damaged." Harvey looked concerned now. "Are you feeling alright?" he asked and put his phone away.
Apparently he wasn't brain damaged, just high on medication. That was better. You could stop taking medication, and then if he did, he would become normal again. No, wait. Except that he would die. He didn't want that. He had almost forgotten about that. How could he have forgotten that he only had ten percent chance of surviving?
He should feel scared and freak out right now, but he didn't. It was kind of hard to care right now. He was just lying here anyway. And Harvey was there too. That was so great. Harvey was really there. The great Harvey Specter was sitting with him at the hospital. Mike, who was a fraud, a nobody, but Harvey was still there with him. How great wasn't that?
He felt bad when he woke up again the next morning. He didn't even know when he had fallen asleep. But now he felt sick. Like throwing-up-everything-in-his-gut-sick. Shit! He was going to do that. He felt it coming and thought he made a sound of distress to let someone know that he needed to get up right now. They didn't get that though, and he threw up all over himself. It was so gross.
"Shit! Mike! Wow…" Harvey was there next to him. Not so close though. When he was done Harvey patted his arm a bit. "You are alright." He said calmly, and Mike strongly disagreed.
A few nurses came by a minute later and helped him to sit up and change. They efficiently changes the bed sheets as well, he wasn't really sure how it happened, but it did. It was nice to get to lay down in the fresh sheets. He blinked up at Harvey how was holding a small basin. It was probably for him, if he got sick again. He didn't get to find out if that was case or not because he fell asleep again.
"Come on...Wake up would you."
Someone was mumbling next to his head and he forced his eyes open and tilted his head to the side.
"Finally! I'm so bored. There is literally nothing to do here. And watching you sleep is just as interesting as staring into the wall."
"You're weird…" Mike mumbled back and closed his eyes again. He was so tired.
"No, come on Mike. Don't fall asleep again."
He forced his eyes back open, and after a while he was wake enough to keep them opened. He felt kind of better, not nauseous.
"How long did I sleep?" He asked.
"Long enough!"
"That's not an answer."
"About three hours."
Mike stared at him for a while, and before he could come up with something to say Harvey spoke again.
"How are you doing Mike?" He asked.
"Better, I think."
"Yeah? You had me kind of worried there for a while." Harvey admitted and Mike just nodded a bit. He knew that it wasn't easy for Harvey to say something like that, so he let it be.
"Are you more lucid now then? And leave that alone." Harvey told him when his fingers traveled up to the nasal cannula. It felt weird, but he left it alone.
The day passed slowly. Mike was tired and his body felt kind of numb. That was from the medication he was given. He had it all explained to him. They told him what had happened with his body and the probable reasons behind his little collapse. It was all pretty scary. Hopefully he was getting better soon so he could leave this place. So far they hadn't told him when he could go home. He had asked, but hadn't really gotten a straight answer.
Harvey stayed the whole day, which surprised him a bit, but he didn't say anything because he wanted Harvey there. Somehow he felt calmer with the other man there, even though Harvey complained a lot. Probably just to keep up appearance. Mike caught him looking worriedly at his doctor as he listened intently what he was telling Mike. But Harvey didn't express concern to him and Mike didn't bring the situation up either. He was just glad that Harvey was there, waiting for him when he came back after a test.
He slept surprisingly well that night too. Maybe thanks to the drugs.
– SUITS –
Harvey surprised himself when he decided to spend another day with Mike at the hospital. Mike had been pretty out of it the other day, so he figured he would just keep the kid company for another day. Mike would appreciate it.
Harvey had managed to go home and sleep and then make it back to the hospital the next morning without Mike realizing that he had left. The nurses told him that Mike had had a good night. However Harvey couldn't help but doubt that when Mike woke up and threw up the first thing he did. The rest of the day passed slowly. It was pretty boring since Mike mostly slept, and when he didn't they wanted to take him for tests and stuff.
That evening he told Mike he would see him the next day and then left when Mike had fallen asleep. He had to go to the office tomorrow. Donna had said that she was going to visit Mike during lunch, which she also did. Harvey had his breakfast in the kid's room, and Mike was a bit better that day. A bit more like himself, and not as tired.
When Donna came back from her lunch she reported that she had left Mike sound asleep and that he had complained about wanting to leave because he was bored. Harvey felt like he could relax a bit then. That sounded like Mike. Hopefully he would be able to leave soon.
As it turned out they didn't want to let Mike go home for a couple of more days. Harvey thought that was for the best. He felt sorry for Mike, because he was clearly not happy about having to stay at the hospital any longer now when he thought that he was better. But in Harvey's opinion that was where he belonged if the medical staff was concerned about him going home. Both Harvey and Donna visited Mike as much as work allowed them. They had talked about it and Donna had made up a schedule so that Mike would be alone as little as possible. Unfortunately the case he and Louis worked on took up much of his time, and even if Louis didn't say anything Harvey could tell that he thought Harvey needed to be there for the meetings.
– SUITS –
They refused to let him go home. You are not well enough yet for us to feel secure about letting you go home, that was what they were saying. They kept taking all sorts of tests on him. All the time. He never got to a break. At least that was what it felt like.
It was so boring at the hospital. He just laid there, staring at the ceiling or the small TV. It was so lonely. He had some visitors of course. That was the highlights of his days. He longed for those moments. Weirdly he almost felt sad when they came, because it would mean that he would have a great hour or so, but it would be so much harder when they left.
Donna would stop by at lunch, and Harvey would drop in after work and sometimes also during the mornings before work. Once he joined Donna during lunch. That had been really great because they had brought food with them that they all shared. He hadn't been feeling all that great that morning so it was a welcome surprise to see both of them. However after they left he threw everything up, and got told off by a nurse. He was supposed to eat the hospital food since it was adjusted to his condition.
Another thing was that he apparently had some bad reaction to some of the medication or something because it caused the sores on his chest to get worse. They were from the radiation, and they hadn't been that bad but now they were. He had avoided to look at them himself, but judging from the reaction from the nurse that was tending to them they were pretty bad. It hurt a lot too. He dreaded the time when they came to change the bandages. It was truly awful.
However the nights were the worst. Sometimes Harvey would stay until he fell asleep and that was okay, but when he didn't, that was hell. One night he had been so upset that they had threatened with sedating him. He almost wanted them to, but they hadn't and he had calmed down somewhat to be left alone. He just couldn't help that he freaked out.
He tried to make Harvey stay longer the night after. He didn't think that Harvey was aware of just how bad he felt at the hospital. And he wasn't going to tell him, he just wasn't, because after all he was at the hospital to feel better. It was where he needed to be, that's was what they all told him at least. It was just that he didn't want to! He felt like a little kid, but it was the truth. He just wanted to leave. And if that wasn't happening, at least he wanted company. It was just hard to actually ask the older man to stay. He had stalled and tried to come up with new conversation topics when he saw that Harvey was glancing at his watch. He managed for about thirty minutes before Harvey announced that he needed to get going. Mike resorted to begging pretty quickly.
"No, come on Harvey, don't leave yet."
"I have been here for hours now Mike. You need to sleep and so do I. They will probably come and kick me out soon anyway."
"No, but you can just threaten them a bit and it will be fine."
"You think I should threaten your nurse? Yeah, Mike that's a great idea. They will spit in your breakfast."
"Yeah? Then you can get them fired."
"Oh come on, stop." Harvey apparently decided to end the conversation, they could go on and on otherwise. Mike certainly would have tried. "I'll see you tomorrow again." His tone left no room for arguments. And as Harvey stepped towards the door desperation surged in Mike's chest. He wanted to scream for Harvey to not leave. He felt angry at him for leaving, even though he knew that it wasn't fair for him to be. But Harvey just said goodnight and walked out leaving Mike alone. He cried himself to sleep. Not even a nurse came to check on him.
The next day was a setback. He was in quite much pain, and they upped his dosage of pain relief. Harvey didn't show up for breakfast like he done the day before. Mike couldn't help but think that he had done something wrong. Had Harvey gotten angry at him yesterday for asking him to stay like that, even though he had visited for hours?
Also the pain medication didn't really help when a young nurse came to change the bandages he had on his chest. She seemed a bit nervous and it wasn't helping at all because Mike quickly got annoyed with her.
"What the hell are you doing?" He yelled and swiped her hands away from the painful area after she had removed on of the bandages, he had several, a bit too harshly.
"Sorry sir. I didn't mean to hurt you." She said nervously. She has just started and Mike just wanted it to be over. Now he felt guilty for yelling at her as well. But he just didn't want to deal with this right now. He didn't bother apologizing.
"Just hurry up!" He said instead. It turned out that the nurse sucked at her job! She was so freaking slow and it felt like his chest was on fire. He had tried to brave it out, but she was dragging it all out so he was going crazy. He felt himself shaking and wasn't really able to stop it.
"Are you done or what?" he grunted to her.
"I'm sorry, not yet."
"Well I don't care, just stop. Leave it alone." He demanded not that nicely.
"I can't do that until I'm finished," she tried. "I can take a break if you need it." He just nodded and she told him that she would be back in a few minutes.
Mike tried to calm down his breathing. It felt like his skin was tearing more with every breath. It sucked. Nobody seemed to care either. They just left him alone like this. He hated them. He hated everything! He hated Harvey for not coming this morning.
"Are you ready to continue?" The nurse was back.
"No!"
"I understand that this is not a nice experience but it has to be done." She carefully told him.
"Yeah, no shit." He muttered. She walked up to him and he just panicked. He couldn't do it, he didn't want to continue. "No, don't touch me." He waved his hand in her direction to stop her from coming closer.
The whole thing ended up with the nurse getting one of his doctors and two other nurses. It was humiliating and embarrassing to lay there and have them standing over him trying to calm him down and convince him to get his chest tended to. They gave him some more pain relief and let it take effect before the two new nurses quickly finished up with him together.
He was alone again after that. He didn't want to be. He wanted to go home. He wanted Harvey to come. Why didn't he? He didn't even call to tell him that he wouldn't. How hard was that to do really?
He just wished that someone was there. It wasn't that much to ask for, right? He didn't really know why he wished for it so badly. He had always been pretty lonely, but now with the cancer he just couldn't stop thinking of how alone he actually was. The only people he had was Harvey and Donna. And they weren't there.
– SUITS –
Harvey was deeply engrossed in a file when his phone rang. He saw that it was Mike and answered after the first signal.
"Hey kid." He said kindly. Mike had been asleep that morning when he came, and he hadn't been able to force himself to wake him. In the car on his way to the office he had started to regret it. He had visited Mike in the hospital every morning so far. Yesterday Mike had been a bit sensitive and Harvey had felt a bit guilty for leaving after Mike practically had begged him to stay a bit longer.
"Hi Harvey." Mike said in a strained voice.
"How are you doing?"
"Ok." Was all he got. Mike was clearly having a bad day.
"Okay, any news about when you can leave?" He asked hoping for some good news.
"No. They haven't told me anything."
"Okay." He paused, waiting a bit for Mike to say what he wanted.
"Why didn't you come today?"
There it was. He should have left the kid a note or something, he probably felt abandoned now.
"I was there Mike, but you were sleeping."
"Oh." Mike paused. "It doesn't count then," he continued. "I didn't know you were there. It doesn't count. Why didn't…" It was a long pause and Harvey rubbed his face.
"Why didn't you wake me?" Mike whispered in the phone making Harvey feeling even guiltier.
"Yeah, you are right. I should have woken you, or left you a note."
"Yeah. You should have." Mike agreed.
"Well…" Harvey hesitated and glanced at his watch. He had a meeting in less than two hours, and he was supposed to prepare for that now. "Do you want me to come over now?" Screw preparing.
"Yes."
And it was decided. He stepped into Mike's hospital room twenty minutes later. Mike seemed too lit up a bit when he arrived. He smiled timidly and moved a bit so that he was on his side so that they could talk better. He seemed tired since he hadn't bothered with rising the bed so that he could sit up.
Mike wanted to know the details about the case, and it turned out that Mike could give him some useful input.
"I really needed a distraction. Thanks for coming Harvey." Mike said and smiled against him when they had talked about the case for about half an hour.
"So what, you would rather talk about this then laying here relaxing the whole day?" Harvey joked. It didn't work. Not that he really thought it would.
"Yeah I do. And I just want to go home. It sucks here."
"Oh, stop with the whining would you."
"I'm not whining, I'm just expressing my dislikes."
"That's the same thing."
"No it's not."
Harvey didn't really agree. Mike really was whining and he frankly he was getting tired of it. Mike was staying where he was until he was cleared. It wasn't really anything to discuss in his opinion. Mike clearly thought it was. Every time he was here was the same thing. Sure it had been quite a few days now, but Mike still had the nasal cannula, which to Harvey was a clear sign of the kids need to be at the hospital. He decided to try another tactic.
"Look, you can probably leave in a day or two, you can hang in there for that long." He meant to be encouraging, but at the look on Mike's face it didn't work. He looked devastated suddenly and was biting his lip.
"But I don't want to Harvey." And tears welled up in his eyes before he could stop it. "Please, can't you just take me with you?" he begged. His sudden change in mood surprised Harvey that quickly had to collect himself to handle the situation right.
"Mike…" He started and reached over on impulse and grabbed Mike's hand. He thought it would be awkward, but Mike latched on to his hand with his. Harvey just waited a bit and let Mike breath and collect himself a bit. He wiped away a few stray tears before he looked up at Harvey again.
"Yeah, I know I have to stay." He said quietly. He let go of Harvey's hand and turned on his back. "I'm just having a bad day. Sorry."
"No it's fine. You are allowed to have bad days."
"I just wish for a few more good days." Mike muttered.
"Yeah, don't we all?"
Mike nodded, and Harvey looked at his phone. Shit. His meeting started in fifteen minutes.
"Look Mike, I got to go."
"What? No. Not yet, you just got here."
"I know but I will be back later okay."
"But I just told you I have a bad day. I could really use some company Harvey."
"I'm not leaving to be a dick Mike, you know that. I have a meeting."
"So? Skip it? Have Donna cancel it for you."
"I can't do that. I have already tried."
"And what? You failed? The great Harvey Specter caved? That doesn't sound like you."
Harvey got a bit annoyed at that. What was the kid trying to do? Bully him into staying?
"Mike, I know you want me to stay right now, but you have to wait until I get back tonight, okay."
He stood up.
"So, you are just going to walk out of here then?"
Harvey sighed and went for the exit. He didn't want to leave but he just had to be at this meeting. He had already tried to cancel it twice but they wouldn't budge. Why didn't Mike get that? He was a grown man, sure sick and all, but he could wait a few hours.
"Yes, I am Mike. I'll be back tonight."
"Well, what if I die before tonight then? How would you feel about that?" Mike said heatedly.
"Certainly better then you, that's for sure." Shit. He regretted it almost immediately. Was that too harsh? Mike just started at him, and just as Harvey was about to start apologizing Mike spoke.
"Just go then." He said flatly.
"Mike."
"No. Go. That's what you want, so you should just do it!"
Mike turned with some effort on his side with his back against Harvey. Harvey didn't want to leave like that, but Mike was clearly pissed at him now, so he did anyway.
He could barely focus during the meeting. Louis kept throwing him dark looks.
– SUITS –
Mike was staring into the wall. He didn't know why he had said that to Harvey. Maybe to provoke into staying, but that had been stupid. That wasn't how Harvey worked, Mike just made him to leave quicker. But somehow that question was real to him. What if he did die? It was a possibility after all. What if he died here, all alone with no one with him? He didn't want that. It scared him so much. He didn't want to die, and if someone was there he would be sure that at least someone was there to try to stop it from happening. And then he didn't need to feel so scared either. He didn't want to be scared. It was so pathetic. Harvey would never have acted like this, the way he was if things were turned. But Mike wouldn't have left his side if that was the case. He would only have left when Harvey told him to. When Harvey got tired of his company. But that wasn't the case. Harvey wasn't prepared to do that with him. It hurt. It hurt, even though he tried to convince himself that he didn't have the right to think like that. Harvey didn't have that responsibility to him.
He really hoped that Harvey wasn't pissed at him now. What if he didn't want to come tonight as he had said? It made him want to cry. He was just so tired of it all. His chest was starting to hurt again too.
He fell asleep later thankfully. He slept until he was woken by a doctor that wanted to check his breathing.
"If your stats is this good tomorrow, we will let you go home in a day or two." He was told. At least some good news. Finally.
Harvey did come that night. He had even awkwardly apologized to him! Mike had of course apologized right back and they decided that everything was going to be forgotten. Well Mike couldn't forget it, but he said he would.
"I can go home the day after tomorrow, if I don't get worse." Mike told Harvey, when they were eating dinner together. Harvey's bought from the cafeteria.
"Really? That's great Mike."
"Yeah." He couldn't stop himself from smiling big. It really was great! Since he had gotten those news it felt like he was feeling a bit better. The only thing bothering him was his wounds on his chest, but he could live with that. He wasn't about to tell anyone just how painful they were, afraid that they would force him to stay longer then.
The next day he felt better, and the nasal cannula was removed. The test revealed that he could leave tomorrow. That was great and Donna who was there with him seemed thrilled for him too.
"That's great sweetie. Harvey is glad as well. He has really missed you, you know." She said.
"He has?" Mike stared at her.
"Of course he has."
Donna stayed until Harvey got there, and Harvey, without saying anything stayed until he fell asleep that night. Mike heard him quietly threaten his nurse a little to be able to do so.
– SUITS –
Hej guys! Here is another chapter. I hope you like it. Thank you for the reviews! It's really nice to hear that you still are reading. It's a really long story by now. I also wanted to thank the guest who reviewed, good job reading the whole thing again :p I thought of you when I wrote most of this chapter today. Also, the next chapter is basically ready so it wont take as long for that to come up. See you soon!