Heero's Journal
Entry Five: My Little Secrets
Today we bought a house.
Well that's not entirely true, we haven't bought it yet, but a contract has been set up. Soon it will be ours.
Now that I've begun to wrap my head around everything and got mostly past the denial and hyperventilation part of this show, we went to see the house and finalize everything.
When they went to greet me I shook my head slightly. They gave us both weird looks. I guess it might seem weird when two people who visited separately come again. Together. Especially if they're both males.
For a moment I thought Duo caught the look, and I worried that he would figure it out. But I witnessed several emotions run through his eyes…
Sadness?
No. I shake my head. Get back on track.
I let Duo give me the tour of the house and show me things he wanted me to see, the things he found special about this house. Every once in a while quietly inputting something. Finally he had a few questions he wanted to ask the owners so I wandered off and, once I was sure he was otherwise involved, went to the things I like most about this house.
The first I stumbled on by accident. This house is so old it has hidden passage ways. Some of them have ways out of the house, but there's a little… room? ... through the closet in the master bedroom that I would love to have access to.
The house isn't that large, but still, with the difference in how a house looks from the inside and the outside; the builders were able to conceal several small hiding spaces. At least that's all I've found so far.
I did go back to the closest place and traced the invisible outline.
There's another secret. Going there would be impossible though. And I don't want any one to know about it just yet.
For a little while I just wandered. This house really is beautiful in person.
By the time I got back, they were wrapping up and I was just in time to ask a few questions of my own. Things I had forgotten to bring up last time. Once we both were satisfied by the answers we received, we started to banter about the price. The number we finally settled on assured me they had no knowledge of the beauty residing within their reach.
After the matter of the house was resolved I found myself dragged off again. Looks like we're going out.
You led me back to that bar we went to the last time. I guess you enjoyed it. Tonight though I made sure to watch what I drank. There were a few times I had to grab your hand to keep you from pouring me more. You gave me this pout, and I almost gave in, but not this time. I have to learn to stick on this point. Or things will happen that are not so much of the good.
Finally I maneuvered you away from the alcohol and managed to convince you it was time to leave.
We got back to your house and I tried to put you down on the couch, but that turned out to be a bad idea. You kept your arms latched around my neck and I fell down on top of you.
Hey, what can I say? I wasn't i completely /i sober.
I tried to get up, but you just held tighter. Like you didn't want me to go. Your lips brushed against my own. Looking up at me with a shy expression like I have never seen…
I couldn't help but lean in and give myself to this moment.
……………………Today I got my first kiss.
It wasn't much but it was. And you don't remember.