I was mad then, but no more.
It seemed you were constantly yelling at me.
Whether for dynamics or rhythms or marching…
You were always on my case.
And I hated you for it.
I wanted you to just leave me alone!
But after the fact I see,
I was wrong to get mad myself in response to your anger.
You yelled at me so I'd get better, and I believe I did.
And while it seemed you were always too hard on me,
I know that's not really true…
What you yelled at me for, I should've gotten weeks before.
Looking back, I'm amazed at how patient you were.
Section leaders are good people.
At least generally, they scold with the purpose
Of forcing you to improve, not to hurt you.
And maybe they deserve more credit than they usually get;
I could not be a leader, this I know.
And, at least at the time,
It is easy to hold their attempts against them.