Previously

I opened the door, and yelled out to see if someone was home. No one was. This was my chance. I walked into the kitchen, and grabbed one of the knives, I rolled up my shirt sleeve, and was about to press the knife down, when the door bell rings. I curse for a second, then put the knife away, and cover my scars. I opened the door to see…

Just in case you forgot…

Begin Chapter 4

It was him. He had come for me. Why?

"Why are you here?" I asked him.

"I had a feeling something was wrong. Jude, let me in. Don't push me out." I wasn't in the best of moods, and I snapped.

"And like you're one to talk. 'Jude let me in, don't push me out.' I've been asking that of you since I FREAKING MET YOU! And yet, did it happen, hell no. Do I want it too? YES! I'm sorry I love you. I'm sorry that you don't love me. I'm sorry that something has to happen about this. Stop running, please. Why do you run away when things get rough? Why?" After I said that he did the best impression of a goldfish that I have ever seen. "Just go." I said and tried to slam the door on him, apparently he wasn't in the best of moods either.

"How can you expect me to leave, after you say all that?"

"Like this. You turn around, and put the left foot forward, and then the right. You do that until you get to your car. Then you open the door, step I, and drive away. Did you get all that?" He was still gaping at me. "Oh, and don't leave your jaw at the door, it looks like it might fall. Then I slammed the door on his face. I forgot to lock the door, so he barged in. "Do you know it's rude to come into people's house without permission."

"Jude… Why didn't you tell me this?" I stare at him and feel the tears that I wouldn't let fall. "Why didn't you tell me? I could've fixed that."

"No… You couldn't of. You've been like that your whole life. Why are you lying to me?" I screech.

"Because."

"Because why?"

"Because I'm afraid to tell the truth." I stare at him. Did he really just say what I thought he did? Yes, the look in his eyes.

"Then why didn't you tell me that before all this happened?"

"There wasn't a good time too." Then, there were lyrics running through my head, I ran up the stairs to my room, and slammed and locked the door. I picked up my guitar and began to sing/play.

Ever since I saw you,

I thought it was to be,

But through your cold exterior,

I knew you could never love me,

Because then I saw the truth,

I thought my heart was bullet-proof,

But then you came and shot me,

And now I don't trust so easily,

I feel like dying,

I feel like crying,

But no one cares,

That I'm lost in my nightmares,

My heart cracks,

And no one's there to pick up the pieces,

So they burn and turn black,

I thought you loved me forever more,

You were so loving my heart was sore,

For it was bursting with love,

But then you closed the door.

I'm a lover not a hater,

But I'd rather leave sooner than later,

Cuz the world is harsh,

The world is cold,

You left me alone,

When the wind began to blow,

Then a shot rang out,

Through the night,

It was a loud sound,

And it gave me a fright,

Then my world faded to black,

And I knew I wouldn't be coming back.

I walk through this storm,

An old love that had been reborn,

From the first time I saw you,

I knew it to be to good to be true,

Cuz in you I saw the truth,

I thought my heart was bullet-proof,

But then you came and shot me,

And my heart cracked for you were now an enemy,

And it shattered,

And the pieces went flying,

And it shattered,

My soul slowly dying,

My eyes slowly crying,

And my tears,

They were pitch black,

For the darkness you now fear,

Starts bringing back,

My love for you,

Which never would've been a dream come true…

I'm a lover not a hater,

But I'd rather leave sooner than later,

Cuz the world is harsh,

The world is cold,

You left me alone,

When the wind began to blow,

Then a shot rang out,

Through the night,

It was a loud sound,

And it gave me a fright,

Then my world faded to black,

And I knew I wouldn't be coming back.

For I'm slowly dying,

My eyes are crying,

My wings sprout,

And now I'm flying,

For you began my pain,

But you also ended it,

I realize now you always wanted it,

And now I'm gone,

My bindings undone,

I fly towards the sun,

And fly to my promised land,

Where the angels take me by the hand,

I turn to you,

And whisper, "Goodbye,"

Then the angels take me,

And I leave my world behind…

I started to cry, and I didn't know why…(A/N: It rhymed!) I took the scissors that I had on my desk, and rolled up my shirt sleeve. This time no one came to the door, and this time it really happened. I was pushed over the edge. I watched the blood fall to the ground, as each stroke I made the cut deeper, but not daring to go to deep. I was still crying, and I watched my blood mix with my tears. And I didn't know that he was sitting against my door, feeling my pain, and crying with me…

End Chapter 4

A/N: So… What'd you think? Try to guess who 'he' is… I promise you'll get it on the first try… For the dumber people out there… Take a few minutes, you'll get it… But I'll work on the next chapter and I'll try to get it up today, but I'm not sure, it will defiantly be up tomorrow, school or no school. See ya!