A/N: Do you guys like the songs? Or should I cut them out? All depends on what you guys think, and thanks for all the reviews! I am soooo happy… Sorry about the late update, hard week… On with the story!

Begin Chapter 6

Something bad happened.

It started like this. I had a show, and I was in my dressing room. I was doing my show ritual, and it consisted of 1 cut, and 1 pill, just to help with the nerves. I usually never pop pills, except when I'm really nervous, and that's usually right before shows. So I was waiting for the blood to clot, when there was a knock on my door. Oh shit…

"Hold on, I'm still getting dressed." I called out, and was rushing around looking for the Neosporin, and a bandage.

"Nothing I don't want to see." It was him again. Damn… Do I never get a break? I froze and I dropped the towel I was holding to my cut. And the blood dripped onto the carpet.

"SHIT!" Then I covered my mouth with my hand.

"Jude, you ok in there?" He asked through the door.

"I'm fine, just stubbed my toe. You know, clumsy me." I faked a laugh.

"If you're sure… Can I come in?" I had just finished putting on the bandage.

"Sure." Then remembered the blood stain on the carpet. Oh no… He walks in, and of course the first thing he sees is the blood red stain, on the white carpet. "I… um… Got scratched by the neighbor's cat?"

He gave me his look. The look that was like a wounded puppy. Damn him… "Jude, no one in your neighborhood has a cat. Why did you do it again? You promised me, that you would stop. I thought I could trust you..."

"It's not that easy to stop, Tommy. I've been doing this for years now... How can you expect me to stop in one day?"

"But you-"

Then EJ came in and said," Jude your on."

Thank you, EJ. "Ok, I'm ready."

I followed EJ out to the side of the stage, and when they called out Jude Harrison… I walked out on stage. SME was already there.

I played Skin, 24 Hours, Time to Be Your 21, Steal My Heart Away (Chapter 5), and the last song…

"I'm gonna play a new song for you."

Here you go:

Stop being a coward,

Stop pretending,

You said this would be,

Our happy ending,

But it wasn't and never will be,

Cuz you said I got hurt,

To easily,

And then I became cold and distant,

I refused to listen to better judgment,

Cuz I'm alone with a broken soul,

Where I was trapped in a hole,

Depending on where I am,

Depending upon how sad,

You are when we're there,

And on how bad people look and stare,

No one will care,

For ever long,

I have known that we were wrong,

And never again will we talk again,

Blackmail and nightmares,

You could always see when I was scared,

But I would never know,

I thought it was all a show,

You seeing the cuts on my arms,

And when wondering where they came from,

I could never answer at all,

Cuz I never wanted you to see me fall,

And break,

Cuz I'm supposed to be strong,

Supposed to know right from wrong,

Supposed to be a perfect person,

Or someone will notice,

And see the break in my façade,

Cuz I have to be brave,

Or people will worry,

And that could be deadly,

For my life would end,

By my own hands,

And the future gone,

Before it had even begun…

Stop depending,

Stop pretending,

There goes,

My happy ending,

For the happy days are over,

There are none left,

I'm sure you were smart enough,

To have guessed,

That we were never again to meet,

Cuz I don't want a repeat,

Of then,

Why can't you understand?

Forget the whole time we've known,

Known each other,

That you've known,

That I'm not like the others,

Even though we never were anything,

I still thought we had something,

Something important to me,

But you didn't want it to be,

And that's when I started cutting…

For a crush that was never to be…

Differences got in the way,

You never cared anyway,

You saw my pain,

But never said a thing,

You saw me sad,

You never said a word to me,

But then I was haunted by a person,

That I could never talk to again,

But the person didn't seem to notice,

When my tears began…

I heard the applause, and I searched the crowd for him. He was in the front row, 3rd seat from the left, and he had a serious expression on his face, and was staring at me. I just dropped the mic, and walked off stage. I went back to my room, and grabbed the razor blade I had used before the show. I was about to cut again, when I heard the doorknob turn, and I jumped when the door crashed open, and I cut to deep, I fell off my seat, and he saved me…

But then I woke up to see it was a dream…………

End Chapter 6

A/N: I promise there is more… I can't tell you anything or that would ruin the surprise… So review and I'll update faster.