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Truth?

The Day died, and then the night came and ended. Now the sunlight adorned the room again. Time is playing with my mind, making me think it happened all so fast, but at the same time so slowly, painfully.

I climbed from the bed and put my clothes back, watching him silently. My mind hurried me to leave such a confused creature and stop this awkward situation; but my body reached for him desperately, I tried my best to gain control of myself.

I stepped out and then in, out and in again. Shocking my head in confusion with every hesitant step I made. I suddenly stop and used my gloved hand in support to keep standing near a rusted wall. That was when he woke up; his complete body exposed, muscles stretching, eyes placed on me.

"You were gonna leave… weren't you?" It was almost a saddened tone. Like if everything of his life was this way, never believing things could be good.

"I… don't know…" Telling the truth is important for me, keeping quiet would be the same as lying. I didn't know, that's exactly how I felt at the moment, my mind ached in pain as I tried to figure out.

He climbed from bed looking at me with defiant eyes, his body covered by the sun rays that the sky seemed to spill. He headed for the bathroom, leaving the door opened; perhaps it was a bad habit, or he was inviting me come in. I decided to let my body guide sitting on the bed, watching carefully every movement he did. Surprisingly, water was still running. There was no soap; he only let himself to be covered by the liquid.

The curtain was open; I was watching everything that happened. He closed his eyes; the water now soaked his hair. It was almost as if he was begging me to go there, or maybe he wanted to kill my soul while my body was still on a 'living like state'. I decided just to be a spectator trying my best not let my body reign again. He finished his ritual and came back standing in front of me, still soaked. Trying to control my eyes isn't something I'm good at, so I turned to look at the darkened corner where I stood yesterday.

"You don't want to leave but you don't want to be here… isn't it?" I still could sense his heartbeat, his scent, the breathing, his gaze, everything I've studied and learned from him; all of them placed and pointing at me. How can he understand such a complicated state of mind? Was he the same?

I nodded and added waving my claw; I tried my best to smile even though he couldn't see it. It was a strange feeling. Now I tried to run away from there, panicking; no matter how slow I moved I was actually feeling the urge to run. The pressure was too much. I shouldn't be here on the first place.

My moves were done and I was near the frame of the door when he spoke.

"I'll be going to Edge to see Tifa, Marlene and Denzel" Trying to dry oneself without a towel is not a very clever thing to do. But he somehow managed to do it. Watching him placing his clothes on its respective places of the body was gift, letting me watch everything, even the simplest things that he doesn't show to the ones around him made my body shiver in pleasure and fear.

Those words he said in his sleep still echoed in my mind making me back off slightly. One more kiss of his lips could be the best thing, but one more lie to me like this and I didn't know if I could go on. He feels like something I don't deserve, something unreachable far away, untouchable for those of a marked sin.

I didn't know what to say or how to react; I didn't even understand the meaning behind the sentence. I just wanted to be "near" whichever that meant at the moment. I nodded, trying to forget all those painful words, moans, tears.

As soon as we left the room the put the lock on so carefully, like something so precious that will broke in thousand pieces if you're not gentle enough. He placed his forehead on the closed door and let out a sight. I still thought whether I must run or stay, I felt left behind as the space between us grew bigger to the point where the world fit in there and there was free space for a thousand more. Returning to reality was hard but it came as suddenly as he asked me to accompany him on Fenrir.

Being so close to somebody this much was frightening for me. Trying my best not to hold him by the waist, I hang on some other part of the motorcycle, but he kept of giving dangerous and fast turns and movements; I had to hold him at some point and when that happened, the ride turned to be way more calmed. Maybe it was a desperate intent for him to make me hold on thigh to him. He seemed angry, I can understand, but he doesn't know I heard him say his name on his dreams.

I guess it was like an unspoken pact between us now. Otherwise he wouldn't ask me to come with him.

We arrived too suddenly, from Midgar's old rusted slums near the fallen Sector 7; to the new rebuilt 7th Heaven, where the orphans lived with Tifa. "Tifa" I thought for a moment. I tried to imagine the reaction she might have when she finds out that out of the blue I came to visit, on Cloud's Fenrir.

We were welcomed at the place by a cheerful voice that repeated his name over and over again; calling for a boy whose name is Denzel. The other boy came quickly and greeted him with a big smile, and then he looked at me with confusion until she came to greet me too.

"Vincent! You came too!" The little girl clings to my leg trying to hide in my cape and I have no problem in give her what she wants.

"What's all the fuzz abou…? Cloud!" As soon as she saw him, she came running towards, I could hear her heart beat increase. I frowned my eyebrows a little in a worrying signal. She kept smiling so hard I felt my heart churn in pain.

"Tifa, Vincent is staying the night here" She looked around until she noticed me, looking at me with a confused face she said yes, I nodded.

Hours passed as he kept on talking to the boy. Denzel seemed so close to him, Marlene also was there but she mostly enjoyed the time the two talked and smiled; she watched most of the time. They left for the room a while later, leaving me on the bar with Tifa. The 7th heaven had closed earlier due to this visit he made.

She came and sat in front of me making sure I looked back at her, I was sure she wanted to say something, but she didn't. She kept looking at me until she realized I wasn't going to speak this easily, plus I had nothing I wanted to say to her.

"Cloud, he… has changed a lot during these years. He seems so distant, Denzel needs him, Merlene and… I need him back here; we're supposed to be a family." She looked really depressed. And I was forced to say something, I am no one to answer but I did anyway.

"He has his own life to live, he'll take the decisions he wants, and you and me know that." She wanted to say something in reply but didn't. Then she opened her mouth as if she wanted to ask something, I knew what it was so I answer the unspoken question.

"I came here because he asked me to."

"Why?" Now she was panicking, asking it loud; perhaps she knew something, I don't know. I looked straight at her with the slight anger that showed my face and stood up.

"Tell him I'll sleep somewhere else, I'll be around I he wants to find me." I left the bar and looked up at the sky, and then the rain started to hit my face. It made think of the girl that died trying to save this planet. I looked back at the floor and started to look for a place to stay dry.

It didn't take a long while, until I found a forgotten alley with buildings that connected with each other by a small bridge, at least it was something. I just have to stay there until the rain stops. Minutes passed and I heard my name on the wind, maybe an illusion, rats around the alley made a lot of noise, so I didn't know what to think.

Until I saw him, carrying an umbrella that seemed to be Marlene's, the scene was quite hilarious; I arched an eyebrow at the image. He noticed me and came near; looking at me with angry mako eyes.

"I told Tifa you'll be staying the night, she said yes. Why do you leave?" The way he was acting now was really childish; maybe being with the kids had affected him. I arched an eyebrow again; and he replied by putting the umbrella on top of me while he came closer for the item to cover us two.

"Will you come back?" I said yes looking straight at him; he understood and kissed me on the lips for agreeing his childish request.

The moment was interrupted when we heard footsteps that stopped in front of the alley. Tifa was standing there, she saw it all, the way we were really close and the kiss he gave me. I head him say her name in a whisper and she left for the bar running. He grabbed my human arm tight and brought me with him back to the 7th heaven.

We entered almost at the same time as Tifa did. But she locked herself on a room up stairs. Denzel and Marlene came out of their room to see what happened. Cloud slammed the door asking to enter; he slammed again until the door opened. Then the door was closed again and you could hear how their voices reached higher and higher tones, until they were yelling. Marlene grabbed my arm and asked me for permission to enter my cape again; I opened it and looked at Denzel who was staring at Marlene. He looked somewhere else and went back to his room.

"It's okay. They don't get along so well lately, Denzel hasn't noticed but I do. I need to go talk to him." And with that she left me, but before she entered the room where Denzel was, she said. "Just take care of Cloud…" It was almost a whisper but I heard it, and nodded.

The screams were lowered and the conversation was over. He came out of the room looking at me with a neutral face, then he grabbed my hand and led me to the room that he uses as an office, he closed the door behind us and took out some old futon that was carefully folded on a corner of the room.

"We're staying the night; the rain is getting worse." I thought of a moment of what have just happened while taking off my clothes and placing on some pajamas he lend me, the chochobo pattern is something I wouldn't use, but I couldn't complain, not when I have messed up this "family" of his.

The night was silent; I barely managed to sleep a couple of hours while he cuddled up against me. When the sun hit our faces I woke up and change back to my usual clothing. I wanted to get out of there as soon as possible, after seeing that the kids were affected in such a way, I felt even sicker of myself.

Marlene was standing on the door, perhaps she knew that I'll be trying to run; she's such a perceptive girl.

"There's nothing wrong in it. It's just that Denzel sees Cloud as his hero, it'll be hard at the beginning, but he needs to understand Cloud is a human being with feelings like the rest of us." She took me outside holding my hand. I thought for a moment at the girl's words. Idolizing someone to discover that person is just like the rest of us, must be really hard.

Tifa's voice can be heard even outside, complaining and asking obvious questions. She wanted him to stay; I didn't hear any response for those questions. Denzel went out to find Marlene; he looked at me with saddened eyes, and then reached for the girl. Both were about to enter when the boy spoke.

"I can protect Tifa, but she needs Cloud, he… he'll come back, right?" I never saw his face; he went in so fast that there was no answer from me. But I knew too well he'll come back, Denzel is really important for Cloud.

I waited outside, still doubting if I should be here. The screams started again, the quarrel took at least two hours, or maybe more; I don't know, I left the place and headed to somewhere he knows to well. I needed some guidance.

The wooden floor complained with every step I made. The place was almost in shambles, the little water spring was still there. I sat on one of the benches and looked at the sky trough the missing ceiling. My heart aches, my body protests and my soul begs for him. I was too tired because I didn't sleep well last night and the night before. I closed my eyes slowly and slept there on an old bench.

After what I thought to be several hours, I woke up; wandering where he could be. I looked at the flowers and noticed a bunch of them were missing and that it must have happened while I slept because I remember the garden was in complete state. So suddenly I heard Fenrir's roar. He was here, all too unconcerned, he looked at me with saddened eyes.

"You woke up… I'm sorry about Tifa… I-"

"It's okay. I understand it all too well"

He reached for me to hold me, not letting me go. I wondered about a lot of things on that moment, but the one that pierced into my mind was the fact that we were on his 'sacred place', and he was holding me there, like if the place meant nothing for him. I questioned myself again and again if this was a dream or reality. My hands moved on it's own to embrace him back.

My mind questioned itself about the flowers. Was he the one who cut them? I looked at him to see his view placed on the now missing plants. He noticed and looked back at me.

"We need to get some rest, let's go to an 'inn' I have to get some sleep, tomorrow I gotta make some deliveries and…"

He went on talking about how much he liked to travel by motorcycle and I just listened. This was the first time in years I heard him speak this much; but this time it wasn't the other's man personality, it was his. I couldn't help myself but to smile awkwardly while he showed me more of himself.

We arrived at a somewhat small inn that was near the outskirts of "Edge", he tried to find the one closest to Midgar. The place was nearly decorated; it looked more like an old and forgotten store than an inn. We climbed up stairs to our room.

"You gotta go get a shower Vincent" he said as he closed the door carefully behind us. I looked back at him with a strong glare.

"I-I… don't mean that you're, well it's just that… arrgh… you know what I'm trying to say, don't you?" He looked back at me with a complete blush covering his cheeks; he had just won the never started war with that, and so I stepped into the bathroom.

I left the door slightly open, just enough for him to peek if he wanted to, but I kept the curtains closed for a little privacy. My clothes and armor were soon removed and I found myself encircled by the warmth water that spilled the shower. The scars that were placed everywhere on my body only brought back painful memories, I wondered if he could see me the same way as he does now when he looks at this abused body. I kept my mind on cleaning myself rather than start a mental conversation with my sinful self.

I started by rubbing the soap on my chest, when I suddenly, heard some noises from the room, then a scream, I stepped instantly out of there to see what have happened. Cloud was there on the floor; he had tripped breaking a jar with some water and withered flowers. He looked back at me and blushed as hard as his skin could tolerate. I stared at myself in fear and went back to the bathroom as fast as I could.

This time I closed the door behind me. I'm not ready for him to see me like this, not at all. I stepped onto the shower and try to forget everything that happened; I could have achieved my goal, but he stepped into the bathroom as well. He opened the curtain really fast I didn't have time to react; I only covered my non-human arm with my other hand and turn to the other side. He stepped in too, with his clothes still on, grabbing the abominated arm that the experiments left on me. I couldn't dare to look back at him.

I felt as my hand was lifted and kissed. Trembling I looked back at him, with terrified eyes, he smiled and hold my hand closer to him; I could feel the immense carefulness he was applying, to the point I knew something was holding me but it was just a very thin sensation; the warmest cold hand I've felt in my life.

Carefully I removed my hand from the soft feeling that his body gave me. I looked at the monstrosity that my limb is, and shiver for a reason I couldn't understand. I looked back at him to notice his shirt was now missing and he was now unzipping his pants. So suddenly, he was barely naked as I was.

My eyes devoured shamelessly every inch of his body; he noticed and smiled back as he placed his hands on my chest I shivered again then he hold me pressing closer to reach the soap that lied near the wall that faced my back, then, I moaned as he started to travel my whole self with his soft sleekly hands. I let him do as he pleased for a while until the beast within me took possession of my body, fighting it was not impossible, but as a sinner as I am, I didn't do anything about it.

I found myself pressing against his body more and more until he was totally against a wall, the water hitting my back, his body shivered a little when he felt the cold of the tiles on his back; but he smiled, closing his eyes, he hugged me pressing our bodies even closer. Moans and groans could be heard from the damped bathroom now. My human hand touched every single area that'll bring more noises from him; I remembered every inch of his flesh so clearly.

His hair was still dry, his body all wet I trailed all his muscles lines with my tongue, my right hand playing with him, so suddenly he laughed.

"It tickles…" I looked up at him; he looked back with warm eyes that I've never seen before. It was almost everything so perfect, but I couldn't see me reflected on those mako eyes, I started to wonder again, until he kissed my forehead so tenderly.

I whispered something in his ear, the exact words, I can't remember them but he nodded softly and then turned around facing the now warm tiled wall. My right hand traveled on his hipst. He arched his back in response while I applied more and more pressure with my hand feeling the lubricant that'll help me; I let his member go. He groaned in discontent for a moment, and then he arched his back even more when he felt my finger inside of him. He moaned and another finger was inside.

A minute or two of intensified movement and he was prepared for me. The hot air made me dizzy and I have to use both hands to help me get inside of him. He felt so tight, so good; from all the sins I've experience in my life this one, is the one that I'll keep on doing forever without remorse.

I was so into my own pleasure that I didn't noticed when or how but be were both on our knees now; he, using his hands in support and also to thrust back, making sure that I'll hit that spot with ever movement we made. I was almost there, I could feel it come.

"AH!... Za…Zack…!"

My eyes went wide in surprise and anger I could feel chaos taking my body, I went out of him and then in so violently, my body still ached, it needed release, he fell to the floor hitting hard and I used my hands to keep thrusting harder more violently until it came out. He cried in pain twice maybe trice, when I was finished. I pulled out with my hands so rough that he'll probably have bruises all over his hips for the next days. He cried again while he was left the on the floor naked, still unable to release, the hot water hitting his back.

Hurrying as much as I could, I took all my clothing and armor and went to the bedroom, anger and sadness increasing ever second until I couldn't move. I heard noises from the bathroom, he probably fell again, I didn't care for the moment, I tried my best to dress up again. Making sure I didn't forget any of my belongings I headed to the door and opened it. I was halfway on the hallway, when he stopped me, still naked soaked in water, his cheek red from the previous fallings, lips parted and slightly bleeding, his member still erected and in pain. Leaning closer to me he cried placing his head on my chest, I didn't move. He sobbed and sobbed something that I couldn't understand, perhaps a sorry.

"I'm sorry Vincent. I'm sorry. Don't go! Don't leave! I need you!" I couldn't believe that anymore, I felt as a puppet used for pleasure while he fantasized over somebody else. I was about to pull him away when he spoke.

"I love you… I really do, It's just that… that…" a long pause and I felt my heart working in spasms.

"Vincent I love you!" He sobbed and cried and leaned closer and closer to me, not letting me go. I didn't know what to do, or to say, my body believed him but my soul totally hated him now. And I did what I do best, I hugged back and bundle all of these fears inside, bottle up all of this pain, so no one or nothing can't take it away. The decision is made.

A dirge for the now gone heart.

End of chapter two…

more angst, I know... R&R