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On this chapter Cloud narrates what happens when Vincent leave (remember last chappie?)… more ANGST… lol

A Signal from her.

Flashback

It suddenly felt like a time long ago when I was left behind by everything and I found myself so confused that I hardly knew who I was. It hit me hard again. I wanted to talk, to let everything out, but instead I only let those fears inside, shutting away the words that could probably come from my mouth.

Tifa stood there, still crying, downing in her own selfishness. Cursing me, blaming me for the "broken" family we have. The ones that worried me the most on this moment were Marlene and Denzel.

I did what I do best; making a sign to Denzel in poof that he was now the one who would take care of things for a while. He nodded, Marlene smiled sadly; I left.

Not much has changed in the "house"; it has mostly been like this since I started my delivery service, which I still have to run. The door creaked as it closed behind me. The 7th Heaven was no longer open for me in a couple of days, perhaps a week, maybe more. Fenrir waited for me at the entrance, but I suddenly noticed 'somebody else' wasn't.

"Vincent!" I called him without response. I didn't blame him for going away, maybe he hated me now. I needed guidance, I pleaded for a signal that this wasn't true, but nothing came. I became more and more anxious and I started to drive to the only place that'll bring calm to me.

The old church brought so many memories, of all kinds, all of them so different; but still it felt nice to be here. Suddenly I realized some red fabric was hanging from one of the benches sides. My eyes went wide and I ran towards it.

It was a signal, something that shocked me so much it made me smile and cry at the same time. I kneeled near the bench using my hands to cover my eyes; I let some tears escape. Vincent was lying there, sleeping. I knew it had to be something special, he never came here; he doesn't have a reason for it.

Everything pointed into one direction. Was this the signal I was waiting for?

I wasn't ready to let go all the past behind me now. I took as many flowers as I could and escaped as soon as possible from there. Trembling, crying in pain, but still I managed to drive to the place that'll made my mind clear enough to think about the situation.

Some minutes died while I wasn't aware of their existence, the time-space logical part of my brain didn't work at all. It could have been hours of driving, but I reached our "part ways" place.

The sword was still standing there, watching Midgar rot, watching me suffer and hurting everybody around me. I walked closer to it, letting the flowers fall to the floor, decorating the desert surroundings.

I wanted so desperately to talk to him, to see him, to feel him again. Nothing seemed right at this point, my own vision of life was all twisted, allowing someone else in when the place was already taken… No, it felt so wrong. I fell onto my knees, pressing my forehead to the rusted buster sword, the only thing that was left from him.

From all the people I've known in through my life, he was the only one that didn't want anything in return. He could give away everything just for me.

I shivered, trembled and fell completely to the ground, so pathetically. My blindness in those moments of the past haunted me tremendously, not letting me think. Out of nowhere I started to dig through the ground with my gloved hands, only achieving to hurt myself.

"He hates me now, I know…" I felt sick and tired of myself. My head hurted as well as my heart, I complained about everything, busting in tears more and more intensely, time standing still for me. My air ran out at some point when I was on the ground, the tears stopped as I soon as my lungs battled for air. I tried to stand with the help of the old sword.

My mind became clear as I thought of him. He'll most likely laugh at the moment and pat me on the head. How can someone be so kind hearted? If he saw me right now, I know he'd back off, caring only about how I feel. Everything he gave to me, the life he let me live; I'm paying it with tears… how shameful, how repugnant.

"I shall live for your sake as well…" I've said that before and yet after all this, I dare to say it again. It doesn't matter how much I try to enjoy the life he gave me, things seem to get worse and worse making me feel it's not worth living it.

I tried to smile the best I could, remembering he always did for me, at least I had the power to give that back.

Kissing goodbye the handle of the buster sword, I went back to the church, where the only person that could heal me was waiting. I shall not let him go now, for he has become the only truth I'll know from now on.

My existence: a soulless body begging for love and mercy.

End of flashback

End of chapter.

This wasn't the longest chapter ever, I know, but I needed this for you to know what happened on that part where vinnie slept on chappie 2

Chapter 4 is giving me a real headache right now, but it'll be up soon I promise

(you know I love ZackxCloud blah blah blah… I dunno why I wrote this story…)