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Warnings: Slash and Language.
Harry's POV
A silence covered the house; it was after all, midnight. Hermione and Blaise were long since retired, and Draco had disappeared not long after his mother left. And here I was. Sitting in the kitchen, in front of the fire. Alone.
I had come to expect loneliness. It was a very familiar feeling.
In America, I didn't have many friends. Not real friends. They all knew who I was. That was the extent of it.
A figure moved in the darkness and I swung around, pointing my wand into the shadows.
"Watch it Potter, you could poke someone's eye out." Draco said, looking at me carefully from his seat across from me at the table.
I blinked
"What the…"
"Hell? Quite. Its called insomnia. Seems we both have it." He drawled
Sighing, I sat back in my chair
"Next time, try not to scare the life out of me."
"Sorry 'bout that. But you're a bit jumpy Potter." He stated, crossing his arms over his bare chest. I sighed
"If you were me. You would be too." I stated, he chuckled
"Maybe. But who says I'm not jumpy?" He asked, I perked an eyebrow
"You certainly don't look it."
He frowned
"I'm not supposed to." He said quietly, looking out the window. I frowned and stared at the table. "I was afraid…"
I looked up
"What?"
"I was afraid. That's why I left."
"I…" I started, but he held up a hand
"I know you don't want to know why. But listen anyways. I need to tell you. I need to apologize Harry."
He explained quietly, I sighed and looked down
"Fine."
"I left…for several reasons. I was scared…ashamed…overwhelmed…crushed and disappointed." He said quietly, I looked up
"Disappointed?" I asked, he frowned
"With myself." He admitted quietly, I gave him a confused look "I couldn't believe, after all the things I had been through in my life…that…one little thing could make me want to die."
There was a silence and I looked at the table
"Draco…what…would do that?"
Draco was silent for a moment
"You."
I blinked
"What?"
"Do…you know what it feels like…to see someone you love…hurt like that Harry? Do you?"
I frowned
"I may…have been hurting…because I had to kill him Draco. But it hurt more when you left." I stated bitterly, Draco sighed and looked down
"I was a kid Harry. Seeing him again was just too much for me to think clearly."
"Seeing who Draco? Your father?" I snapped, Draco chuckled sourly
"Him? No. Tom, Harry." He stated, blinking, I looked over his face
"What reason did you have to fear him? Besides the obvious." I asked curiously, he looked away, avoiding my gaze
"I think…that its time for me to retire Harry." He stated, standing up. I blinked
"What? After all that, you aren't even going to tell me?" I asked, Draco looked at me and shook his head slightly
"No. I'm not." He stated, before walking out of the room. I stood and followed him, grabbing his arm lightly
"Draco…" I said quietly, he turned and looked me in the eye
"Goodnight Harry." He said, pulling his arm away gently and walking towards the stairs
"Goodnight Draco…"
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Blaise's POV
I sat at the kitchen table, asleep over a cup of tea. It was how I spent most of my mornings.
"Blaise, do you mind helping me a bit?" I heard Hermione call. I blinked blearily and downed the rest of my tea before standing and walking into the parlor
"What's up Mi?" I yawned, Hermione turned to me with a pleading look
"Help?"
I chuckled; she was completely covered in tinsel.
"My angel…" I said quietly, picking a tiny bit out of her hair, she smiled softly
"Oh really now?" She laughed, brushing as much as she could off of her clothes, I nodded; she looked up at me and perked an eyebrow "Well then Romeo, mind helping your angel decorate the parlor?"
"Maaaaaaaybe." I said, she perked her eyebrow higher "On one condition."
"Oh reaaally?" She copied, I nodded, smirking slightly "What might that condition be?"
I pondered for a second
"Say you love me." I demanded, she grinned
"No."
"What? Why not?"
"Beeeeecaaause."
"Whhhhhyyyyyy…" I whined, Hermione smiled and picked the last of the tinsel out of her hair
"'Cause it's cute when you whine."
I blinked
"Eh?"
"You heard me."
Blinking, I sighed
"Well then."
"I love you Blaise…" She said quietly, I smiled slightly and hugged her carefully
"I know…I love you too Mi…"
"God you two are mushy." Draco grumbled, flopping onto our couch
"Thanks Black." I grinned at him; he looked horrible "Didn't sleep well eh?"
He glared. That was enough answer, but Hermione obviously didn't catch it and proceeded to fuss over him. I glanced at the clock
"Mi, its time for your appointment." I stated, she looked up and nodded, standing and walking over to me
"Draco, we'll be back a little after one." Hermione said, Draco nodded absently, staring past us into the hall. I took Hermione's hand and apparated away.
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Draco's POV
He was standing in the hall…gazing at the pictures of events we both missed. He smiled sadly as he happened upon the wedding pictures and looked down with a guilty expression. I stood and walked up behind him quietly
"It looks like quite the event…doesn't it?" I asked softly, he turned and nodded
"Yeah…"
I looked over the pictures
A smiling Hermione and her father, in the middle of a dance.
A teary-eyed Ron and Sirius, trying to hide the emotion that was apparent
Severus, standing sourly in the corner…next to my mother who was smiling like there was no tomorrow
And Averina, standing apart from everyone, gazing at Blaise with pride subtly taking over her face
I looked away and something else caught my eye, the class picture. I frowned and looked at Harry, who was still looking over the wedding pictures and sighed quietly
I still loved him…sure. I never stopped.
But I had a feeling Harry did stop. I wouldn't blame him if he did, not after what I did to him. I was surprised anyone would've wanted to be around me after I just left like that.
Harry looked up and gave me a small smile, before looking away and starting down the hall.
"Harry…" I said quietly, he stopped and turned
"Yeah Draco?"
"I…"
He gave me a patient look
"I still…love you. You know." I said quietly, looking him directly in the eye. A strange expression took over his face and he looked away, nodding
"Yeah. I know." He replied, before turning and walking away. I blinked and looked down before turning and starting in the other direction.
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