PART 5:
RON'S POV:
If there's something that should be said about Neville it's that he never seems to be phased by anything anymore.
After careful watching of him I've noticed that everything about him has this sort of 'unreal' presence to him. As if he doesn't really see anything and carefully ignoring everything…
But those bloody plants of his!
I'm still quite offended by the tone he used on me.
As if I was pestering him!
He's the one who should be sorry.
I mean I go to him to see if he needs to be consoled as I did and he doesn't even care beyond those fuckin' plants of his.
Which is pissing me off.
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Sometimes I stare at him too long.
I know I do but I really don't know how to stop.
The more I think about him the more he takes up my time.
Like the way that he eats. As if he's trying to be as quiet as possible… elegantly placing everything on his tongue and chewing with exact precision.
I just shovel it in… after all food is for eating, not creating a show out of anything.
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He has soft brown hair that seems dark sometimes and light others. His eyes a murky green that seems like a swamp next to Harry's brilliant emerald ones.
"Hey Ron, wanna game of chess?" Seamus may be a good friend but unlike Harry and Hermione he's not very good at seeing that I'm busy.
"Not right now."
"Oh, come on your brothers sent us that new chess set the other day. The one that's suppose to blow out bubbles when you get a pawn!"
"… alright. But one game."
Which turned into six.
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I know his routine. I know what he does when he gets up in the morning and dresses slowly as if he's trying to will the sleep out of him. I know that he goes to breakfast early so that he doesn't have to pick a seat beside people he doesn't know. I know that he won't read the Daily Prophet but still has it delivered despite the fact he always reads the Quibbler.
I know that he brushes his teeth right after breakfast on the 2nd Corridor bathroom.
I know that if there isn't any classes he gets a Herbology book from the library or goes straight onto the Greenhouses where he submerges himself for an entire day…
I know a lot of things about Neville.
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When I spend all day thinking about Neville I notice his life isn't at all easy.
Never has been.
I mean I at least have the biggest family that's always there, hell even Percy was there when he was being the biggest arse in the world.
But Neville is sort of like Harry in the sense that there's really no one else out there for him.
But unlike Harry, Neville doesn't have a surrogate family and friends that would give up their lives for him…
He's so sad.
But not in a 'I pity him' sort of way.
More of a sort of sadness about him.
Why do I just notice it now?
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End of Ron's POV:
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When he was little Neville was told that you get no where if you ignore the problems.
Because the problems always come back on you and leave you in a bigger mess than you were before.
Yet though he was told this he never took the advice.
Instead he continued on as he did and made the problem worse than it was.
Like his fear for Professor Snape. He avoided him and his subject so much that he created problems that shouldn't have existed. Such as his track record in Potions.
He knows he could have done better if he didn't continuously add to his fear of Snape.
Because that's what he did.
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He's created another problem for himself.
He tried to tell himself that he didn't care at all.
When he perhaps cared all too much.
After all it is his family that is dead. His family that is gone and never going to come back. His family's voice that he will never hear… nor feel the candy wrapper underneath his once chubby fingers…
No all if it's gone.
And never coming back.
… but that isn't his problem right now.
Right now, his problem is that he's in a crowded hallway with hundreds of students trying to get to class, and if he doesn't sit down he's going to faint.
The last thing he was to do is something that dramatic.
So he does what he doesn't do very often.
He sits down in a throng of student bodies and thinks.
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No matter what he's said to himself he thinks it's going to take awhile to settle in.
After all it's a lot to think about, and considering he's waited this long to even contemplate it means that it's a bit more complicated than anyone would have thought.
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