It was a little day, the BAU had a rare day of, and Emily had woken up little, initially she felt guilty she thought that JJ would want to spend her day off with her girlfriend and not being mama to a trouble making little. Still JJ had given the brunette a massive grin when she woke up and said she was excited to be able to spend the whole day playing with her baby.
"Mama, mama wake up please," the dark-haired agent called out shaking the other woman gently by the shoulder,
"Hmm, oh good morning, Em," JJ's voice was rough with sleep,
"Morning mama,"
"Hey love bug, are you ready to spend the whole say playing?" Jennifer spoke, her tone immediately changing when she realised in was little Emily she was talking to,
"If you don't mind mama," Emily said sweetly, hiding slightly behind her hands, a sign that she was feeling a little self-conscious,
"Of course, I don't mind pumpkin, why would I?" JJ asked moving the other woman's hands away from her face,
"In case you wanted to spend the day with big Em," the little elaborated,
"Ah, well I don't mind if I spend the day with big or little Em, so long as I get to spend the day with her, am I allowed to do that?"
"Yes mama!" The brunette burst out into giggles when the blonde reached over and started tickling her tummy.
"S-stop mama, ha-ha stop!" JJ raised her hands up in surrender and then pulled her little on into her lap,
"I love you pumpkin,"
"Love you to mama," the brunette said snuggling close.
To Emily's great joy, when the two made their way downstairs after getting dressed and getting ready for the day Jareau told her that she had a surprise for her,
"But I don't want you not to eat, so can you be a big girl and eat all your breakfast for me first?"
"Yes mama, I can do that," Prentiss replied,
"Alright baby, here you go." JJ placed her breakfast down in front of her, finger foods so she wouldn't have any trouble eating it herself and that meant Jennifer could eat at the same time. Wanting to be good and make her mama proud Emily gobbled down her breakfast as fast and as neatly as she could, sipping her juice out of her Sippy cup when she was done, doing her best not to nag her mama to hurry up. "Well done love bug, you ate all your breakfast and thank you for waiting to patiently," JJ praised. The other woman beamed at the praise,
"You're welcome mama!"
"Good manners to, that's so good baby!" JJ praised again and had to hold back a laugh when she watched the other woman beam even harder almost causing her face to split in two.
Jennifer then cleaned up her girl, wiping the mess she made from her face and moving the dishes into the dishwasher, "You ready for your surprise then baby?" the woman exclaimed,
"Yes!" the brunette was bouncing on her feet in excitement.
"Okay babies close your eyes for me." Doing as she was told the brunette shut her eyes and covered them with her hands just for safety and JJ quickly moved to a closet where they stored there winter coats, she figured as it was summer this would be a good place to hide this thing as there would be no reason for Emily to go in there, "Okay pumpkin you can open your eyes now." When Emily did, she saw a decent sized wooden doll house in the middle of the room, she gasped. She had always wanted one but had only brought it up once to JJ and that was when she was big commenting on how her mom didn't let her have one as a child, she never expected JJ to get her one though, she thought it was to big and to expensive for something she would only use when she was little and to difficult to hide, Emily wasn't quite ready to share this part of herself with anyone other than JJ.
"Thank you, Mama!" she exclaimed, barrelling into the blonde's side and wrapping her arms around her tightly, "Its amazing, I love it so much, thank you, thank you, thank you!" she said bouncing on her toes,
"Your welcome baby, I'm happy you like it, do you want to play?" The brunette nodded her head happily and dropped down to her knees patting the space beside her,
"Play with me mama, please?" she asked flashing her puppy eyes up at her caregiver,
"Of course, baby," JJ responded and dropped down onto her knees next to her girl.
Emily grabbed one of the dolls and passed JJ the other one, she then placed the third in one of the small beds, "It's a family," she stated.
"Okay who am I?" JJ asked waving her little doll around,
"Your mama silly, and I'm mommy and that's a kid, um Henry." She said laughing a little.
"Of course, my mistake," JJ responded. Emily loves that her mama is playing with her and that she even her by re-arranging the furniture to match the layout of their own home and that makes her wiggle with happiness. There are so many new ways she can play now, she makes her doll kiss her mama's doll and laughs, she wiggles again, it was just so fun.
"Shall we wake Henry up?" JJ asks, moving her doll up the stairs,
"Uh-huh." Emily pushes legs together as she sits up so she can reach the top floor where the baby doll is. She squirms a little as she settles back to sit on his heels. She ignores it, determined to continue her game with her mama, she grabs the baby doll and moves them all downstairs to the kitchen, "its breakfast time," she says placing them all around the table, she squirms harder this time and now she is aware of her bladder and how much she has to pee.
"Love bug?" JJ asks, her voice really gentle. "Your kind of moving around a lot. Do you think you might need to go to the potty?"
"No!" She wasn't a baby she knew when she had to go potty and even though she had to pee, she didn't have to go that bad, she wants to play with her mama! JJ shrugged but continued to keep a close eye on her girl, she was right to because five minutes later the brunette's hand shot between her legs and she started to wriggle and did not stop,
"Baby its time for a bathroom break," JJ said her voice firm,
"No, don't want to!" Emily whined loudly, this shocked Jennifer for a second, the brunette had never put up this much resistance before even though she clearly had to go,
"This isn't up for debate pumpkin, it's time to go potty," JJ told her, and she reached out and grabbed Prentiss' hand, tugging her to her feet, the girl whined, but let herself be taken to the bathroom. JJ stopped in front of the toilet and turned to the girl expectantly, she just stood there wriggling, her hand still between her legs,
"Mama," she whined, JJ raised her eyebrow but went to help the brunette, pulling down her pants and guided her down on the toilet. Jennifer turned around to face the wall like she normally did, but she was surprised when she didn't here the other woman going. There was silence in the bathroom for a minute when Emily whined again, JJ turned back around to face the brunette, it was still very clear that the girl had to pee and that she just wasn't letting herself,
"Love bug, go pee please. You're hurting yourself." The brunette only whined unhappily in response, "Do you want me to leave the room?" JJ asked wondering if it was her presence that was putting her off. This seemed to trigger something in the dark-haired agent as her head snapped up and tears formed in her eyes,
"Don't go mama please," she begged. Jareau's heart shattered,
"Oh, baby I'm not going anywhere, I promise." The blonde crouched down in front of the other woman and placed her hands on her knees to steady herself, when watery brown eyes met baby blue, a couple of tears escaped and Emily spoke again,
"It h-hurts mama," she stuttered out.
"Oh, love bug," JJ sighed out in sympathy, it was clear to her now that the girl had waited to long and her body could no longer relax and allow her to go. The brunettes hands reached out to grab at the blonde's shirt and her head fell against JJ's shoulder, doing the only thing she thought of that could help, JJ reached forward and began to rub soothing circles on Emily's lower abdomen, "try and relax for me baby," she whispered gently, she felt a slight nod in her shoulder and then the girls muscles relaxed.
A few minutes later and a steady stream could be heard, JJ didn't stop rubbing circles and Emily didn't move her face from its hiding place until it stopped. When they did finally pull away from each other JJ expected Em to clean herself up like she normally did but instead the girl just looked at her pleadingly, "Do you need help pumpkin?" JJ asked softly, a furious blush appeared on the brunette's face, and she nodded. "That's okay baby, I can help you," the blonde was quick to reassure her. Jennifer made quick work of helping the girl finish up and flush and wash her hands. "Do you want to go back to playing?" Emily seemed to think this over for a moment before reaching her arms up and making grabby hands,
"Mama cuddles?" she asked cutely, giving her best puppy dog eyes,
"Of course, baby, whatever you want." The blonde swiftly picked the girl up and carried her back to the couch where she dropped them both down and let the brunette curl up in her lap.
The two sat together for an hour in a comfortable silence at one point JJ asked if Em wanted to watch something but the girl had refused and only cuddled closer to the blonde woman. The silence broke when Jennifer spoke,
"Pumpkin, I have to use the bathroom, I'll be right back okay," she told her gently. Emily let out a loud unhappy whine and gripped tightly to JJ's shirt, her fingers turning white from the force of it, "Let go love bug, I'll be back shortly," she said, gently trying to loosen the brunette's vice-grip on her shirt. Prentiss would not move. Trying a different approach, JJ pulled the girl back close to her again and cradled her head to her chest, trying to calm her down, "Do you want to come with me?" she joked slightly. The blonde was surprised when she saw a look of contemplation came across her face before a blush and a shake of the head. Emily got off JJ's lap and looked down at her hands, that she began playing with anxiously. "I'll be right back hun," JJ told her gently, shooting her one final look of concern and then heading into the bathroom.
When the younger woman returned, she could not see Emily. Concerned she quickly looked around the room before moving into the bedroom, under the blanket JJ could see the sobbing figure of her girlfriend. Her heart breaking, she perched down on the edge of the bed and gently placed a soothing hand on the woman's leg. "Love bug?" she questioned gently.
"Jayj" was all that was said in reply. It was enough to know that Emily was out of little space, and she left quite abruptly at that, which never ended well for her. She needed time to adjust between headspaces. JJ carefully got under the covers with her girlfriend and wrapped an arm around the shaking body, she knew she had done the right thing when Emily moved to cry into the crook of the blonde's neck.
"It's okay love, I'm here take all the time you need to calm down, I'm right here." The younger agent reassured her. It took a little while of Emily crying and clinging to the blonde before she calmed down enough to be manoeuvred out from underneath the covers and into a sitting position. "What happened my love?" JJ asked gently, passing the brunette a tissue so she could wipe her eyes. Thinking the question over Emily wiped her eyes and handed the tissue back before beginning to play with the blonde's fingers,
"I um, I liked it w-when you h-helped me," Emily confessed, stuttering over the words,
"What do you mean honey?" JJ asked gently, dropping the blonde's fingers Emily began scratching at her hands under the covers,
"W-when I had to use the bathroom and you helped with everything and told me when to go, it made things easier,"
"It did?" Jennifer questioned lightly, "Then why are you upset honey?"
"When I'm little it's really hard to know when I need to go, and I try and be big and tell you, but its tiring and I don't always know and my little mind doesn't always put it as something that is important," Emily scratched harder, "I w-want that m-more," she confessed, refusing to make eye contact with the blonde and a furious blush present on her face.
"You want me to help you with going to the bathroom and telling you when to go potty?" JJ asked to confirm she understood what the brunette wanted, Emily still couldn't meet her eye but nodded her head,
"Well, we can do that baby, I don't mind," Jareau said gently,
"You don't?" Emily asked surprised finally looking up at the blonde,
"No, I don't. If that's what you need, I can do that." Emily beamed at her before she hissed in pain, her face changing to one of discomfort, she pulled her hands out from there hiding place, wincing when she realised, she had scratched so hard she was bleeding.
"Sorry," she whispered. Tears threating to fall from big brown eyes again,
"It's alright, lets get that cleaned up. You know you really shouldn't scratch. I'm gonna have to start bubble-wrapping your hands," JJ joked lightly, moving to get up from the bed and lead Emily into the bathroom where the first aid kit was.
As they were cleaning up her hands JJ spoke again, "Why didn't you want me to leave you?"
"Huh?" Prentiss said looking up,
"Earlier when I went to use the bathroom, you didn't want me to leave," JJ said gently.
"Oh, um I guess I was just upset and wanted to be near you. You know how little physical affection I got when I was younger and I just wanted to be close to you, sometimes when I am as close to you as I can possibly be, I just want to get closer so much it hurts. Is that dumb? I'm sorry, its just I can almost feel like the love radiating from you skin and it calms me."
JJ felt tears spring into her eyes, words could not express how much she loved the woman next to her, "Its not dumb baby, you have nothing to be sorry for. Thank you for telling me, I'm glad that it calms you. I love you so much." She told the brunette,
"I love you to baby," Emily said pausing momentarily so she could lean over to kiss the blonde.
When Emily's hand was all patched up, she shifted on her feet and hid her face behind her hands,
"What is it Em?" JJ questioned gently,
"Can we play again?"
"With the doll house?" The brunette nodded excitedly, "Of course love bug, lets go." Emily latched onto the outstretched hand and was happily led back to the living room so they could play with mama, mommy and Henry again.