Always
Jack rubbed his face wearily. Why did she have to do this to him? Why did she ask him what to do, when she had obviously moved on with this Pete Shenanigans?
He pulled a beer from his fridge. What did she see in the guy anyway? He'd stalked her and got himself shot, for Pete's sake. Okay, no pun intended. She was way, way too good for him - for any him.
This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
He'd thought they had an understanding, an unspoken agreement. But who was he to expect such a brilliant young woman to wait forever for a broken-down soldier like him? Shanahan could at least offer her a life; husband, 2.4 children, dog and a white picket fence.
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
See I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Since she'd first mentioned Shanahan, all the feelings he'd ever felt towards her had rushed to the foreground, until it almost overwhelmed him. It was almost ironic - that the military was the only thing keeping them apart and yet, now that she was with someone else, the Stargate meant less than it ever did before.
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby that's just me
He'd never been a romantic and his words never, ever came out right. Once that hadn't mattered. But a cranky old colonel with a bum knee and a lame sense of humour was no great catch. She was.
Yeah I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you
Always
He stared at the photos he had around his living room. Group shots of SG-1 in their fatigues; at a party of Janet's where Daniel had gotten well-and-truly drunk and had insisted on showing everybody his appendix scar; Teal'c chowing down on a Big Mac; one of Sam by Daniel's death bed before he Ascended - and one of himself and his major in the commissary, debating the merits of red vs blue jello. Neither had been aware of the camera and both had relaxed smiles on their faces, even as Sam waved a spoonful of jello in his face. The anonymous photographer had captured on film one of the rare moments in which they could both forget the rules and regulations. But what had changed?
Now your pictures there that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
He longed to be able to show her how he felt, in all the little ways that would make her blue eyes light up with happiness. Maybe he should have given up this Stargate business years ago.
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips
To hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes
I'm just a man
What really twisted the knife in his guts was the fact that Pete was given the privilege and honour of embracing her, kissing her, telling her what Jack had never been allowed to say.
When he holds you close
When he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him
That those words were mine
To say to you
Till the end of time
Yeah I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you
Always
She was the beauty in his life and never could he allow her to die while there was still breath in his body.
If you told me to cry for you, I could
If you told me to die for you, I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
If only he dared to tell her; he could forget about the military and she could forget her doohickeys and they'd disappear to his cabin in Minnesota.
Well there ain't no love
And he'll slowly die
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack our old dreams and our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
He could never forget his feelings for her, but he could pray that she would be happy - and vow to always be there for her if Shenanigans ever hurt her. He was hers...
Yeah I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you
Always
...always.