Emily woke up little, it was late, she rolled over to glance and the clock and saw that it was just gone two in the morning, confused as to what had woken her up this early, she ran through her usual checks, she hadn't had a nightmare, as far as she could remember, she kicked her legs, she wasn't wet, and she didn't have to go potty. Her stomach grumbled, ah she was hungry, she knew she should probably wake her mama, as she was too little to make a proper snack by herself, plus little Em didn't like the dark, but the blonde was sleeping so peacefully, and Emily decided she was feeling brave. Climbing out of bed as quietly as she could the little hurried out the bedroom and down the hall to the kitchen where she switched the light on and let out a sigh of relief. Now she was no longer surrounded in darkness the brunette's focus was in getting something to eat, searching through the cupboards Emily's gaze fell on a bag of candy. Big Emily would have kept looking knowing a full bag of candy was not a good two in the morning snack, but all little Em could think about was that she liked candy, she was hungry, and her mama wasn't there to stop her, decision made the little grabbed onto the bag and ripped it open, shoving one piece into her mouth after another. Once she finished the whole bag, she carefully threw it away and switched off the kitchen light before scurrying back to the bedroom where she climbed into bed, glad to see that her movement had not woken her mama, 'her mama needs sleep,' she thought to herself before settling down and falling back asleep.
JJ woke up first that morning, she rolled over slightly to see her girlfriend cuddled up close to her, it was their day off, so they hadn't set an alarm but seeing as it was already ten the blonde placed soft kisses along the brunette's temple and up onto the top of her head to wake her up gently. It worked and soon big brown eyes blinked open slowly, as Emily's gaze fell on the blonde she gave a wide smile,
"Mama," she chirped happily,
"Good morning sweet girl," JJ responded running a tan hand through dark locks of hair. The peace only lasted a couple moments though as suddenly Emily was pushing JJ's hand away and crying out in pain, kicking her legs uncomfortably,
"What's wrong love bug?" JJ asked worriedly, reaching out to pull her girl closer hoping that being near her would help the brunette calm down. Emily only kept crying clinging to her mama's shirt, as Jennifer shifted to sit them up the other agent realised her grip on the shirt and her hands flew to her stomach clutching it gently, seeing this action JJ guessed what was wrong,
"Does your tummy hurt pumpkin?" she asked softly, Emily nodded and pushed her head into her caregivers chest,
"Oh baby," the blonde cooed rubbing her little's back in a soothing motion, "Can mama get you some medicine to stop your tummy hurting so bad?" JJ asked already standing up with the brunette on her hip, Emily nodded, she usually hated taking medicine it was yucky, but her tummy hurt so badly that she would do anything for it to go away. Jennifer carried her girl into the kitchen and sat her on the counter as she pulled out the medicine and poured out a spoonful before making the noise of an airplane, encouraging the little to open her mouth and take the medicine. The brunette grimaced as she swallowed it but didn't make a fuss. As JJ put the medicine away, she noticed the empty bag of candy that she had just brought the other day sitting in the bin, for a moment she was confused before she glanced back at Em who had followed her line of sight and now was looking incredibly guilty.
"Pumpkin did you have a midnight snack?" The blonde asked, hiding her chuckle. Emily nodded before bursting out into tears, all amusement about the situation left the blonde and she hurried back to the girls side and picked her back up. Hiding her face in the crook of the tan neck, Emily sobbed freely, she felt guilty about eating all the candy and she felt bad about her tummy hurting and having to take medicine for it. Her body trembled as her arms and legs locked tightly around the blonde's body,
"Shh pumpkin, its okay, you're okay, shh, its alright I'm not mad and I know it hurts but it should stop soon, that's it, shh, you're fine I promise." JJ reassured her girl rocking her softly. Knowing her mama wasn't mad helped the brunette calm down a bit and the pain in her stomach began to fade, but another feeling was filling her, it was like a fussy feeling that settled low in her stomach, she began to regress further that usual, the unexpectedness of it scared Emily, not used to feeling this small.
"Mm-mama," she babbled softly, at the sound of her girl speaking she carried her back to the bedroom and settled her down on the edge of the bed, crouching down in front of her and taking a hold of her hands, placing a kiss on each knuckle before talking,
"Are you feeling better love bug?" she asked gently,
"Mama, mama!" the brunette squealed happily reaching out and grabbing a handful of the blonde hair,
"Whoa their honey, no grabbing my hair please," she said softly, reaching up to gently untangle her hair from the little one's fist, as soon as she had, Emily shoved a pale thumb into her mouth and sucked on it happily,
"No baby, thumbs are icky," Jen said quickly removing it, tears filled big brown eyes and suddenly the little was sobbing again, she wanted her thumb, why couldn't she have her thumb. The blonde got to her feet quickly and grabbed a pacifier placing it into her girls mouth before the cries could get any worse. For a moment she thought it was going to be spat back out, but the brunette sighed contently and began to suck on it steadily.
"My sweet girl," the blonde cooed affectionally, stroking the pale cheek and then kissing it gently.
JJ had gotten herself ready for the day dressing casually in sweats and then she moved onto dressing her girl,
"Can you go potty for me before we get you dressed?" JJ asked gently, the brunette shrugged but let herself be carried over to the toilet and helped onto it, she did her business and then JJ helped her finish up and wash her hands. She got the brunette dressed into some of her favourite little clothes and handed her toy cat to her, watching lovingly as the girl snuggled it up to her face, she grabbed a pale hand and began to lead her from the bedroom, but stopped when the brunette didn't move, turning back the blonde noted that she looked a little unsteady on her feet, and before she could ask what was wrong Em made grabby hands at her silently asking to be carried, not thinking to much about it JJ picked her up and carried her to the kitchen settling her into one of the chairs before turning to make breakfast letting the girl play with her toy. When she had finished cooking she dropped a waffle onto the littles plate and put up bit of syrup onto it before serving herself, as she ate her waffle she watched as Emily ignored it and continued to play with her cat, JJ decided to finish her breakfast before asking Emily about it in case she wanted to be fed or something, It didn't take long for her to finish eating and then she turned to her girl who was still absorbed in her little game,
"Lovebug, can you eat that for me?" she asked gently, indicating to the waffle that sat in the plate in front of her, the brunette glanced down at the plate briefly before shaking her head and resuming playing, JJ tried again,
"Do you want me to feed you hun, I don't mind," she told her. Emily shook her head again and JJ sighed and reached for the cat, gently taking it from her grasp,
"Sweetheart I need you to eat," she told her softly, thinking that the toy was distracting her, at the loss of her toy the brunette's lower lip began to wobbly dangerously and tears spilled over from her eyes, she didn't want to eat why didn't her mama understand that,
"mama," she whined tearfully and pushed the plate away from her,
"Baby I know your hungry, is it the waffle would you eat something else for me?" JJ asked, confused as getting her girl to eat was never usually this difficult,
"m-mama m-milk," she babbled happily at her idea, she would drink her milk if her mama fed it to her, worried that this wouldn't give her girl enough sustenance JJ came up with a compromise,
"If I give you a bottle of milk, will you have a couple of bites of your waffle?" when the brunette looked like she was about to protest, she spoke again, "Just a couple I promise," thinking this over for a moment as Emily nodded deciding that was something she could do. Smiling at the littles answer JJ got up to make Em her warm bottle of milk and then carried her over to the couch so she could feed it to her, Emily smiled up at the blonde before latching onto the nib of the bottle and began suckling gently, this felt right, it wasn't too big for her she could be really small and that was okay. When she was finished, she took a few bites of her waffle as promised and the scurried down from the table with her toy cat and crawled into the living room to lie on the soft carpeted floor and play with her stuffed toys, they were soft and gentle, not to big to play with, in this mindset Emily thought they were perfect. JJ washed up the dishes in the kitchen and did a bit of cleaning before joining Emily in the living room, seeing her mama enter the room Emily shifted so she could roll over and lie at her mama's feet, her presence a constant comfort to the brunette.
It wasn't until the blonde had left to go and get something later that the brunette began to squirm, she didn't realise it however as her headspace was so deep that she couldn't really notice what her body needed. When JJ returned only a couple minutes later with a glass of water, she was surprised to see wet pants on her girl, who seemed to still be playing happily completed unaware if what had just occurred, crouching down next to her JJ spoke softly,
"Em sweetheart, we need to get you changed you've had a little accident," she told her gently knowing that this news could upset her girl. Looking confused Emily allowed herself to be pulled to her feet and she stumbled along behind her mama holding onto her hand tightly trying not to fall over, as her mama took off her wet pants and underwear, tears of sadness, embarrassment, confusion, and frustration fell from her eyes, it was a lot of feelings for someone so little to be feeling and sobs began to rack her body,
"It's alright lovebug, you're aright, it's okay no one's upset with you," the blonde was quick to reassure her girl, abandoning grabbing new clothes for her and pulling her into her arms instead rocking her softly, helping her calm down, after a little while the sobs were reduced to sniffles and JJ moved to grab the girl a pull up, just in case of another accident, she expected her girl to grumble, but to her surprise something else happened,
"m-mama to little," Emily whined shaking her head at the pull up, confused JJ put the pull up back and pulled out a diaper which were rarely used, only when her girl was small and had a lot to drink before bed and Emily fought those harder than the pull ups and she had never ever asked for one, but to her surprise Emily nodded at the diaper and smiled, letting JJ lead her to the bed and lie down on it so the diaper could be put on her along with a fresh pair of pants. When she was dressed, she made grabby hands at her mama and let herself be carried back into the living room where she was sat down on the couch and her stuffed toys were given to her so she could play while JJ cleaned up the floor. When the blonde had finished, the little dropped her toys in exchange for snuggles with her mama, she cuddled close, inhaling the comforting scent of her caregiver, her girlfriend that in any headspace could always calm her, JJ's hands rubbed her back and played with her hair soothingly, soft kissed were placed on top of her head and Emily couldn't help but feel loved and safe, still she felt nervous,
"T-this, okay?" she murmured softly,
"That your littler than usual?" JJ asked gently still rubbing her back soothingly,
"Hmm," Emily hummed confirming JJ was right,
"Of course love bug, I love you whatever you headspace is, if you need to be this small sometimes its alright, my baby is adorable and I love her so much and if you feel a little bigger sometimes that's also okay she is just as sweet," JJ reassured her girl, the words caused the brunette to blush and snuggled closer into her mama, and JJ's arm's tightened around her and more kisses were placed softly on her head and Emily knew she was telling the truth and she was so thankful that JJ accepted her in everyway she loved the blonde so much,
"Love mama," she whispered softly beginning to feel sleepy,
"I love you to pumpkin, take a nap I'll be right here when you wake up," JJ told her and so Emily slowly drifted off to sleep in the arms of the person who she loved the most in the world.