Disclaimer: I do not own PotC.And also the lyrics of the song that is used is from Les Misérables ( You're fault Amber. LOL )
Chapter Four
On My Own
The date with Will the night before had gone so wrong...The whole time she couldn't bring herself to look into Will's eyes, and he had immediately thought that something was wrong...At dinner he had leaned over the table and candles to tilt her chin to look him in the eyes...but the candle had singed his facial hair off of him...and he had to go and get ice, leaving Elizabeth all alone , making her think that he didn't care.
She now wandered the halls of Governor Swann's house , alone and worried of what would come.
It was dark in the windowless halls , black velvet paintings hung upon the dark maroon walls...Elizabeth stopped infront of one , so framiliar...But she hadn't seen it since she was young, very young...It was her mother and another young woman...But it was her mother as her father chose to remember her, with her light honey locks and amber coloured eyes. It was nothing like the real Eponine Swann, she had had vivid red hair , like the fire embers , living in the hearth, and emerald green eyes that seemed to shine with their own secret inner light. Her skin had been nearly pure white, not lightly tanned as she was in this painting , for she had been the decendent of the Celt, and perhaps , as some people believed , of the Faeries. But Eponine Swann was long gone now...Bet the other woman , the painting, Elizabeth did not even remember...and all the description said was : "Lady Eponine Swann and Friend, Annelyn Mc'Victor , Lady of Bristol".
Elizabeth peared closer at the woman , she, Annelyn, had hair the colour of dark aged honey, and eyes like the moon upon a midnight pool in the forests of the night. Annelyn's skin was lightly tanned, her lips smiling, and pinks as the rose in bloom.
Elizabeth soon realize that this was the woman that Eponine had let watch young, baby Elizabeth when she and Governor Swann had to depart for a night. The woman that had tought Elizabeth to read...
But somethind dawned upon Elizabeth. she remembered that Annelyn had had a son about a year older than herself , named William , as it was a very common name, and that Eponine had disappeared at the same time that Annelyn had become ill and finally died...That's why her father had moved them here to Port Royale, after all , Eponine was dead...but the boy, William had not been seen since Annelyn had died.
Elizabeth contined on her way down the dark corridors her mother had never , would never walk...and she remembered a simple fact.
Her mother, Eponine, had never loved Elizabeth's father, he had always kept her in a "prison".
Eponine had just "vanished" into thin air one night, everyone had thought her dead, but Elizabeth had thought she had known better, she had believed her mother, wild Eponine, had just run away into the night, she had believed that she would come back for her, she kept that belief for 3 months, but then her father had packed them up and moved them here to Port Royale. And then the sad truth dawned on Elizabeth, her mother was never coming back for her, Eponine was dead , long dead , buried in a shollow grave, somewhere outside of Bristol.
A crystal tear rolled down Elizabeth's cheek, as she remember the long supressed grief, and realized once again , she would never see her mother again...and now not knowing if Will still loved her or not , the only person that had loved her, since her mother was killed. Her father never really cared for her...but Will had. She sudden realized she was all alone , and she felt the need to espress the feeling in her heart. So she sang
And now I'm all along again
Nowhere to go, no one to turn to
Without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near, now I can make
Believe he's here
Sometimes I walk alone at night when
everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy with
the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head
On my own
Pretending he's beside me.
All alone I walk with him till morning
Without him.
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes
and he's found me !
In the rain, the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever!
And I know its only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself
and not to him
And although I know he is blind,
Still I say there's a way for us !
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river is just a river
Without him, the world around me changes
The trees are bare, and everywhere the streets
are full of strangers
I love him
But everyday, I'm learning
All my life, I've only been pretending
Without me, his world will go on turning
The world is full of happiness that I have
never know !
I love him, I love him, I love him...But only
On my own.
