AN: Howdy guys! I probably shouldn't say howdy because I'm not southern... far from it actually, but who cares! Ok, so today and yesterday have been really busy but I decided to get this chapter out. I'm not sure whats going to happen during the weekend because I'm going to Relay-4-Life on Saturday into Sunday...I'll try to get another chapter out before then. Thanks reviewers for all the reviews
Disclaimer: I own nothing except my season 1 DVD.
On with P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You)
Song by Cascada... really good
Chapter 3
Dear Meredith,
What's up? I know we haven't spoken for a while, but I'm always thinking about you. And it kinda made me smile how often that happened. I have so many things to say so I thought I'll put 'em in a letter, it might be easier and the words might come out better. I wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you. Don't you know I've tried and I've tried to get you out my mind, but it doesn't get any better. As each day goes by, and I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose so I'm coming after you.
Sorry, I really didn't mean to ramble on, but there are still a lot of feelings that remained after you had gone. I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me, but it seems there's always something right there to remind me. Like a silly joke, or something on the TV. Boy it isn't easy. When I hear our song (Tainted Love by the Clash) I get that same old feeling, the one where I wish I could press rewind and turn back the clock.
Did you know I kept all of your pictures? I just don't have the strength to part with them yet. I tried to erase from my mind the way your kisses tasted and how your hair smelled like lavender. But, some things I just can't forget.
Hope to hear from you soon,
Derek
P.S. I'm still not over you.
"You can't be serious!" Cristina exclaimed when Izzie read it aloud with her eyes brimming with tears.
"So, are you going to call him? If you don't I will." Izzie said laughing, the tears spilling over.
"I guess I should…right?" Meredith asked uncertainly. She kept looking back and forth between Cristina and Izzie who were both suspiciously not saying a word.
"You have to make your own decisions, we can't control what you do with your life, we can try but we can't dictate it." Izzie suggested.
"Come on Izzie let's go consult our good friends, Ben and Jerry."
"Yum, Ben and Jerry's!" Izzie said perking up a little bit.
"No, Izzie that would be called cannibalism." Cristina said obviously enjoying her little joke.
"Wait, you guys? I know what I'm going to do." Meredith said. It hadn't taken her long to figure out what she wanted to do. Sure, Finn was great. She loved how he took care of animals. Since she was home alone all the time without a father and her mother always working, she had grown up with multiple dogs and other assorted pets that had been her best friends even though she wouldn't admit it. So, when Finn had fabricated the truth about Doc's illness, she hadn't really trusted him, the way she had before. When Doc was put to sleep, Meredith did something she always told herself she would never do. Bottle her emotions.
"Well?" Cristina asked staring at Meredith.
"I'm gonna' go talk to Derek. I think that we need to work out some of our problems. Does anyone have a CD player?" Meredith asked.
"What do you need with a CD player?" Cristina asked.
"I'll tell you later." Meredith told her. Izzie pointed to her new CD player. Meredith grabbed it and ran out the door.
Derek was sitting in his trailer drinking a beer. He had been doing this a lot lately. Something he hated to admit but was true, since Meredith always seemed to turn to alcohol when she had problems; he had started to do the same. He was mid sip when he heard music coming from outside. He got up to see what it was, it's not like he could hear the neighbor's music. There weren't any neighbors.
"Boy meets girl
You were my dream, my world
But I was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me
Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know it's true
I'm still in love with you
I need a miracle..." It was Meredith; she was holding the CD player over her head singing along to a new song called Miracle by Cascada. Only bits and pieces of the song went with what she was trying to say, but she figured that it would get the job done. "Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me."
"Meredith, I already have."
AN: That last line makes me smile really big! Review please!