What ever it will take to be with you
Authors Notes:
Chapter13.:Kiss the rain
Zoey woke up the next morning with such a terrible headache that she just wanted to fall asleep again. Yes she thought about Elliot almost the whole night. But everytime she saw Elliot in front of her mind the picture of Mark made her feel guilty. She couldn´t go down, because that would mean she had to face Elliot and Zoey wasn´t ready for that./ I can´t stay here like forewer, but I can´t go down either cos that would mean I made my decision./ Zoey stood up and went to the bathroom. She stood there in front of the mirror and inspected her reflection. Her face was alright by now and the wounds all over her body nearly dissappeared. The only thing that made her remember yesterday, were the bandages on her stomach. / Damn you Pai...that´s going to take at least a week to recover./ Zoey took a quick shower and blowed her hair dry. / I need to get out of here./ She went to her wardrobe and picked up a red skirt and a yellow top. Zoey went across her room and openned her window. She climbed out of the window on the peach tree under her window and climbed down. It was sunny when Zoey made her way out of the front gate. She needed to calm down and sort things out. A lot has happened in the past days and Zoeys was confused about so much. About Pai and the Deep Blue, her feelings to Mark and Elliot. The sun was blocked by clouds, reflecting Zoeys mode. Her feet leaded her to the park, she didn´t even notice deep in her thoughts. And then a raindrop slid down her cheek. She looked up to the sky and got only more raindrops falling on her face.
„Damn it...of all the days to take a walk throught the park..." She moaned and looked on the sky pleadingly. „Does it have to rain TOO!"
-Hello can you hear me
Am I getting throught to you
Hello is it late there
There´s a laughter on the line
Are you sure you´re there alone-
„Don´t you like the rain Zoey?" A voice asked and Zoey looked around, trying to shield herself from the rain, seeing no one than Elliot.
„No."She answered, unable to see him in the eyes throught the rain. „It always comes at the wrong time."
-Cause I´m trying to explain
Something´s wrong , you just don´t sound the same
Why don´t you go outside-
„When is the right time for rain?" Elliot asked curiously.
„When I don´t have to run throught it."
„Would you rather fly?"Elliot bit his lip as he said that.
„Then I would be Dren."Elliot could hear the sad smile in her voice.
-Kiss the rain whenever you need me
Kiss the rain whenever I´m gone too long-
She shook her head as if to chastise herself. „I´m sorry I´m just...kinda of mixed up right now." Zoey swiped a quick hand across her eyes. She started to walk away, causing Elliot to follow her.
„Do you care about me Zoey...?"
-If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind we´re under the same sky
And the night´s as empty for me as for you-
„I...don´t know." She turned and gazed back at him, her eyes calm, unsurprised. „Can you tell me how to feel? What to think...?" Elliot stared at her his eyes wide.
„I can´t..." He answered almost not on his own accord.
-If you feel
You can´t wait till morning
Kiss the rain-
Zoey smiled at him sadly. „I can´t be your girlfriend Elliot. Even if I would wanted to..."Elliot stared at her, his eyes dark as a starless night.
„Why not...?
„I love Mark." Zoey stared up at him.
-Do you miss me
I hear you say you do
But not the way I´m missing you
You sound so close
It feels like you´re so far-
„I love Mark and I always will. I can´t ..." Her eyes filled with unshed tears. „I can´t love you both." She stepped back, away from him. The rain had soaked them both by this time, and only served to accent the sadness in both their eyes.
„I don´t understand..."Elliot murmured, his voice wounded and to Zoeys ears...torn. „...why can´t you at least be close to me? You wouldn´t have to betray Mark. I need you Zoey."
-Oh...would it mean anything
If you knew that I´m left
Imagining in my mind
Would you go kiss the rain-
She reached up and brushed one of the raindrops glistening on his cheeks. „I´m sorry..." Elliot shook his head, sending raindrops brushing away.
„Why? Why can´t you!" Zoey placed her finger on his lips.
„No Elliot. I just can´t..."
-Kiss the rain whenever you need me
Kiss the rain whenever I´m gone too long-
She looked at him, tears glistening in her eyes and raindrops were falling on her lips. „If you miss me..."She whispered, taking her finger away fron his lips and leaning closer to him. „...just kiss the rain." She kissed him and Elliot let himself go, kissing her back with all his soul as he hugged her, feeling her arms around his back. /Please Zoey...don´t let this end./ There were tears in the kiss. It was just like kissing raindrops.
-If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind we´re under the same sky
And the night´s as empty for me as for you-
Zoey stepped back, away from him, looking up at him with sorrow in her eyes."Goodbye Elliot."He gazed back at her, pleading with his eyes, cursing the tears that lurked behind them.
„Please...Zoey."She shook her head, gazing back at him.
„No." She whispered, her voice torn. Zoey turned , starting off throught the rain. She never looked back. Elliot knew if he spoke, she would hear tears in his voice.
-Oh please
If you think of me
Just once in a time
Go out look at the starry sky
And kiss the rain
Keep in mind
That my love will never fade
And we´re under the same sky
She didn´t turn, her footsteps splashing quietly in the drenching rain. „As long as you´re happy Zoey...I don´t mind anything cos I love you."His whispers faded away in the falling rain...unheard.
I am sensitive so I cried even when I wrote this one...it´s kinda really sad
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I warn that the next chapter is NOT for kids under 16...or 18maybe?