ROBERT & HOLLY SCORPIO: DESTINED FOR ETERNITY
CHAPTER 11
JUNE 1983
Once Holly is home from the wedding, she changes out of her matron of honor dress and into casual clothes. Then she picks up the phone to call Luke. For a moment she hesitates, wondering if this is really a good idea. But she realizes she is being foolish. This is Luke, the man she loves. And he is right about how they never get to spend any time together. Luke would never get over his bitterness if she couldn't give him some encouragement for their future. And Robert was off with Connie Townley, possibly all night. She quickly picks up the telephone.
When Holly hears Luke's voice, she hesitates momentarily. "Luke, it's Holly. I'm at home. Why don't you come over here and we can talk."
"I'm not in the mood to talk with YOUR husband sitting in the same room or even the same house," He tells her sarcastically.
Controlling her anger, Holly replies, "Robert won't be here. He is working tonight."
"Really?" Luke asks, "Big case, uh?" He retorts.
Trying to ignore Luke's jabs, Holly asks, "Are you coming over?"
"Sure, English, I will be there soon."
As she hangs up the telephone, Holly questions her actions. Luke's attitude did not help her feel any better about inviting him over. But maybe this was what they needed, some time alone together, just the two of them.
When Luke arrives, Holly sees him into the living room, but is clearly nervous, whereas Luke just looks around at the house that she shares with Robert.
"I'm glad you called," Luke finally tells her. He takes her hand in his and they go sit on the sofa. "You were so beautiful today, simply gorgeous."
Holly smiles. "Thank you."
Luke then adds, "And it hurt like hell to see you there with Robert. Just knowing that everyonebelieves thatyou are Robert's makes me want to scream."
"Luke, please, you have to stop being so angry. I know it isn't easy for you, but do you actually think it is easy for Robert or I? Because it isn't."
"Well, everytime I look it appears to be really easy for Scorpio." He tells her.
"That is not true, Luke. You can't keep resenting me and hating Robert. It will only tear us apart."
"I don't resent you, baby. I don't."
"It's how you make me feel, Luke. Sometimes I think you really hate me." Holly admits.
"Never," Luke insists as he pulls her into his arms. "Never." He places kisses on her neck and pulls her even closer. "Holly, I just want to be with you and it's never possible." He whispers into her ear. "I want to hold you." His kisses move up to her cheek and then to her mouth.
Holly breaks away and asks him, "Luke, will we ever be as we once were? Can we ever get it back?"
"We can, English," He moans as he moves in for another kiss. He starts to unbutton her blouse as he kisses her neck and moves lower. "I want you, Holly. I want you so bad. It has been so long," He reminds her.
Holly tries to push him away. "No, Luke."
Luke continues to keep his tight hold on her. "But, baby, why not? Come on, we're alone. Scorpio's gone, and I could really care less if he were even here." He kisses her again. "I need you, baby."
Hearing Luke mention Robert gives Holly the strength to push Luke away. "I can't do this, Luke. Not here and Not now." She jumps up from the sofa and Luke just stares at her, momentarily speechless.
"Why not?" He finally asks.
"It's not right, Luke. This is the home I share with Robert. I could never do this to him."
Luke is livid. "To HIM!" He repeats. "What about me? When do you intend to concern yourself with me?"
"Luke, please, it's not . . ."
"Don't even bother to explain," He interrupts her. "It is very clear to me. You don't want to sleep with me in the same place you sleep with Robert. Fine. Let's go to a motel then."
Holly is appalled. "I will not go to a motel to have sex with you! Good lord, Luke, the entire town would know by morning."
"So what?" He asks.
"I refuse to do that to Robert or myself. I have spent months getting the people in this town to respect me again, Luke. It hasn't been easy."
"Why do you even care?" Luke asks curiously. "You have changed, Holly. You didn't care what people said or thought."
She paces the floor. "Well, let me tell you, it is a very lonely place when there is not one soul who cares what you are going through. When there is never a friendly smile or a shoulder to lean on when you need to cry. I was at that place and if it hadn't been for Robert I would still be at that place."
"Here we go again," Luke groans. "I am really tired of hearing you list Scorpio's virtues. But fine, you don't want to be seen at a motel, so let's stay here and make love."
"Luke, that isn't why I wanted to see you. Is sex the only reason you are here?" When Luke only stares at her, Holly shakes her head in dismay. "Oh, Luke, didn't we share more than that?"
Luke abruptly turns away and storms to the door. "Where are you going?" Holly asks.
He turns to face her. "Anywhere. It is very clear that you don't WANT or NEED me around here." He slams the door behind him.
Holly sits back on the sofa and releases a deep breath. She really didn't want to hurt Luke, but she knew she couldn't tell him that she still felt like Robert's wife and she couldn't betray him like this. She looks down at her wedding ring. Robert deserved better than this, and Luke deserved more than just a part of her and right now she couldn't give him what he needed or wanted. Maybe one day, but not now. The question was, why not?