Lots of things changed after that service.
I sat in my room that afternoon and there was a knock on the door.
I called out," Who is it?"
The answer shocked me," Matt."
I walked over and opened the door.
He said," Dad said you sang in church this morning. Sorry I missed it. This is Sarah, my wife."
I looked at him and asked," Your wife's name is Sarah?"
He just shook his head.
I asked," Why are you here? You're supposed to be in New York."
He said," Yeah, I am, but my little sister needed me."
For some reason his answer made me mad.
I said," I never needed you Matt. I never had you."
The look on his face changed. I turned and walked away from the door. Matt just stood there I heard him and Sarah talking and then I heard the door shut. I thought they had both left but then Sarah peeked around the boxes.
She asked," Is it okay if we talk?"
I said," It's more your house than it is mine."
I was sitting on the floor propped up against the end of my bed. Sarah sat down beside me. S
he said," Matt has told me all about you. He does love you."
I asked," Did he ever mention me before last week?" She sat there silently for a few minutes.
I said," Yeah that's what I thought. I never forgot him. My brother told me all kinds of stories of the trouble they used to get into together. He always told me I would have liked Matt, but now I don't know. I'm sorry you are caught in all this, but they aren't my family any more. No matter how much I want it, or they wanted. In my heart, they just aren't my family anymore. They left us Sarah, in the middle of the night they left. I never would have left them and now I'm alone and it was never supposed to be like this. I was never alone. Even after they left I had a family and I will always have a family, but they aren't in this house, they're six feet under the ground."
Sarah said," Look, I know you don't want Matt and your sisters to be your family right now and its okay. Really it is, but will you let me be your friend?"
I sat there for a minute. We connected on some level. I'm not sure what it is that made what she said seem more sincere and true than anyone else, but I trusted her.
I said," Yeah, we can try."
Sorry the chapter's so short. I'm taking my finals so I'm a little stressed…but I'll try to update again soon.