I said," If I went home I would have my friends and Aunt Susan, and I would be where my mom is. I want to go back home."
Aunt Alex said," Our deal is you have to stay here for the summer. Remember, when you ran away and Susan told you you have to at least stay for the summer."
I got up and said before I walked out," I want to go home, now"
I walked down stairs and out onto the porch.
Sarah, Matt's wife walked out and sat down beside me on the swing.
She asked," What's wrong?"
I said as tears rolled down my face," I want to go home. I want to be with my mom. Why don't dad and Annie understand?"
Sarah asked," What don't they understand?"
I said," That I need to be where my mom is. I need to be near her. She's not here."
Sarah turned me to look at her and said," She's not there anymore either."
I started to cry harder and said," But her body is. Her grave is there. I need to be where she is. I need her. I still need her. And my brother. I still need them both.they are my family."
Sarah hugged me and asked," Why do you need to be where her body is? Why do you still need them?"
I said," She's the person who held me when I was sick and sat up with me when I woke up scared. My brother used to have tea parties with me and he never once complained even though I know he hated them. He used to put band aides on my knees when I fell down, and he looked under my bed and in my closet every night before I fell asleep, just in case any monsters had snuck in. They are my family. That place is my home.home is where the heart is. My heart is still with them.and it always will be."
She said," Your dad and Annie and all of you sisters and brother love you."
I said," I know, but that will never change the fact that they left me. Sarah, taking me in now and trying to love me will never take away the past. They walked out on me. all of them walked out on me. My brother and my mom never left me. They NEVER left! Your family is never supposed to leave you. But my family have been ones to follow the rules have they?"
Sarah didn't answer. She just sat looking at me. She looked like she was hanging on to every word I said trying to figure out what was going on inside my head.
I continued," My father is a minister. He stands in front of couples all the times and recites those stupid vows; love, honor, cherish, til death do you part, but when it came to him, when it came to my mom. he didn't care about the vows or the promises he had made to us; he only cared about himself. He has never cared about anyone but himself."
My dad and Annie and Aunt Alex walked out onto the porch, but I didn't see them.
Sarah asked," what do you mean?"
I said," What kind of father walks out on his baby girl. Who would leave their child alone without the basic essentials of life. We didn't have any money. Mommy had always stayed at home with all of us and dad had gone to work. When he left mom had to try to find a job, but she had never finished college, so my brother dropped out of school to help support us. I came home from school to an empty house most of the time unless Aunt Susan was off and then she would pick me up, but they gave up everything for me, so that I wouldn't go with out. How could anybody care about anyone but themselves and do something like that. I was just a little girl, what did I ever do to deserve this. What did I do that was so bad that God is punishing me so much?"
My dad walked over to me and said as he tried to take my hands in his," God is not punishing you Sarah."
I pulled away and started to run, but Aunt Alex caught me and pulled me back into her arms. I fought to get away.
She sat down and held me tightly up against her.
She held my heard to her chest and said," You did nothing to deserve this. Oh sweetie, God is not punishing you."
I burst into tears and asked," Then why did he take away my mom and brother and then send me HERE? I just want to go home. Please, Aunt Alex, take me back to Aunt Susan. I want to go home."
She carried me inside and called Aunt Susan. She got on the next flight to Glen Oak.
Sorry it took so long to update. Please R&R so that I know if there are still peeps out there reading my story...until next time