Aunt Alex had to practically hold me hostage in my room. I was bound and determined I was leaving and I wasn't waiting for Aunt Susan to get there.
That night I tried for two hours to get away from Aunt Alex and out of my room but she held me down in my bed.
She said," Sarah, stop it. You have to calm down and stop fighting me."
I yelled," I want to go home. Please let me go home."
She said," you can't go home. This is your home now. You can't go back to where you lived before. You just can't."
I fought her until I fell asleep from exhaustion.
I woke up the next morning to Aunt Susan rubbing my cheek.
I sat up and hugged her tight.
I begged," Please, please bring me home."
She pulled me away and said," Look at me, Sarah, look at me."
I slowly looked up at her.
She said," You cannot come back home. You have to stay here with your dad. You have no choice and no say in this. If after six months, which is until the end of summer, you are still as miserable as you are now I will talk with you about maybe coming back to live with me. He's you dad Sarah, no matter what, he's your dad. I want you to give him a chance and give your brother and sisters a chance. They all love you very much and they want the chance to get to know and for you to get to know them. Forget about the past and work on the future. You cannot come back with me so stop using it as an escape. You can come visit me one week, next, summer. Only if you are still living with you dad and you have to be making an effort to get along with him, and Annie."
I begged," But you are my family, and that is my home. I want to go home. I feel like half of my heart and soul are buried in the ground where you are, not here. I need to be with the other half of my heart. I need my mom."
She pulled me into a hug and said," I know that you miss her and that you need her and I wish to God that she was still here, but she's not. You have to love with the card you are dealt. Your dad is back and he wants to take care of you now. Give him a chance."