Chapter three: Kotae
Boku wa imademo kotae no sagashiteru... demo... kotae koko ni wa nai.
To be frank I don't remember the name in the grave.
But I kept on meeting him anyway, that same day, and the day after day and so on, never mentioning anything about my talk with Sensei.
He was her son. I knew it.
He'd told me so, once. Why Sensei denyed it appeared to my younger self as a family conflict. Giving that he still lived in her house. I naivelly figured that they had had some sort of quarrell.
But my search for the knowledge, for the answer, was by far more important than him... Even if after such a long time he'd already become a part of that search.
In my own struggle for the truth I ended up asking him his name, again. Even if it's something I could feel sorry for, I don't regret it. "The search for the answer will lead you to suffering." He said, his perfect gold eyes becoming violet right before me. "But suffering is attached to life, don't you think?"
His lips traced a smile.
"Seven feelings are a taboo to your kind." he said, and so, his immaculate light hair turned into a dark shade of green. "You feel Envy when you think of those who found their answer." he said, smiling, at the time his now pale, bony hand raised to point at himself gently.
"And you will feel Wrath when you find it at last."
I didn't understand it back then. But now I do, and I wonder, how he could have known. With a last smile, under that new appearance, his body emitted a glow. I saw him for the final time as a bird that flew off into the twilight. I called.
He didn't reply.
As he had foretold, the search for the answer only led me to suffering. Even so, I never forgot those young years of my life, in which I still believed in the truth.
The answer? I never learnt it from him.
Toikakete, sagashite mitemo, kotae doko ni mo nai
Boku wa imademo kotae no sagashiteru... demo... kotae koko ni wa nai. (I am searching for the answer even now... but... the answer isn't here.)
Toikakete, sagashite mitemo, kotae doko ni mo nai (Even if I tried to ask or search for it, the answer wouldn't exist anywhere.)
(From the song 'Boku wa koko ni iru')
OK! This is by far my greatest success. Hehe. No single review, for three chappies! WOW!... No, really. Just a "this sucks" will do. I need to know! Even if this was the last part >>