Alrighty, this is chapter four and I would like to say: I don't own the song "Vampire Heart". Ok well enjoy! Oh by the way, this chapter has attempted suicide!
"I feel so alone...something is happeneing to me...something bad. I can't tell anyone. They would surely reject me. Russel would shoot me as soon as he saw me...Noodle would be terrified...Michelle? I don't wanna know. I'm dying. Whatever makes me, ME...is dying. The rest of me might as well die too..."
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I raised the gasoline over my head, determined to end it all. A tiny wimper barely echoed off the carpark walls. Safe...where Murdoc won't see me. Would it scar him for life if he saw me set my self on fire? Commit suicide? "No...he'd probably laugh and come closer to get a better view..." I twitched as the cold liquid hit the top of my head, and streaked my face, running down my neck, onto my chest. I poured another can of gas down my pants. "When I die, there will be nothing left, but a suicide note and the zipper from my pants." I was so close to flicking the lighter. I am an out of control monster...I don't deserve to live...
Michelles high pitched shriek surprised me and caused me to drop the lighter. I looked over to see Michelle runnung twords me, blonde hair flapping in a wild mess behind her. She held me close, sobbing into my already soaked t-shirt. "Stuart! Why? What do you think you're doing?"
It felt nice to hear her call me my real name...instead of babe. My head was turned away from her. "Maybe I don't have to die..."
"Stu look at me!"
"No...I'm not Stu anymore..." The thought turned my stomach in a knot. Michelle...I'm not Stu anymore. "What?" she demanded. "Stu, you are you! You haven't changed! She turned my head twords herself. For a wonderful moment that seemed like forever, she just stared into my black and yellow eyes. She reached out to touch them, and I showed her my fangs. She covered her own mouth with her hand. The carpark was so quiet, Michelles heartbeat echoed off the walls. I smiled and held my clawed hands out to her...
Then she screamed. Her scream tore my heart in half. I stepped twords her, wanting her to hold me...love me...accept me. Instead, she shoved me backwards, the love she said she had for me turned to dust, and for once in my entire 28 years of life, I was ahamed of my body...every inch, head to clawed toes. Now I really wanted to die. She backed up, tears streaming down her face. "Michelle! Michelle, please just listen!"
Michelle turned away. "Michelle! Come back!" She took off twords the door leading out-side. I dashed after her, trying to calm her down, but she disappeared out the door. I called out to her, but Murdoc stormed out of his winnebago and started throwing things at me. I ran out f the carpark, into the front yard, and down the long, narrow driveway, into the street. I half-wished Michelle would come back, and half wished to get hit by a car. I called out again and again...No one heard me.
"Vampire Heart"
You can't escape the wrath of my heart
Beating to your funeral song (You're so alone)
All faith is lost for hell regained
And love dust in the hands of shame (Just be brave)
Let me bleed you this song of my heart deformed
And lead you along this path in the dark
Where I belong 'till I feel your warmth
Hold me
Like you held on to life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me
Like you love the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart
I'll be the thorns on every rose
You've been sent by hope (You'll grow cold)
I am the nightmare waking you up
From the dream of a dream of love (Just like before)
Let me weep you this poem as Heaven's gates close
Paint you my soul, scarred and alone
Waiting for your kiss to take me back home
Hold me
Like you held on to life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me
Like you love the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart
Hold me
Like you held on to life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me
Like you love the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart
Hold me (Like you held on to life)
Like you held on to life
(When all fears came alive and entombed me)
My vampire heart
Love me (Like you love the sun)
Like you love the sun
(Scorching the blood in my)
My vampire heart
Aw, short chapter...oh well...Obviously, this chapter (as well as the whole story) was inspired by this song. Ok, please, please, PLEASE review!