Ok heres the fifth chapter! Enjoy! Oh ya, warning: Murdoc...ya.
I thought she would accept me...I really did. I thought she loved me. She said she did.
I ran into the road, hoping to get hit by a car. Not her. If I had just kept myself secret...she would still be alive. I know now that she never loved me. She loved my body. But as soon as that went away...she took off. I don't look that different...just a little...I still have the same shape and all... But she didn't love who I am. By now I'm sure there's no more "who" left in me. I'm just a "what". If I thought I was feeling alone before...I don't know how to describe the way I'm feeling now...Michelle knew about my...change. But now she's gone...Now I'm the only one who knows, and this loneliness is killing me. "Maybe I should tell someone...more understanding." Like Noodle? Just thinking about telling her made me feel a little better. I felt a little..."Happy."
Jumping from my bed, I ran off to find Noodle.
"I have searched every floor...every room...every possible place in Kong she could be!"
By the time I had searched Kong all the way through, I was exhausted. I dragged my feet into the kitchen, to sulk. I was surprised to see Murdoc leaning against the counter. I avoided eye contact with him...but his eyes burned into my back, while I searched the cabinets for something good...Finally I turned to face him. "Does he remember...?"
The question was answered when Murdoc spoke up, killing the silence. "Stu..." he said in a low growl. He took a few steps forward, and I tensed up, getting ready to run. My mind was screaming at me to run, but my body did nothing as Murdoc shut the door behind me quietly, and turned back twords me. "You know...they say that desperateness makes people do crazy things...gets the ardenaline pumping..." he said, taking a long drag from the cigarette that dangled from his dry, cracked, lips.
"Ya? I've heard that too..."
He chuckeled dryly. "You're cute when you're scared..." he hissed, taking another step. "You seemed pretty desprate, when I visited you the other night, huh Stu?"
"A visit, Murdoc? That's what you call a visit? Trying to rape me?" I asked, crunching my jaws together, and pointing a finger at him. Murdoc laughed and took ahold of my wrist. "Aw Stu, you know I was just showing you my affection." he said mockingly, creeping his other hand down the front of my pants. I backed up, wincing as he squeezed, and gave me a sick smile.
I think the desprateness kicked in again, because I found myself punching, and kicking, and clawing. I couldn't even feel Murdoc's bony body inder my fists. "I'm out of control."
This thought stopped me long enough to give Murdoc the chance to fight back. So he did. Hard, right in the head, on my left temple. I fell on the floor, face down. Murdoc leaned down, and grabbed a handuful of my blue hair. I yelped, taken by surprise at the sudden pain in my head.
He raised my head, so I was facing him. He didn't say anything...had no emotion that I could see... He just slammed me into the floor and walked away. A screeching sound interupted my pained wimpering, and I realized that it was...Noodle coming in from the sliding glass door leading to the balcony! So she'd been in the landfill the whole time!
...Come to think of it...the landfill was the only place I hadn't checked.
Ok, short chapter again. The next chapter will be the last!...now I can't think of anything else to say...oh well. Please review!