A/N: Once again I am saying I'm sorry I will try to make my chapters but I can't really get going yet please be patient. Sorry!

"Edward, where are we going?" I said from the passenger side of his car.

After I brought up the subject this morning I didn't know what do so I asked him and instead of giving me an answer he put me in the car. He still hasn't told me where we are going.

"Bella if I told you it would ruin my fun." Edward said with a mischievous smile, just like the smile I gave him a few days ago.

I guess I'll have to let him have his fun I mean I do feel a little guilty. But mostly I'm happy.

I know where we are. I can't believe Edward would do this to me. How would he dare? He knows I hate shopping!

"Edward, No! I'm not going shopping." I said somewhat screaming.

"Bella for what I want to do you need to go shopping." Edward said

"What do you want to do?" I asked curiously

"I want to…"Edward said stopping short

"What do you want to do?" I asked again

"I want to shop." Edward said stealing a sideways glance at me.

I looked around and noticed we were parked in the parking lot of the mall. I got out of the car too giddy to put up a fight. I was still happy about what he said earlier today. I couldn't wait for him to change me but I couldn't believe he said that we could get married.

"Bella, are you coming or not." Edward said playfully

"What...Yeah" I said as I was pulled out of my train of thought

As soon as we went through the front doors of the mall Edward was leading me by the hand to a store. Then he started to pick random clothes off of the racks and placed them in my hands.

"Edward, I don't need these clothes." I said knowing that no matter what I do say is going to make a difference.

"I know." Edward says with a mischievous smile on his face.

"Here this is the last pair." Edward said placing a pair of light blue jeans in my arms. "Go try them on, please, Bella."

"Fine." I said gloomily

To my surprise, not, everything fit, from tops to shoes everything that I tried on fit perfect. I hated to admit it but Edward knows me better than I know myself. I told Edward everything fit and he drove me home.

Edward dropped me off at the front porch and said he had to go hunt. It was sunny out today and I wanted nothing more than to go up to our meadow and lay in his arms. I knew he had to hunt sometime so I kissed him and went inside.

Charlie has been away for a week now. He went on a fishing trip with his buddies. I knew he wouldn't be back for another couple of weeks, so I went upstairs and blared some music. I lay down on my bed and closed my eyes. I must have dosed off because when I woke up it was midnight. I turned towards where Edward should be to hug him but he's not there. I sit up in bed and remember that he went hunting. I spend the next few minutes just thinking about today, well yesterday, and what he said a couple days ago. I am still shocked by the fact he said he would change me and that he would marry me. I mean I knew once he changed me he would marry me but I never thought that he would marry me before he even changed me.

I got out a notebook and started to make a list of what I wanted to ask Edward. It came out more like a letter of what to ask him so I added "Dear Edward" at the top and then I folded it. Where could I put it that he would find it if he came back, or I would find it in the morning? I ended placing it on the rocking chair where he sits.

I lie back down and try to go to sleep. It's no use. I need Edward here. How did I get to sleep last time? Music! I had never turned the music off and yet it was off now. I looked around and noticed that the c.d. player was still on so it probably just stopped playing at the end of the c.d. Phew; I was scared for a minute. I mean I thought that, well I don't know what I thought, but it wasn't good. I lie back down again and hum myself my lullaby. I painstakingly fall asleep after an hour or so.

I turn my head listening for Edward to say something. When I open my eyes I notice Edward still isn't there. When is he ever going to get back! I get up get showered and get dressed. I get downstairs and remember the letter so I run back upstairs to get it. I grab it off the rocking chair and put it in my pocket. I have on the new clothes that Edward bought me. I chose the light blue jeans and a blue tank top that is the same color as my sweater. I run back downstairs and get a bowl of cereal. When I'm done I wash the bowl, just to keep myself busy. What am I going to do without Edward? Why isn't he back yet? Am I really this dependent on him that I can't come up with something to do by myself? Yes I guess I am that dependent, He's probably still hunting and I could read a book.

I grab a blanket off the couch, a book from upstairs, and my cell phone incase Edward calls from his. When I get outside I lay my blanket on the ground and sit on it. For a moment I just sit there soaking up the sun, for it was a little sunny today and it hasn't started raining yet. After I get bored I pick up my book and start reading, but I can't get comfortable and I finally decide that I have to read on my belly. So I do I lie on my belly and use my elbows to prop my hands up to read the book. After an hour of reading I go inside to get another book. This time I bring out Edgar Allen Poe's complete works, which doesn't have al of his poems or stories. It is 861 pages long and I start from the beginning. Give up after page 413 and think instead.

I start to think of things that I could do for my wedding our wedding. Are we going to have a big wedding? What if he changes his mind? Who is going to come? How did I end up with Edward, beautiful Edward?

I close my eyes and just sit.

"Bella?" I hear, and I know whose melody like voice it is.

"Edward!" I scream

"Yes?" he says teasing me.

I run up and jump into his arms. He kisses me and we go inside.

"I missed you Edward." I say

"I know I missed you too." Edward says as he kisses me again

a/n: I am so sorry I just don't know where I am going with this story so please don't be mad about the short chapters!

From: OTF