The Ghost of You, an o.c. fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own the song or the O.C. to poor to afford either one. The song is by My Chemical Romance.

(Ryan's point of view)

I never said I'd lie in wait forever

If I died, we'd be together now

I can't always just forget her

But she could try

At the end of the world

Or the last thing I see

You are never coming home

Never coming home

Could I, should I

And all the things that you never ever told me

And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever

Marissa Cooper, the love of my life, I always thought we would end up together. Married with at least three kids and now I don't know what to do. You are gone and I have nobody to love. Why did you leave me? Did you know all that I felt for you? I loved you so much. Still do. I know I barely said the words but I did. I think deep inside you always knew.

Get the feeling that you're never

All alone and I remember now

At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies

She dies

At the end of the world

Or the last thing I see

You are never coming home

Never coming home

Could I, should I

And all the things that you never ever told me

And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me

You died in my arms. I held you as you said your last words. Took your last breath. I know nothing can bring you back to me but I can promise you that Kevin Volchok will die. He took you from me. I will avenge your murder if it is the last thing I do even if I rot away in prison it will be worth it. You were my everything. I can still see you smiling at me the day I first said I loved you. Even if it was at Oliver's party.

Never coming home

Could I, should I

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me

For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall

If I fall (down)

Everyone is miserable without you. They are all slowly breaking down. Julie won't speak. All she does is cry. The famous Julie Cooper is no longer strong, conniving woman she used to be. Summer, God I don't even want to think about Summer. Summer is broken. She can't go more than five minutes without crying. You were her best friend. You guys went through everything together. Yesterday I found Seth crying in his bedroom with a picture of us at the beach. We were together at the time. The fab four. The fab four was broken we were missing a piece of us. Cosmo girl was missing. Sandy and Kirsten mourn you like if you were there daughter. Sandy held Kirsten as she cried at your funeral. He himself was fighting back the tears. Jimmy was hysterical nothing nor could no one have consoled him. You were always his little girl. Kaitlin couldn't take it she went back to school after your funeral.

At the end of the world

Or the last thing I see

You are never coming home

Never coming home

And all the things that you never ever told me

And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me

Never coming home

Could I, should I

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me

For all the ghosts that are never gonna

I can't help but think about all that was unsaid between us. I just hope that one day soon you and I will be together one day in heaven, but for know you are the ghost that will forever haunt me. I hope you are happy where ever you are and that Johnny is with you. I want you to know you will always be the love of my life. The only woman I have ever truly loved. I know that you always loved me and that even through everything that has happened I have loved you too. Marissa, please come back to me. I was listening to the radio and this song reminded me of you. I began to cry. I sit on my bed were we had spent nights together dreaming about the future, holding your care bear. I, Ryan Atwood, never cry, but I guess I'm allowed to since the one person that I loved died.