Chapter 2: The Lie

Remus and James had fallen asleep in each other's arms. James woke up and smiled when he saw Remus snuggled up to him.

He had always had feelings for Remus. He just didn't know until last night exactly how deep those feelings went.

James, whose arms were wrapped around Remus, tightened his hold. That was when he remembered Sirius.

'Oh Shit!' he mind screamed. How could he forget that the guy he was holding in his arms and whom he had snogged the night before, was dating one of his best friends.

He quickly looked around the room and was surprised to see that Sirius wasn't there. He must have come in late last night and left early this morning.

But why would he leave early? 'Quidditch.' James mentally slapped himself. How could he forget that he had quidditch practice today?

He was the captain for christ sakes. He slowly pulled away from Remus, so that he wouldn't wake him up. Remus stirred but didn't open his eyes.

James sighed in relief. He was about to go get changed but couldn't take his eyes off of Remus. He looked so peaceful when he slept. So content.

Yet he never smiled in his sleep. He always seemed to have a frown on. James wasn't sure why but decided to investigate it later.

He kissed Remus lightly on the forehead. He threw some clothes on and ran out the door.

During practice, James kept glancing at Sirius for some sign that he had seen him and Remus together. Either anger or hurt or pain. But there was nothing.

Just the typical Sirius, outgoing and energetic. James was grateful for that. Sirius needed to know eventually but not that way.

At the end of practice, Remus was waiting for them at the side of the field. He ran up to Sirius and kissed him. James felt so many emotions at once.

It was overwhelming. Hurt, sadness, confusion, anger, and jealousy. He could just feel his heart breaking.

He felt tears prickle in his eyes but he stopped them from falling. 'Not here' he told himself, over and over again.

Why would Remus do this to him? He felt like Remus had torn his heart out and broke it into pieces with his bare hands.

"Hey Remus" he said cautiously, trying to hide the stuttering in his voice and choke back tears.

He wanted to see what Remus's reaction would be. Would he act like nothing had happened?

"Hey, Prongs" he said, like everything was just the same as it was yesterday morning.

"Hey, I've got to take a shower. I'll see you guys later" Sirius said and sped off, leaving James and Remus alone.

"Hey, Prongs," Remus said, throwing his arm around James's shoulder.

James froze. Remus sure knew how to jerk a guy around. Did he want him or not? He just wanted to scream but forced a fake smile instead.

"Look, what happened last night?"

"Huh?" James was even more confused now. Did Remus want him to explain it? What the hell? "What do you mean?" He tried to keep his voice calm, without much success.

"Well, I don't really remember anything about last night. It's all just a blur. I remember getting Black Velvets, but anything after that, and my minds just shot" he said, sheepishly.

James felt a mixture of 2 feelings. Relief, that Remus wasn't hurting him consciously, and Sadness, that Remus couldn't remember what happened last night, when it was something James would never forget.

Now James was faced with the decision of what to do. Did he tell Remus or not? He wasn't sure if he was ready to tell Remus his feelings for him just yet.

Alcohol gave him a little more courage than he had normally, like at times like this. He decided to wait to tell Remus.

Maybe he wouldn't tell Remus what happened at all. Maybe he would just tell him his feelings towards him.

That way, Remus wouldn't feel guilty for cheating on Sirius. Remus already had a worried look on his face. So, with his decision in mind, he painfully lied.

"Nothing. Absolutely nothing happened last night."

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