Rating: M

Always

Chapter 4

Summary: Continuation of Reckoning and How Long is Forever?
Axel had always done so much for me… was always there for me… and I found myself wanting to return the favor. After all… he deserved all the happiness in the world, for giving me mine. Akuroku. Roxas' POV.

A/n: Thanks for your support so far! Enjoy the update (:

Warning: RokuAku :'D

BTW I went back and edited cos ffn erased some words/ punctuations and put in random letter 'e's -sadface-. My sincerest apologies if I missed something.

Last time:

"I'm going to go out today," I announced.

"Alone?"

"I was thinking about seeing if Demyx wasn't busy." The red-head nodded.

"Alright."

xXx

I snuck back out to the garage, my sketch book in hand once Axel had left me again. Carefully, I climbed up onto the counter. My back was throbbing… but not like it had been. I reached up, grasping the box, the card and the book before climbing down, taking my sketch book and going outside. I went to the gazebo that Axel had given me for our anniversary last year and turned on the light. I set the objects on the bed and then sat on it as I smiled. I'd been meaning to come out here more often than I had… but I'd always seemed to have other things going on…

I sat down then examined the card more closely. Aside from being slightly bent… it looked new. I assumed that it had either been for Axel's birthday or for our anniversary. I bit my lower lip, feeling terrible. I'd both missed and messed up Axel's birthday last year because I hadn't remembered him. I closed my eyes, hoping I could make it up to him this year... I sat it down once again and then picked up the book. I smiled softly as I took it out of the plastic bag. It was what looked like a black photo album with the word 'Memories' written across it in what appeared to be a fancier version of my handwriting.

My smile broadened as my fingers brushed against the cover, resting on two silver-looking flattened bullets. I wanted to look inside… but decided that I'd wait for Axel; I wanted to surprise him and show him on our anniversary. I put the memory book back into the bag and the card with it then I put them under the bed. Axel never came in here… so I knew they'd be safely hidden for about a week.

I turned my attention to the shoe box, wiping some dust away. When I opened it, I saw that there was a large black bag that took up half of it. It zipped open and closed and had a lock on it. I examined it, realizing it was locked then looked at it curiously for a moment or two before setting it aside. I tilted my head, seeing an ornate little box. I took it out, trying to open it. It too, was locked. I frowned irritably, wondering what I had been hiding. I sighed a little.

I glanced at my sketch book, part of a conversation from long ago flashing across my mind.

"I bet you can't draw me," he joked, handing me my first sketch book.

I smirked at him and he grinned back. "Challenge accepted."

I closed my eyes, thinking of Axel's every feature; every curve of his body and smiled before reaching for it. When I had it in my lap, I opened it to that page where he looked so enticing. My face reddened and my heart pounded. I murmured his name as I brushed my fingers against my artwork's lips. I turned the page and felt a little light-headed, my body heating up. In this one, Axel's hair was pulled back and his hands were tied above his head. There was an adorable but sexy, heated look on his face. I wanted to see it for real. Page after page after page got me hotter, making me tingle all the way to my toes. I couldn't help myself as I stared at them, or from fanaticizing. I swallowed, my throat suddenly dry. What would Axel say if he saw me like this? My face darkened dangerously; I could feel it—it was on fire. I hastily closed it, thankful that Axel hadn't gone through this. I blinked when a small envelope fell out. Blinking again, I opened it, shaking its contents into my palm. There had been a small key inside. My eyes widened a little and I picked up the small box I'd found. My heart pounded. It was a perfect fit.

I turned the key and with a soft clicking noise, the box opened. I opened it, looking inside. There was another key. I stared at the black bag, grasping it and slipping the key into the lock before turning it. I smiled widely as I unzipped the bag. When I peered inside, I gasped audibly. I'd never seen so much cash in my entire life! I swallowed, thinking. Had I earned this? Why had I hidden it so well? I blinked as the answer came to me. To surprise Axel and to buy my own stuff… I felt so guilty that he bought everything for me…

I looked inside again when I felt something that didn't feel like money. Reaching inside, my heart stopped. I smiled, unable to contain how happy I was. I knew exactly what it was—and as I stared down at the little black box in my hand, my smile widened and my eyes watered. Hands shaking, I opened it and tears slid down my face. It was even more beautiful than I had remembered. My fingers brushed against the necklace and I shivered. It was cool and smooth to the touch. I closed the box and held the gift to myself, smiling happily, so thankful that the corner of that card had been left exposed. Otherwise I knew that I would have never found any of these things. I smiled, relocking everything up after taking out some money. I wanted to get Axel something when I went out today. Then I hid everything, including my sketch book, under the bed. I concealed the money then took out my phone, calling Demyx.

I frowned, a little disappointed when he didn't answer. I scrolled through my contacts, a name sticking out to me… Aerith. Aerith, Aerith, Aerith, I thought over and over in my mind, trying to place her. I chewed at my lower lip, checking the time. It was 7:30 A.M. Then, I called.

"Hello?" Came a cheerful voice. I smiled widely, recognizing Axel's mother's voice.

"Aerith!"

"Hey baby!" She replied, voice notably brighter. "What's up?" I laughed.

"Nothing much. Can I see you today?"

"Of course you can, sweetie," she replied, "I can be there in an hour." I smiled

"Awesome." I could almost see her smiling.

"Sounds great!" I smiled, unable to stop, even after we'd hung up.

I went outside, my smile widening; already, it was a beautiful day. Walking toward the house, I stopped when I got into the garage. Axel was halfway through putting stuff away. He'd pulled his hair back into a low ponytail. I smiled. It was getting so long… It went halfway down his back. He turned toward me and my breath caught as those expressions flashed across my mind. I blushed darkly. Axel looked curious.

"Are you feeling okay?" He asked, noticing my reddened face. I went to him, hugging him. "How's your head?" I hugged him more tightly, burying my face into his chest. "Roxas?" He knelt down and raised my chin, making me look him in the eye. I grasped either side of his face. My entire body was tingling again.

"I'm fine," I whispered.

"What's wrong then something's-" he started, hesitating and looking surprised when my thumb brushed against his lower lip, "off." I shook my head and pressed my lips to his. Axel made a small noise of surprise and it intensified the burning desire I felt for him. I buried my hands into his hair and pulled before deepening the kiss. He let me explore his mouth and then kissed me back, thrusting his tongue into my mouth in a reassuring, encouraging way.

"I want you," I whispered. Axel's eyes widened.

"You… want me to have sex with you?" he asked uncertainly. I shook my head.

"I want to have sex with you," I whispered back, kissing him again. Axel moaned, surrendering to me, and it encouraged me further. I grasped his hands, and led him backward, kissing him all the while. He gasped, tripping when his legs hit the car, catching himself with his hands. I pushed him down, against the hood. He stared at me wide-eyed.

"H-here?" He stuttered. I smiled down at him.

"I thought you liked having sex in unconventional places." Axel blushed darkly.

"D-did that blow to your head jar some memories?" I smiled.

"Maybe." Axel closed his eyes, arching his back as I kissed him again. I firmly pressed against him, pushing him down and making him moan. "You did tell me that you like assertiveness, though.

Axel stared up at me, that adorable but sexy, heated look I'd drawn was in his eyes. Now all I had to do was tie him up and it'd be perfect. I bit his neck and his whole body shook before locking up with shock. He gasped as my hands worked the button to his pants before they pulled them down, exposing him. He moaned as I felt his arousal and then my hands trailed upward, grasping the hem of his shirt.

"I want you naked," I whispered into his ear. Without protest, he raised his arms and I began to tug his shirt off, stopping when I got to his wrists and pulling it tight. Before he could stop me, I hooked the shirt on the driver's side windshield wiper. He stared at me, wide-eyed as he struggled to free them

"M-my hands…" My hands ran down his chest, pinching his hardened nipples.

"I know," I murmured, bending down and sucking on one hardened stub and then the other, driving him crazy.

"But I want to touch you," he whimpered. I worked my way down, driving him all the more crazy.

"I know," I whispered, my breath ghosting across his hard-on. Axel shuddered moaning languidly when I took it into my mouth, all at once, and he didn't stop once as I sucked on the heated flesh.

"Ahha! Roxas! AH!" He cried out as I moved my head up and down. I pulled away with a wet noise and smiled up at him sweetly before doing it again, turned on by the beautiful sounds he was making. I pulled away with one last lick. I could feel his eyes on me as he panted, trying to catch his breath. I took off his shoes, skinny jeans and underwear. My fingers ran along his body, caressing it as I worked my way back up and kissed him.

"You're so beautiful." Axel moaned, arching his body against mine, rubbing his hard-on against my still clothed one.

"Please," he begged, rubbing harder and obviously enjoying the delicious friction. I grasped his legs and pulled my body away from his.

"Not yet." Axel groaned and I raised his lower half, bending at the same time. He gasped, trembling with anticipation as I ran my tongue across his quivering entrance. I couldn't remember doing this before and so I was a bit nervous, but when he began to beg and mewl for more, I didn't hesitate to slip my tongue inside his body. Axel barely asked for anything and so I was more than happy to oblige him. It was a strange but erotic feeling and I could tell that it was making him erratic, almost frantic, as I watched him squirm underneath me as my tongue explored. A drop of pre cum dropped to his stomach as I pulled away. I put both of his legs over my shoulders before exposing my lower half. That adorable, sexy, heated look was back on his face and it made me moan. I spat into my hand, coating my erection before pressing against him. He blushed before I pushed into him and we became one.

Axel tossed his head from side to side, making incoherent noises as I moved faster and faster. I gripped the top of his head, my fingers digging into his hair with one hand and steadying myself with the other. My gaze met his heated one and then I gasped in surprise when he craned his head forward, kissing me. I kissed him back, gently pressing him back into the car. I picked up the pace and his brows furrowed and he bit his lower lip when I pulled away.

"Do you like this?" I asked gently. Axel's blush deepened and he nodded, moaning as he tilted his head to the side. With a final shuddering convulsion of his body, he came. I moaned as his body tightened around me and he gasped as I filled him.

Axel's heated gaze never left me even after he'd calmed and as I pulled away he spoke. "So, what's got you acting like a cat in heat?" He purred. I opened my mouth, unsure of how to answer. I was thankful when I didn't have to; my phone rang and I pulled my clothes back on before answering it.

"I'm here, baby."

"Alright, I'll be right out."

Axel smirked at me and I smiled at him. "Your mother's here. I'm hanging out with her today, so I've gotta go."

"I'll get it out of you," he replied, grinning.

"I could leave you like that and just go, if you're going to delay me."

"Ooh, harsh, Roxy baby." I blushed. He hadn't called me Roxy since that night we'd gotten drunk. "I wouldn't dream of leaving you tied to a car, naked."

I went to him, freeing his hands. "Why did you call me Roxy? You never do that…"

"Why did you randomly want to fuck me? You never do that." He murmured, putting his shirt back on before wrapping his arms around me. I laughed.

"Maybe you were just so sexy that I couldn't stand it." Axel smirked.

"Bye, Roxy, have fun with mother."

"Why did you-?" He kissed me fully on the lips.

"I'll tell you when you tell me the truth," he murmured against my lips before pushing me toward the door.

xXx

Aerith and I were driving for about five minutes before she spoke.

"So, what's up Roxas?"

"Hmm?" She smiled at me.

"I was just wondering why you wanted to hang out, baby." She replied before looking concerned. "My son's still treating you right, isn't he?" I nodded.

"Of course he is," I said, smiling. "I'm not sure Axel has it in him to intentionally be mean to me." My smile widened as I gazed up at her. "I just wanted to spend some time with you." Aerith looked excited.

"I'm happy that you do!" I nodded.

"I'm glad that you could."

xXx

Aerith and I had a fun day of going to the stores uptown and to the next—something Axel and I never seemed to do. As it neared 2:30 in the afternoon, however, Aerith announced that we had time for one more shop because after that, she needed to head home so that she was there when Namine and Kairi got out of school. I nodded.

"Where do you want to go?" I asked her.

"Me? Hmm…" She said as we looked around the square, "How about that one?" She asked, pointing to an antique shop. I smiled. "Okay."

Together, we walked to the store and I smiled excitedly as we got inside. There were so many strange but fascinating things inside, ranging from old signs, to furniture, to vintage jewelry. The store was cool because it had a bunch of different sections and each section was a different place an antique had come from.

"Oooh look at this, Roxas," Aerith said, showing me a small café table from Traverse Town. I smiled, an idea coming to mind.

"Would you mind if I bought that?" Axel's mother laughed. "Of course not, baby," she said. I smiled excitedly. It'd look perfect on the deck and be perfect for-

"Let's keep looking around," Aerith said, interrupting my thoughts. I smiled widely.

"Okay!"

I think that the Antique shop was the best one we ended up going to all day. Aerith and I tried on old clothes, took photographs, smiled in awe at the jewelry and, as I bought that table, I bought her her favorite piece of jewelry. She'd smiled excitedly saying she loved it and it made me smile as I wondered how Axel would react when I gave him his necklace. My smile widened. I couldn't wait.

When we got back to the house, Aerith helped me hide the table in the gazebo after I told her it was a surprise. Then she and I went inside, to Axel's office. After knocking and being told to come in, we went inside. Axel smiled widely and quickly went to his mother, hugging her.

"Did you two have fun?" He murmured, pulling me into the hug.

"We did, baby," she said laughing. Squeezing us both, she sighed gently. "I should get going, if I want to be home before Namine and Kairi," she murmured. "I just had to see you first." We both smiled.

"Bye mom," Axel whispered.

"Bye Aerith," I said after that. She ruffled my hair.

"Oh, Roxas, you know you can call me 'mom' right?" I smiled up at her excitedly.

"Bye mom!" She smiled, kissing my forehead and then Axel's before smiling at us.

"Bye, be good, you two." Axel just smiled as she left.

"Did you have a good day?" I nodded.

"Yeah."

xXx

The days leading up to our anniversary seemed to fly by. Along with getting up early every day and training with Axel, which was slowly getting easier, I'd decided to focus more on drawing, like I'd used to. But… the subject matter was different. This time I found myself compelled draw the shadows and the nightmares… amongst the other things I'd seen, when I'd been seeing Vexen. I bit my lower lip. I felt a little bad for him, being that he was devoured, although he deserved it. I shook my head as I finished drawing Oblivion.

"That's really good." I jumped, absolutely startled and then stared back at Axel.

"I-I thought you wouldn't look at something so personal without permission." Axel's cheeks flushed and he looked guilty.

"I'm sorry." I relaxed then took a deep breath before writing 'Oblivion' above it. "What is it?"

"A weapon," I replied. Axel sat beside me.

"That's really cool. You could make a lot of money, designing stuff like that, you know." I tilted my head at him. No, I hadn't known.

"Huh, maybe I'll look into it," I said, smiling a little. The red-head smiled back. "Hey, Axe, what time is it?" Time seemed to always get away from me when I was drawing. Axel checked his phone.

"A quarter to five. Do you want me to start dinner soon?"

"If you want to," I said, smiling. Then I stood. "I've got to go somewhere."

"Do you want me to go with you?" I shook my head.

"Nope, I'll be fine." Axel nodded.

"Alright, try to get back before dark. Call me if you need anything," he said before reaching behind him, taking out his gun and putting it into my hands. "And be safe." I smiled, concealing the gun.

"I will."

xXx

I went to a nearby liquor store, picking up something at the last minute for our anniversary, which was tomorrow, mad at myself for nearly forgetting it. I stopped, item in hand, when I saw a picture of me and Axel kissing on the beach, as well as a snapshot of Riku and Sora feeding each other cake and Demyx dancing with Zexion.

"Gay romance is in the air…?" I whispered as I read the title of the magazine. What was 'gay'? Was it bad?

"It's so disgusting. Men are supposed to like women." The clerk said in reply, clearly disgusted. I blinked. I wasn't supposed to love Axel because he was a man?

xXx

-TBC-

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