Chapter 5: Too Perfect to Last

James was sleeping when he felt someone shake him slightly. He grumbled something incoherent and rolled over.

The person shook him a little rougher this time. He opened his eyes groggily. The figure was blurry, but he could tell that it was dark so it was obviously still nighttime.

Since he didn't have to get up for another couple hours, he was going to tell the person to go away until his eyes adjusted and he saw that it was Remus. He instantly sat up.

"Remus, are you okay?" His voice was hoarse from just waking up. Remus looked down, slightly embarrassed.

"Yeah, I just had a bad dream, so, umm, can I sleep with you?"

Even though it was dark, James could tell he was blushing. James didn't answer, just scooted over and lifted the sheets up for Remus to climb in.

He did and then snuggled up to the raven-haired boy. It wasn't unusual for Remus to have bad dreams.

He constantly had flashbacks of when he was bitten by Fernir Greyback. It was just that, before, Remus would always go to Sirius.

James was torn. He was happy that Remus came to him for comfort because, in a way, it made him feel special, but also sad because he hated when Remus was upset.

Remus was shivering so James wrapped his arms around the smaller boy and pulled him tight. The werewolf nuzzled his head into James's chest.

James could feel Remus's hot breath on his neck and his own breath hitched. It only took one touch from his lycanthropic friend for him to become aroused.

He wasn't sure if that was a bad or good thing but it definitely didn't help matters at that particular time. He thought that maybe it would be best if he backed away.

If he didn't soon, he was afraid that he would lose his self-control and do something stupid, like kiss Remus again. Remus, on the other hand, wanted to move closer together.

Whenever he had crawled into bed with Sirius before, Sirius would comfort him by showering him with kisses all up and down his body. It always distracted him from his memory.

But Remus wasn't thinking about Sirius at that moment, in fact, Sirius was the farthest thing from his mind. Ok maybe not the farthest, Snape was probably farther, but still, you get the point!

Remus had moved closer to James subconsciously. The warmth radiating off his body gave the troubled werewolf some comfort and relaxed him.

He had wanted to feel this close to James for a long time and now he had the chance and he was enjoying every minute of it.

He wanted to take it a step further. So, he brought his lips up to James's cautiously. It occurred to him that maybe he shouldn't be doing this but he didn't care.

All he cared about was that he wanted to kiss James. So, without worrying about the consequences, he crashed their lips together.

To Remus's surprise, James's automatically kissed back. Remus deepened the kiss and then ran his hand up James's back, lightly caressing with his fingers, causing the older teen to shiver.

By that time, James's head was spinning. This was all too good to be true. Remus was kissing him, and he wasn't even drunk!

But then Remus backed away from James, which caused the other boy to moan from the loss of contact. It had all been so perfect.

James found himself wishing that it would never end, but alas, it had, much to his disappointment. Remus had also been feeling the same way.

He had loved the kiss, but it just felt wrong, what he was doing. He was using James as a rebound for Sirius and that wasn't fair to him.

James deserved so much better than him. He deserved someone who loved him with all their heart and who would do absolutely anything for him.

He deserved someone to whom he wasn't just a constellation prize. Someone that he meant the world too and that would die without him.

But, what Remus failed to notice, is that by listing what James deserved, he was describing himself…

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