Chapter 6: The Truth
James watched as Remus tried to back away from him on the small bed and then fell off the side.
He was finding it hard to contain his laughter, but somehow he managed, and reached his hand down to help the very embarrassed boy up.
When Remus ignored his outstretched hand and got up on his own, James's eyebrows furrowed. Remus stood up but made no motion to climb back into the bed with James.
Instead, he turned around and started to walk back to his own four poster, but James grabbed his arm and twisted him around, staring straight into hazel-brown eyes, searchingly.
Why was Remus trying to get away from him? What had changed in the last minute? He saw no emotion in the other teen's eyes. If anything, they just looked cold. James felt like crying.
He had known that it had been to perfect to last. But it just wasn't fair. Less than a minute ago he was on top of the world, and now he felt like he would rather be 6 feet under.
He let go of his lycanthropic friend and turned over in his bed so he was facing away from him. He didn't want Remus to see him cry, to see how weak he was.
He couldn't let Remus to be any more disgusted in him than he obviously already was. The tears started to stream down his face as he choked back a sob that threatened to escape his lips.
But Remus, with his incredible sense of hearing that came from being a werewolf, heard the raven-haired boy's anguish. He instantly felt guilt and climbed into bed behind James.
He wrapped his arms around his scrawny body so they were spooning. "Shh…" he whispered soothingly in James's ear.
He rubbed his hands in a circular motion to calm the other boy. It seemed to work because James's breath evened out a bit, but now he felt another emotion besides sadness.
He was angry and he couldn't hold it in anymore. He flipped over so fast that Remus was taken back and almost fell off the bed a second time. His eyes flashed dangerously.
"What the hell, Remus! First, you kiss me, then you try to get away from me as fast as you can, and then you come right back and wrap your arms around me. Stop sending me mixed signals! I love you, and you are messing around with my feelings and it hurts! So, please, just stop! You either feel the same way or you don't! So, which is it?"
He yelled, more blunt than he had ever been in his entire life, which was definitely saying something, coming from the guy who had told the headmaster that he looked like an ugly toad.
Tears poured out of his eyes again, from anger, sadness, and utter emotional exhaustion. He didn't even try to cover them up.
It was Remus's turn to cry then. He felt so messed up. He loved James but he had just made him cry, twice in less than 5 minutes!
It just proved to him that him and James could never be together. He wasn't good enough for James, and this just provided more proof of that.
He hated seeing people he cared about cry, especially the man he loved more than anything and everything, and he couldn't contain his own tears that fell like rain.
James saw that he had made Remus cry and felt like a jerk. He wanted to know the truth about how Remus felt, not to hurt him.
"Oh, Remus, I'm so sorry!"
He went over and embraced Remus in a hug. Remus started cracking up laughing. James stared at him in disbelief.
First, he made him cry, then he cried himself, and now, when James had tried to comfort him, he was laughing like a mad man.
What was he playing at? Remus seemed to settle down when he saw the look on James's face.
"I'm sorry, it's just, you never cease to amaze me, you know that? I just made you cry and basically broke your heart and then you comfort me. Why? I don't deserve your comfort, or anything of yours. Especially not your love."
James just stared into his eyes, as if he was trying to see a sign as to whether or not he was being honest. He didn't have to look hard, though.
He could tell by just a glance that Remus was being sincere. He shook his head in bewilderment.
"Is that what you think? That you don't deserve me? Well, you're wrong." He paused and grabbed the werewolf's hand in his own and entwined their fingers.
"Is that why you won't be with me?"
Remus nodded silently and stared down at his feet, which had become increasingly interesting. He really needed to clean and cut his toenails…but anyway.
James lifted the shorter boy's head up so they were looking straight at each other, their faces less than an inch apart. Remus could feel James's hot breath touch his cold skin.
"Don't think about that, any of it. Don't think about what I deserve or about any other problems. Just tell me how you feel. Do you want to be with me?"
His eyes were filled with hope. When Remus saw James's pleading look, he found that he couldn't lie. He just couldn't bring himself to do it.
James needed to know the truth, even if Remus thought that he would be better off without it.
"Yes."
A/N: Yea! James and Remus are finally together! It took a prologue and 6 chapters to get there but it happened! But, what's Sirius going to do when he finds out? I guess you'll just have to wait to read the next chapters to find out! Hehe, I know, I'm evil. But anyway, what did you think? I am getting a lot more hits than reviews, so I am expecting ALL of you to tell me how you felt about this chapter. Pretty Please? With cherries and whip cream and champagne and, ok, I'll stop, I think you get the point by now. Lol. Please Review!