Troubles

Chapter 8

Chapter8 Gabriella's POV

I haven't cut in a week and I was going to therapy. I was sitting in my room. When my mom had gotten to the hospital she got mad.

Flash back Gabi's POV

My mom came rushing into my hospital room and I sat up in bed shocked she was here. I looked at Troy and he looked at me and then at my mom.

"Gabriella, oh god. What happened? They just told me you were in the hospital. Are you sick?" My mom asked me as she hugged me.

"I'm ok mom." I said to her as she pulled away.

"Why are you here then?" She asked me sitting down in the chair next to Troy's.

"Maybe I should leave." Troy said getting up. I grabbed his hand and pulled him back down. I knew he knew I wanted him here.

"Mom, I um, I started to cut." I said to her.

"Cut? Gabi, you've been cutting up things since you were little." My mom said not really getting it.

"Mom, I mean I cut. I really cut." I said showing her my bandaged arm.

"Oh, my god…. Why?" she asked me.

"I, um I guess because of the stress…" I said

END OF FLASH BACK (srry its lame ppl! Lol im too lazy to write a full one)

Jus thinking of why I started cutting and how it felt I got up and went into my room. I looked at my razor. I looked at it and thought really hard. Did I want to do this again? Did I want to leave this world? Did I want to leave Troy? I picked up the razor and looked at the material in my hands. It had so much power…at least to me it did.

I brought it too my skin, I couldn't believe I was doing this again. I heard my bedroom door open and then someone's voice.

"Oh, Gabi! We have to get to the movies like now!" I heard Chad say.

"I'll go check the bathroom." Troy said to them.

"Yeah, we'll wait out here, we don't want to see you guys make out." Jason said.

The bathroom door opened and the still had the razor to my wrist. I forgot I had it there still. Troy's eyes went wide.

"Dude, why are you standing there?" Zeke came in looking at Troy. When Troy didn't move he followed his eyes and looked at the razor to my wrist. Troy started to walk towards me.

"Take one more step and I'll cut it." I said to them. Jason and Chad came into the bathroom because of the noise.

"Gabi just put the razor down." Jason said to me as I backed up.

Troy started to walk slowly towards me.

"Troy I mean it I will cut myself!" I yelled at him.

"No you won't because you said before you would cut yourself if I take one more step. I took more then one step and you didn't cut. Gabriella, I know you don't want to cut because you didn't do it yet. Just give me the razor." He said putting his hand out. I looked at his hand and then at the razor. I was about to push down and drag it, but Troy ran to me and grabbed my arms.

"Let go of me!" I yelled at him. I started to cry. He opened my hand that had the razor in it. He set it beside us as he held me. I cried into his shirt. He rocked me back and forth and kept saying, 'it's ok'. I he stopped rocking me as I felt the other guys hug me.

Just one question ran through my mind as they hugged me, 'Why did I want to leave this place?'

In truth I was mad at myself. I was angry with myself for cutting.

……

That was a week ago. I tried to cut, but I was saved my buddies. The thing is there not my buddies there my brothers and my boyfriend.

I walked into East High as a new day. We had a talent show and I was performing in it, but it wasn't with Troy it was by myself. I went to my locker and grabbed my CD with my song. I looked at it and asked myself if I wanted to do this. I did. I ran to the theater where every one was setting up. I sat in a chair going over the words I was going to sing.

I heard my name being called and people clapping. I walked out to the stage and picked up the mike from its stand. I waited for the music to start and then I went on my cue.

Ooooh

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Ooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

Yeah, oh oh, ye-yeah

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and down the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy

But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared

Oooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I wanna run too
Oooh oh oh oh
Recklessly emboundening myself before you
I wanna open up my heart
Tell him how I feel, ooh ooh

Oooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses

Ooh ooooh ooh ooh ye-yeah yeah oohh
I wanna run with the wild horses, ooooh

When I stopped singing everyone started to stand up and clapped. I looked at the crowd and handed the mike to the next singer. I chose that song because I did want to be free. I've always wanted to be free and now I was.

I knew I would be attempted to cut, but I knew my friends would be there. Plus no more college preps. My mom took me out of them all.

A/N I am soooo sorry if it was a cheesy ending srry! Well the song is from Natasha Bedingfield, "Wild Horses" well I want to thank you all who reviewed! And if you all want a sequel just say SEQUEL in the review! lol