Always
Chapter 22
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A/n: Heeey there readers. To those of you who are still here enjoying this. Wow that gap. Its cringe-worthy. I know. I am really sorry for all the neglect. I've been living life in survival mode for a few years now and as I mentioned in my other update, I'm working through something seriously traumatic. That's not really a good atmosphere to be able to do creative writing. I also had to do a rewrite on a big chunk of this which evoked writer's block. Given my change in writing style… and the opportunity to vent... I'm a bit grateful. Anyway, here you go.
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Last time:
"We should get a souvenir," I blurted. His smile became wry.
"Sure. I saw something you might like," he teased. I swallowed, not sure if I was going to like this or not. His lips curved upward further and he gave me furtive smile and gave my hand a gentle tug. As he led me, my heart skipped a beat before jolting into motion and I could feel my blood rushing. I let out a breathless laugh despite myself. Axel paused, watching me with interest.
"They make bondage equipment out of dragon hide… of course they do..." I murmured. Axel chuckled, hugging me from behind.
"Ooh look babe, they have toys and lube too," he purred into my ear.
"Wait. This is what you want to get?" I whispered, my jaw dropping.
"It is now," he murmured huskily into my ear. My brain stopped working. I could feel my blush spreading. My ears were burning. "I'm up for trying new things if you are." I hid my face in my hands. I was so embarrassed but so turned on. Deep breaths Roxas. I peered up at his face. His smile had dimmed and my heart fell.
"Yes, okay, fine. But you're buying it while I wait outside." Axel smirked at me, and I swallowed harshly, realizing that I had just agreed to something I'd never dreamed of doing. I hurried out of the shop and didn't dare to look back. When I got outside, I just focused on breathing and trying to get my face back to normal.
xXx
My face was at a constant simmer. Axel was absolutely delighted about it. I nearly fainted when he handed me an elaborate looking box upon leaving the store.
"Is this..." I swallowed, my flush deepening, "um appropriate?" Chuckling, Axel smoothed my hair out of my face, his thumb lingering against my lower lip to rub sensually.
"Would I ever do something like that to you?" he purred softly. Just as I felt the tension leaving my body he was speaking again. "That's why you got the box, not the bag, sweetheart."
"Oh God Axel," I groaned, unable to stop thinking about the large bag hanging innocently on his arm. His lips stretched up into a satisfied grin. He kissed me for a long moment.
"Open it whenever you'd like, but I want to see your face when you do," he murmured to me. I clutched the box, feeling my heart pounding out of control.
"Now… let's do it now..." Axel smiled in contentment and nodded, watching me expectantly.
"Okay, my love," he answered. I took a deep breath, tentatively opening the box. I gasped softly and couldn't help but smile warmly.
"Paint brushes?" Axel hummed gently in affirmation.
"The handles are carved by hand and made out of jade." My gaze lingered on his.
"My favorite color," I told him with a small smile. He smiled back coyly.
"Oh?" Chuckling I answered,
"Of course, how could I not love the color I see when I gaze into your eyes more than any other?" His lips curved up and his gaze lingered on mine.
"Mm, I couldn't agree more," he purred back. His hand slid into mine and he squeezed gently. "Happy birthday, my love. I look forward to seeing what you create." I smiled back tentatively, already having a beautiful muse right in my line of sight.
"Where to now?" I asked, following his lead.
"The Sirens are having a show on the water," he mused. "Wanna go?" I felt the color drain from my face, as I remembered how much traffic that would entail.
"I am not driving in that. No matter what you say." Axel glanced back at me with a wry smile.
"Fine, I'll do it, but you're gonna make it up to me," he teased back.
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Watching Axel so in control, so precise and intentional in everything he did, was actually a really fascinating thing. I couldn't recall seeing him in this type of setting, but here we were, living life to the fullest, and I was enjoying every moment. The sun had descended low into the sky at the start of the show, and he had me curled against him, lounging back in one of the seats, wrapped up in a warm blanket. I couldn't believe how thoughtful he was or how just a simple moment like this could be so enjoyable.
"Are you having a good time?" he hummed softly in my ear.
"I am," I answered. "What do I owe you for getting us here?" He chuckled a bit.
"I was joking, I'm simply happy with your company." I pouted up at him, not realizing it until he gave me a wry smile. "Oh my darling, that isn't enough?" I shrugged, turning my gaze back to the singers.
"Sometimes I wish you would be more honest with what you want."
"If I did, would you be able to handle the truth?" he asked right in my ear. I froze, my heart pounding out of control. I blinked up at him, feeling feverish under his gaze. "If I wanted to do intimate things to you right now, would you let me?" I swallowed harshly.
"Won't people notice that?" He just gave me a smile, as if saying, would I ever do that to you? I shuddered against him, my face flushing as I realized that he was getting aroused from our conversation and I very keenly remembered a flashback of another. Without realizing what I was doing, I found myself grinding down against him. He hissed in my ear, and gripped me tightly.
"One day, you're going to love getting away with this just as much as I do," he murmured to me. Demyx and Zexion were watching a movie with us. The room was dimmed… but all they would need to do to catch us was glance over. My heart was pounding and my fingers were trembling around the blanket that was covering us as he shifted inside of me, "Hold on tight, you don't want anyone to see," he purred against my ear. I gasped, shuddering at the memory.
"Unless that's an invitation, stop."
"Y-you like this!" I hissed under my breath. "I asked you what you liked and you knew all this time!" Green eyes stared into mine longingly. He moaned deliciously when I intentionally rolled my hips into his as punishment. He was shivering uncontrollably.
"Stop, stop, stop," he whimpered. Still scoffing, I did, giving him a chance to breathe. "We both did," he answered, "but you forgot and I love you so much that putting you first mattered more. Can you ever forgive me?" His grip loosened to tentative but pleasurable caresses. "Please, Roxas?"
"Only if," I groaned, squirming under his touches, "y-you tell me the truth from now on!" Axel's lips slowly curved up into a mischievous grin. Sparkling green eyes met mine.
"Does that mean you're going to allow this?" he asked softly, watching me with interest. I exhaled in defeat and my eyes slid shut.
"We already have," I answered carefully, feeling my face reddening. "I'm open to trying it again."
He didn't waste a moment in opening my pants. I bit my lower lip and clutched the blanket that was around us. I found myself gasping audibly as his fingers slid into me when I didn't stop him, absolutely turned on that we were getting away with something like this in such a crowded place and groaning in pleasure. He began to play with my prostate with one hand and stroking me to full arousal with the other and I found myself doing all I could not to fall apart.
"Okay," he answered, absolutely purring and making me shiver uncontrollably. He continued to play with me until we were both painfully aroused. "Baby," he moaned into my ear, making me groan in pleasure, "this isn't enough. I want to be inside you, making love while we listen to our favorite songs, right here in this sea of people… like we're the only two that exist." My face was on fire and I was trembling, just trying to breathe.
"O-ok-ay," I whimpered back, peering into green eyes.
"Is it? Don't say things just to please me," he chided softly, "because I'm burning up at the thought of being inside you right now." I ground back into the next thrust of his fingers, trembling.
"I'm not, I want you," I answered. Axel moaned softly in my ear, pulling his fingers out of me. I rolled my hips back into his lap and he hissed softly in pleasure as I ground down. He was watching me carefully, ever considerate, and it melted my heart. I felt my gaze softening. "Hurry-mmn," I found myself moaning and biting my lower lip as he entered me in a slow glide, feeling every wave jostle our boat and cause a chain reaction as he moved inside me. He pulled me down until I was fully seated on his lap, just trying to breathe, as he guided my hips. Every movement was excruciatingly pleasurable as the beat pulsed through us and he stroked me in time to the music. My hands were trembling as I struggled to hold onto the blanket.
"Don't let go," he teased into my ear, his teeth finding my earlobe to bite sensually. I groaned in response, pressing my back into his chest and resting my head on his shoulder, just trying to breathe. My face was on fire as I stared into gorgeous green eyes. They were absolutely alight, glimmering beautifully as he continued to roll our hips together so, so slowly. "You're doing so great, just keep holding on… just… like… this..." he moaned softly, "Get lost in the feeling if you want to… the best part is coming up." I blinked up at him.
"Wait. W-we've done this before? I-in our b-boat? In the middle of a concert?!" I was completely aroused and aghast. Axel gave me a Cheshire grin and we were interrupted by applause as the show concluded. I thought I was going to die from being so turned on. My eyes widened in realization and Axel absolutely delighted in the look on my face. I knew what was going to happen… and he could see how much I wanted it.
"I love it when you remember important things at the most convenient time," He answered, his green eyes glimmering "Let's go out with a bang," and right as he said it, there was a whistling sound as the first firework of the end of the show performance shot up into the air. Before I knew what was happening, he pulled back to thrust into me hard, his mouth descending to mine to swallow up my moan, continuing until he was filling me and I was screaming into his mouth. I was completely out of my mind in pleasure as my back met the floorboards of the boat. Axel's mouth was still on mine and he was kissing me hungrily while I moaned in approval and tried to keep up. He pulled back with a grin and with a wink purred, "Enjoy the finale." I was trembling, nearly blacking out as he went down to finish me with his mouth. He could hear my screams, he was close enough, and the way he hummed and moaned in pleasure, I knew. My body was convulsing uncontrollably as I came, absolutely weak all over when I felt him swallow. I only realized that my hands had been buried in his hair when he came back up to kiss me. He righted my clothes and that was it. No one would ever be the wiser aside from us. My body was absolutely on fire over it. By the look on his face, he knew. He had to know.
My hand found his firm ass and I squeezed as the finale ended. I could hear him chuckling softly. "Yes, baby?" he purred in satisfaction. "Did I make you feel good?" I found myself humming softly.
"I might have to repay you," I answered. He pressed his lips to mine in a lingering kiss.
"Oh my love," he sighed, "I'm seeing more glimpses of you than I have in such a long time." I blinked up at him. "I'm so happy I brought you here and you're remembering," he told me seriously. I smiled softly as the fireworks ended and the cosmos became his backdrop.
"I'm happy too," I answered, brushing my nose against his, "you've never looked happier or more beautiful." I smiled widely. "I love you so much." He chuckled happily.
"Really?" I pressed my forehead to his.
"Yeah, now take me home. When we get there, your ass is mine," I purred, squeezing it again. It felt so nice. He laughed, despite himself.
"What if I make you earn it?" he teased. I arched a brow at him and hummed playfully. "What if I don't just give it up to you and make you fight for dominance?" I could see how much he wanted it, but at the same time felt my stomach drop a bit. I knew he was tentatively telling me what he wanted but it scared me so much. It reminded me of all of the times I'd been forced against my will. Even so, hypocritically enough, the idea of doing whatever I wanted to him turned me on endlessly. He could see the look on my face and his was falling a bit. I knew Axel was a fighter. I knew why he'd want this. It also made me feel incredibly selfish that he always put his needs on hold for me.
I took a deep breath and held up three fingers. "Take me for drinks first…. This might be too hard for me otherwise," I murmured. He smiled a bit, nodding.
"Okay, and..?"
"Whoever wins still has to back off if the loser is uncomfortable..." Axel nodded, still smiling.
"And?" My lips curved up.
"The winner gets to try out our souvenirs first on the loser." He actually genuinely gave a surprised but warm laugh before pressing his lips to mine.
"Thank you for being open," he purred to me. I grinned at him.
"Hey, its been pretty great so far," I answered. He smiled at me and my heart beat out of control.
"Let's go get that drink then," he purred. I framed his face with my hands.
"Just a minute," I answered. He hummed softly and I smiled at him. "I'm enjoying the view." He gazed into my eyes warmly. "I love you, Axel."
"I love you more, got it memorized?" Nodding, I answered,
"Always."
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If I had thought Axel looked beautiful in the starlight it was because I hadn't seen him in the aurora borealius of the dance floor yet. Given that we were several drinks in and his sweaty body was moving with mine in such a rhythmic, intimate way, I may have been a bit biased. The way the lights of the club he had chosen moved along his body in such fluid beauty made him look absolutely ethereal. His hands found my hips and he was purring in my ear, "Are you sure you want to do this tonight?" I smiled up at him and felt absolutely giddy.
"Sweet as ever, aren't you?" His body swayed with mine as we danced. He smiled and shrugged.
"What can I say? I believe in consent, my love, and I know for a fact that I tolerate alcohol much better than you do," he answered.
"One of the many reasons I love you." He smiled down at me but I could see the worry reflecting in his eyes. I shrugged again. "Without a little liquid courage I don't think I'd be brave enough to try this for a long time. Even now, I only can because it's you." My red-head gave me a gentle squeeze.
"Thank you, I cherish your trust." I smiled at him endearingly.
"Let's go home," I suggested. A smile curved up at the corner of Axel's lips.
"One sec, 'kay? C'mere." My hand found his and I gazed up at him questioningly as he purchased a few bottles to go. He smiled at me whimsically. "Just in case we decide to level the playing field later," he explained. I chuckled a bit.
"How considerate," I teased. He chuckled, wrapping a strong lanky arm around me and pulling me close as we walked to the boat. He hesitated as we walked along the docking system.
"By the way, you were right, and I really mean that." I glanced up at him in confusion.
"About?"
"Coming here, getting away, needing to live your own life. I'm sorry." I smiled softly and kissed him gently.
"That's okay, we can talk about how I'm right later, when we get back to Hallow Bastion," I teased with a wink. Axel laughed openly and my smile faded a bit. "I was wrong to not listen to you, too. I'm sorry Axel." He sighed in contentment.
"With that kind of attitude I'd be open to living here permanently," he teased, guiding me into the boat. He smiled at me for a long moment. "We're coming here more," he told me seriously.
"I'm looking forward to it. The views are to die for," I told him with a blissful sigh. He snorted, laughing at me.
"You've been saying stuff like that all day while giving me this goofy grin," he answered in amusement. I shrugged and gave him a pleased smile.
"I must be extra lucky today, huh?" His smile faded a bit and he beckoned me to come to him. It made my stomach churn and I wondered if I'd done something wrong. So I shook my head and patted the spot beside me. Amusement lit his eyes and I blinked in surprise when he came to me instead.
"Who said you could be so charming, huh?" he asked. My heart skipped a beat and his lips molded to mine. I let my fingers stroke his soft red hair and found myself sighing in absolute contentment.
"Charming? Me?" I shrugged and answered honestly, "I just wanna love you." The look in those green eyes was full of burning wanting. I kissed him and more words spilled out of my mouth and I didn't really realize what I was doing until he was laughing, "and tie you to our bed… and have more beautiful babies like Cinder..." He silenced me with another kiss, chuckling again when I managed to mumble, "but seriously though, I wanna pummel you into submission and have my way with you."
"My my, my Roxy, I think you've had too much to drink," he quipped back. "I think I'm going to have you again tonight," he purred back. Our tongues battled for a moment and he pulled back when I moaned. "Think of earlier as a warm up for how good I'm going to make you feel," he promised. My heart went into overdrive and I felt like I'd been struck by lightening.
"Oh my God, Axel," I groaned through a hungry kiss.
"I for one can't wait," he purred back.
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Axel had been right. I'd had way too much to drink. One thing was for certain though. He'd meant what he'd said, and he had given me a fighting chance at least. I watched him crack open and finish an entire bottle of alcohol by himself. He'd still beaten me… but I knew without a doubt, he had appreciated my effort and my willingness to give this a try above all else.
I didn't remember our entire fight… just bits and pieces. Like how gorgeous he'd looked in our house with the ocean as a backdrop, his reassurance that we didn't have to do this and very distinctly how he'd purred in my ear, "Never… ever… turn your back on me in a fight," or how I had found myself moaning helplessly as he caught me.
"Don't think I won't fight you every step of the way," I answered, piquing his interest.
"Mmm gonna show me some fire, Roxy?" he purred back, "But what if I'm so, so gentle?" He whispered in my ear, trailing kisses all the way from my ear, to the base of my neck, pausing to take my shirt off so he could continue to my shoulder, his teeth scraping gently, "What if I ask so sweetly for you to make love with me?" I was biting my lower lip.
"I might… see it as an opportunity," I answered, ducking forward and out of his grasp. He let me think I was free for a moment before grasping my belt and pulling me back to himself, spinning me to face him in the process. His green eyes were alight.
"Mmm I see," he conceded. "In that case I'll just have to tie you up and pick up where I left off." I shuddered, so, so attracted to him. He blinked at me, misunderstanding. "Are you... Are you okay?" I took a deep breath.
"As embarrassing as it is to admit..." His face was falling and I quickly stood on my toes, kissing him, "I'm fine, I'm just really attracted to you and I think you're really sexy," I told him, my face reddening. He blushed then smiled at me endearingly.
"In that case..." he told me sweetly, and I found myself gasping as he threw me over his shoulder. My face flamed as he grabbed the large bag, casually swinging it with his free hand. Before I could answer, he did, "...all that's left is to ravage you!" and he sounded entirely pleased with the idea of it. That is, until he saw the look on my face when he deposited me onto our bed. He gently smoothed my hair back, smiling. "Hey, you can tell me no, I won't be disappointed. I know how vulnerable you must feel." I felt the tension that was in my body rush out as tears escaped my eyes and with a gentle exhale, that beautiful man pressed his lips to my forehead and told me, "I understand, Roxas. I'm here."
I hugged him, so hard that I wasn't sure how it didn't hurt and he let me for as long as I wanted to.
"I want to do this with you, Axel. I trust all of myself to you, with my whole heart for my whole life," I told him, praying he would believe me.
He pressed his lips to mine, whispering, "Alright, I believe you."
He opened the bag and I was surprised when he pulled out a beautiful silken robe with a dragon embroidered on it. It was black in color. He had a huge grin at the look on my face. "See! And you just thought I was some pervert..." he told me with a wink and I laughed despite myself. He gave me a Cheshire grin. "I want you to be comfortable if I'm going to tie you to the bed," he chuckled at my blush, "or, you know, if you want to lounge around the house or get out of the pool." I laughed despite myself.
"Oh I hope you have one too, for the utmost comfort," I told him teasingly. He grinned.
"Of course, baby," he purred softly. "The very best from your favorite place to import," he purred. "Want to try them on?" I was still laughing, despite myself.
"Okay," I told him with a smile. He pressed his lips to mine and told me in all seriousness,
"I expect you to be naked underneath." Snorting, I answered,
"You too." Smiling, he headed for the closet, only pausing to glace back and tell me,
"No peeking in my bag, Roxy." That's when it fully occurred to me that there was probably more in there. I chuckled and got changed. I was actually really impressed. It felt amazing. Like the epitome of comfort. I should have known by where it was from that it would be high quality. Just like any of the ingredients in Axel's necklace were. I flopped down on the bed and closed my eyes, trying to imagine how gorgeous he was going to look. It did nothing to prepare me for the real thing. I heard tsking and he playfully chided me "No sleeping allowed, baby." My eyes fell on him and I gasped despite myself. He was stunning. I sat up, shifting my body because I could feel myself getting aroused.
"How are you so beautiful," I whispered in awe. Axel blushed cutely and I swooned a bit. I watched every move he made as he approached me and pulled a box out of the bag. He opened it with a smile and I recognized them as the wrist and ankle bindings.
"If its too much at any time, just let me know. Okay?" he asked. I nodded with a small appreciative smile. His smile widened and he kissed me gently. "Roxas, anything I do to you tonight, you also have permission to do to me." I watched him affix the bindings to our bedframe, my heart pounding at the thought of using them on him as well. "Ready, darling?" Taking a deep breath, I laid down and let him bind my wrists and ankles. My last memory of doing anything like this was so traumatic that I was extremely grateful that he was being so cautious. They were extremely soft and comfortable. Once I was bound, he pressed his lips to mine in a deep kiss and purred, "I love you." My heart melted.
"I love you, Axel, I love you so much!" He smiled.
"I know, darling," he answered, "and I'm so proud of you for giving this a try." He untied the robe, letting it fall open around me and I could feel my heart pounding. Then he took out a bottle of something, poured a generous amount on his hands and… started massaging my entire body with it. "I know how scared you are," he told me soothingly. "I was with you when it happened, remember?" I flinched at the reminder. "Breathe, beautiful, I won't hurt you. You're only going to feel good things with me, okay?" I let out a shaky breath.
"Alright." He massaged away my tension, telling me,
"You are safe, you are loved, you are secure. I'm not going to judge you. No one can hurt you, I'm here," and I could feel myself relaxing and focusing on being here with him. Whatever he was using on me was making me feel good- hot and aroused. Very intentionally, he rubbed his thumbs across my nipples and I mewled in pleasure, squirming. He kissed me deeply, turning his attention to a more intimate area, massaging there with the oil and gliding his fingers inside me with ease until I felt like I was dripping wet and burning up to either take him or be taken. "The merchant said that his oil was also an aphrodisiac..." he told me, his gentle voice soothing me, "that appears to be true, you look very relaxed."
I chuckled invitingly, offering, "You're welcome to climb on top of me and find out." He smiled in response, pressing some sort of wand against my erection. I raised a brow. "No offense, but it doesn't really compare to you."
"Oh I just love your sass today," he replied with an amused chuckle, turning it on to its highest setting. I gasped, my body arching back and my mouth falling open. I was rapidly hardening. Even so, I watched him, eyeing the tenting fabric in front of me, moaning yearningly when I couldn't stand it anymore.
"I want you, I want you inside me. Please, Axel, I need it now," and he moaned eagerly, pulling the toy away and pressing it to my nipples instead as he straddled my hips and pressed our throbbing erections together. I moaned in ecstasy, stopped as I reached for him by my bindings and voiced my frustration. "Mmn-ah! Touch me!" I moaned and pleaded. He let go of the toy, both of his hands cupping my face instead, and he kissed me with such a passion that I was breathless. I squirmed against him, whimpering in relief as he pressed his body down against mine. "Mmn I swear I'll give you back everything and more if you don't get inside me in the next two minutes," I growled in agitation. His green eyes sparkled.
"Yes, very sassy," he purred. With a grin he arched his brows and purred, "Careful, I might like that." He bent close, pressing down and preventing me from moving. "Given that you can't move, I have a better idea." I scoffed at him darkly and he chuckled. "Wasn't there something else you wanted?" He pressed against me to intentionally grind his ass into the head of my erection. I groaned, clenching my fists and curling my toes. Mercifully he didn't stop, but I was biting my lower lip at how agonizingly slowly he was going. I didn't complain, knowing why. He was tight. We hadn't done this in a while. As a reward for my patience, he smiled down at me and squeezed around me deliciously. I gasped as he did it again and again until he as fully seated on my lap, trembling and shuddering just as much as I was. "I want you too," he purred back and his husky voice absolutely set me on fire. I wasn't sure how it could be possible to get any more aroused, but that's the effect he had on me. I moaned helplessly, moving as much as I could to slowly grind into him and make him feel good. His eyes fluttered and he hummed in pleasure, allowing it. I watched him shift and knew what he was doing as he shuddered around me, pulling me in as deeply as possible. "My love, I want to make you feel so good and completely at ease. So just be a little patient," he murmured to me, rolling his hips. I was trembling and sobbing as he continued to pour out his love and affection on me. It was absolutely satisfying, the way he showed me he cherished me. He moaned pleasurably, touching himself as he felt me pulsing inside him, squeezing around me each time and bringing me closer to the edge. He pressed his lips to mine, looking absolutely satisfied as I filled him. I shuddered. Pleasure was sweeping through me intensely and I couldn't stop crying out in pleasure. What I didn't expect was for him to free my legs while I was in this state, push them to my chest and enter me in a strong, smooth glide. I threw my head back, unable to breathe or coordinate my body to make it cooperate. His thrusts got more and more intentional and precise as he paid special attention to my prostate, reducing me to only being able to make small whimpers of pleasure, until with a satisfied moan, he came deep inside. I was trembling uncontrollably, just trying to breathe. His luscious lips covered mine and I moaned, forgetting how to all over again.
I hardly realized I was free until I realized that my arms were wrapped around him. I felt so good, like my whole body had been blanketed in comfort. I blinked, recognizing that I must have fallen asleep at some point. He was sleeping and at my mercy now, but I couldn't even do anything about it. I was completely exhausted. My body was too heavy to move properly.
I exhaled, making a satisfied but disgruntled noise. He rumbled softly beside me. "What was that?" he snorted softly, "Are you unsatisfied?" My whole body was on fire, just like that.
"I didn't know you were awake," I whispered back, horrified. He nuzzled against me.
"'m not…" he mumbled, "You're moving a lot." I fell silent and he sighed after a moment. Our eyes met. I swallowed, he looked sexy as hell in the moonlight. "Baby, if I have to ask if you're satisfied again, I'm going to make love to you," he told me. My face absolutely overheated.
"I am, I am!" I took a deep breath. "I'm just… so exhausted I can't move," I admitted. Axel smiled at me, absolutely pleased and awake now.
"Why would you need to move, my love? Were you hoping to take me by surprise?" I shrugged.
"It would only be fair." He chuckled a bit.
"Don't worry, there will be plenty of time for that," he answered. His lips descended to mine and I moaned in pleasure.
"I love you so much," I moaned between kisses. Smiling in satisfaction, he purred gently,
"How do you feel?"
"The way you wanted me to," I told him with a small smile. His lips continued to quirk up. I nuzzled into him as he pulled me close and rubbed his large, warm hands against my shoulders, relaxing me further. It felt so good, I thought I was going to die. I sighed softly. "You're really focused on this," I murmured absently.
"One of my only regrets is that I couldn't stop it from happening to you… but I'm so glad I can be someone who understands what you went through." I let myself surrender to his touches even more.
"I don't regret anything that brought me into your arms," I answered, "as long as you're here to help me heal, I'll be alright." I blinked in surprise when he held out his pinky to me. Smiling a little I clasped our pinkies together, shaking them. His hand fit in mine and I took a moment to admire his wedding ring. It sparkled and glistened brilliantly.
"Are you tired?" he murmured into my hair. I shook my head.
"Relaxed," I answered.
"Would you like to do anything?" I shook my head again.
"Just hold me, I don't want to be anywhere else." Tugging me closer, he wrapped his body around mine.
"I can do that, however long you'd like," he murmured in contentment. I settled against him comfortably.
"At least until breakfast," I answered, letting the sound of his beating heart lull be back to sleep.
xXx
I woke up first. Axel's arms were still around me. I turned, just watching him. It was rare to catch him still sleeping. I pressed my lips to his for a long moment and stroked his soft hair affectionately. He sighed softly, nuzzling against me. I continued to kiss him gently. He was sleeping so deeply. It was perfect. I couldn't waste this opportunity.
Humming gently I slid out of bed and went downstairs to make some coffee. When I was prepared, I set up across the room. The sun was starting to rise and it was absolutely perfect for me to immerse myself in my own world. I smiled at him affectionately, finishing my sketch before mixing some paint, bringing the canvas to life I paused mid-stroke when he finally stirred some time later.
"Wait. Don't move yet." Axel stilled for a few moments, waking up and making himself aware of his surroundings. Another moment passed and he spoke.
"Hmm, I thought for sure you would have captured me." I smiled at him, teasing the tip of my paintbrush against my lips.
"How do you know I didn't?" I teased, from my spot at my art station. He opened his eyes, blinking at me. My hands curled around a warm mug of coffee. My eyes flicked back and forth between the real thing and the image on canvas. My lips curved up in satisfaction and I sipped at my drink before swishing my paint brush in warm rinse water.
"You're… painting..." he murmured back with a small, delighted smile. I rolled my shoulders, glancing at the beauty on the canvas.
"You've been teasing my creativity since we got here… I couldn't help myself." He chuckled, shaking his head as he rolled onto his back.
"Me? Really?" I exhaled softly, rising and going to him. I set my mug down on a nearby table before sitting on the bed beside him, cross legged.
"I think you're really inspiring… and I'm really attracted to you. You've always been my muse." He blinked at me.
"You really… painted me?" I smiled a bit.
"Wanna see?" He blushed.
"Can I?"
"Sure, come on," I urged gently.
"Oh wow," he murmured, his cheeks flushing warmly, I smiled up at him.
"Like it?" Nodding, he purred,
"I do." I beamed up at him.
"Are you hungry? I've only made coffee so far but if you're interested, maybe we could make breakfast together?" Axel smiled warmly.
"I'd like that," he answered. I smiled back.
"One sec, okay?" His green eyes glittered in interest and he watched me scoop up my supplies.
"Do you want help with that?" he asked. I glanced up at him, my smile stretching.
"I won't say no," I answered appreciatively. We rinsed out the brushes and cleaned the supplies in warm soapy water, discussing what we'd have to eat. Apparently Axel had been sneaky in the weeks before bringing me here and had ensured that everything was in order. Even stocking the fridge with food. As my painting supplies dried on the counter, we set about cooking. "I am curious about something," I murmured to him. Axel hummed softly as I cracked open eggs. "If we're only staying here for a few days… Why did you get so much food?"
"I wanted to ask you if you would like to stay here by yourself for a while," he answered. I froze. That had been one of my complaints. That I'd never had the opportunity to be alone or to live without him.
"What?" I asked, the word coming out as a gasp. His hands found my hips and his lips found my neck.
"You don't have to decide right now but… I know its something you said you wanted and you seem to feel relaxed here. So If its something you would want, I would only be a phone call away." My heart was pounding. What a beautifully terrifying thought.
"But if you go back home… it took hours to get here and..." my eyes fluttered as he pulled me to himself and kissed the top of my head.
"Actually, I have some business to tend to in Destiny Islands..." He murmured back, "So I wouldn't be far away at all." My heart was pounding and I turned around in his arms to ask him seriously,
"That would really be okay?" He gave me a small smile.
"Its something you need," he answered. I could tell that he didn't like it but he was still being open to doing it. I held his hands in mine.
"Thank you, Axel." He blinked down at me before smiling warmly.
"Of course, Roxas. Your happiness is very important to me." He pressed his forehead to mine, exhaling gently. "You deserve to be happy, don't you agree?" I kissed him gently.
"If its okay… let me think about it. I really appreciate your thoughtfulness. So… let me make breakfast and consider it. Go relax and enjoy yourself, alright?" He nodded.
"Okay, sure. I'll be outside if you need me." I watched him disappear and then turned my attention back to cooking, stirring the food absently. Stay here… by myself...I hummed softly. What would I do with myself all day? Maybe he would bring Cinder here? But I hated to inconvenience him if he wasn't planning on going back. I continued pondering for several moments more before I realized I had forgotten to turn the oven on. I groaned in embarrassment. Was I really suited for taking care of myself, let alone our adorable little baby, by myself? But still… this was the first time Axel had given me an opportunity like this. That I could remember. What if he decided to change his mind if I didn't take this opportunity now? I bit my lip. Would I ever get over the regret of not taking my chance. I sighed softly, putting the food onto plates and leaving the pan on the oven to cool. I remembered to click off the heating element. Axel definitely wouldn't let me be staying here alone if I started a fire. I turned, looking for him. Where had he gone? I padded out to the patio outside. It was a gorgeous, sunny day. Soft splashing sounds drew my gaze to the pool. My face heated as I realized that he was doing laps. Absolutely naked. I chuckled absently, wondering why I was even surprised. That little tease had been provoking me with his sexiness ever since he tied me up last night. Well. Two could play that game. I stealthily went to the pool, sliding my robe off and eased my legs into the water as I sat on the edge, relaxing and waiting for him to notice me. It took a little while but when our eyes met, I didn't expect him do look quite so pleased. I had expected him to be startled or embarrassed… but he simply looked extremely attractive as he gazed at me, openly pleased.
"Well, well, here you are. Trying to catch me off guard, baby?" He murmured, coming to the edge and gazing up into my eyes, a mischievous smile lighting his eyes.
"Is that even possible?" I teased. He chuckled a bit.
"Rarely," he purred back, his eyes glimmering. "What are you doing, baby?" I shrugged and thought about it for a moment.
"Enjoying the pool," I mused.
"How's the view?" I smiled.
"Especially satisfying because you're in there," I answered. Without missing a beat, he said,
"Oh? But do you know what would make it really enjoyable?" I hummed softly. "If you decided to join me." My heart fluttered gently. How could I refuse such a sweet request. I kept my eyes locked with his as I eased myself into the water. "Mhm," he purred, pressing his lips to mine, "even better than I thought."
"I'm a bit surprised, since you don't enjoy getting wet." Axel smiled a bit.
"...but its such a good workout." I snorted a bit at his rebuttal. I had a feeling there was a bit more to it than that. He chuckled, "Oh you're getting so good at catching me," he admitted, "but I'm gonna make you figure it out on your own," he teased. I pouted at him adorably. His heart did not melt, and chuckling he swam away from me.
It wasn't until we had been lounging at the other end of the pool, gazing out at the ocean and just chatting, that I remembered that we had food to eat. He was genuinely amused by my memory issues and I found myself pouting at him again. He watched me, beaming softly. "I'm happy that you're enjoying spending time with me," he admitted. "Let's go eat." I nodded, following his lead, each of us putting on our robe. He had been right. It was very convenient to have after going for a swim. He seemed to enjoy the food, and when we were done, he beckoned me softly, to sit in the living room. I settled into his arms when he gestured me to. He stroked my damp hair gently, finally asking, "What did you decide?"
"You'll just be at Destiny Islands?" Axel hummed in affirmation. "But you'll be really busy huh?"
"Pretty busy yeah, but I'll make time for you. You know that," he answered. I looked up into his eyes. They were full of sincerity. How did I get so lucky?
"I just think that… I'll miss you," I admitted. He smiled thoughtfully.
"Well… I want to respect your time by yourself Roxas… but how about this? We could have dinner together once a week," he suggested. I shook my head.
"Twice a week!" Axel chuckled a bit.
"Okay."
"And if I miss you too much I want you to visit." Nodding, he asked,
"Anything else?"
"Can I… Can I have Cinder?" I asked quietly. Axel kissed the top of my head.
"Of course baby," he murmured. He held me for a long moment before speaking again. "Roxas..." I tensed, wondering if I was in trouble.
"Yeah?"
"I don't want you to feel bad if you don't call me. Don't feel bad about taking time for yourself. Alright?" I pouted up at him and he blinked in surprise.
"I at least want to hear your voice. Every day." He kissed me gently, looking overjoyed beyond words.
"Alright," he murmured back.
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