Hey guys, I started writing this story around this summer and already have up to twenty chapters waiting to be published..
I just want to thank you all for reading, favoriting and following it!
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I hope you all are enjoying it so far, coming chapters Britt will open up and let Santana in.
Let me know what you think.
''Is she safe?''
After Naya reasured Santana that Brittany is indeed safe and that the people who want to harm her live in New York, they quickly dropped the serious talk and decided to enjoy dinner with Naya's parents, siblings and the two little ones.
After dinner Brittany helps Yolanda with the dishes and looks down as she feels a little hand tug on her jeans, she smiles lovingly as she looks into her sons big blue eyes and raises an eyebrow. ''I know that look, what do you want baby boy?'' She asks in amusement seeing the small pout on his face.
Liam giggles wrapping his little arms around her leg and leans his chin against her thigh. ''Can Sofia and I have a sleepover here with aunt Nick and uncle Mychal?''
Brittany glances at Yolanda chuckling as she sees her biting back a smile and turns back to her son. ''Well I can't say yes for Sofia, you have to ask Santana if she can but did you ask Abuela if it's okay? Aunt Nick and uncle Mychal don't live here sweetie and we don't know if Abuela and Abuelo have any plans for tonight.''
She laughs softly as he immediately twirls around her crashing into Yolanda's legs and shakes her head, she nudges her softly and winks as she turns to look at her after picking him up. ''I can do it alone ma, go sit with the Fam and enjoy a glass of wine.''
''You sure?'' Yolanda asks softly, Brittany nods her head nudging her away from the sink and rinses the plate she just scrubbed humming a soft tune as she hears her walk out of the kitchen while Liam sweetly asks her if they can have a sleepover.
''Well it looks like we have a child free night.'' Santana murmurs as she walks up to her, she smiles sheepishly as she sees Brittany jump and gently places her hand on the small of her back. ''Shit sorry, I didn't want to scare you.''
''It's okay.'' Brittany murmurs softly covering her heart with her soapy hand, she shakes her head as she tries to apologize again and turns her head to look at her shooting her a small smile. ''Really San I was just thinking too much, will Sofia stay here too?''
Santana hums taking the last plate from her and dries it with the towel in her hands. ''Yeah she wants to play with Liam and always loves to have a sleepover with Nick and Mychal.''
''Any plans for the child free night?'' Brittany asks as she drains the sink drying her hands on the towel Santana holds out for her, Santana shakes her head and smiles slightly.
''Nah probably just watching some trash TV and enjoying a glass of wine.'' She turns to look at her and smiles slightly. ''What about you?''
''I um.'' Brittany sighs nervously looking down at her hands braced on the sink and bites her lip. ''You up for a bit of company for a few hours?'' She asks slowly, she turns her head to look at her and nervously bites her lip. ''I think I have a few things to explain.''
''You don't have to do anything Britt.'' Santana tells her softly, she locks eyes with her and smiles. ''But I will never say no to your company.''
''When do you want to go?'' Brittany asks softly after glancing at the time.
''Hey girls now that the both of you are child free for the night, you up for grabbing a few drinks?'' Heather asks walking into the kitchen with Naya, Brittany turns to them smiling slightly as she hears Sofia yell for her mami and leans back against the kitchen counter as she walks out of the kitchen after excusing herself.
''Can we take a rain check on going out for drinks?'' She asks locking eyes with her cousin and Naya, Heather raises an eyebrow tiling her head and smirks.
''Why?''
''I think I have a few things to tell her Heath, I dropped some major bombs and as patient as she is I think it's time to let her in.'' Brittany whispers as they walk closer to her, Naya locks eyes with her and smiles slightly.
''What made you change your mind B?'' She chuckles softly as she sees the light blush creep on her face and hums. ''Does this have anything to do with you also feeling sure enough to be yourself around her and Sofia?''
Brittany slowly nods her head and sighs deeply. ''I seriously don't know what's going on girls but the only thing I am one hundred percent sure of is that she will still be where she is after everything I told her, she never pushed me to talk but now after almost three months I think it's time.''
''I think you know what's going on Cuz, you are just not allowing it to happen.'' Heather mutters softly leaning against the sink right beside her, Naya nods her head in agreement and sighs.
''Yeah same goes for Santana, she knows damn well what's going on too but is also fighting against it because of what happened.''
''What happened?'' Brittany asks frowning in confusion, Santana walks in before they can reply and clears her throat.
''I think I will tell you that later too.'' She promises, she turns to the two girls leaned against the sink beside her and smirks. ''Rain check on drinks?''
Heather and Naya both nod their heads and chuckle. ''Yeah no problem girls.'' Naya tells them with a small smile, Heather nods her head in agreement turning her head to look at the time and smiles.
''You girls go have fun, you want to join our gleek night tomorrow with the cast?''
Brittany nods her head and smiles slightly. ''I'm in.''
''Yeah count me in too.'' Santana replies with a big smile.
''Mami!''
''Mommy!'' Sofia and Liam squeal sprinting into the kitchen giggling loudly, Brittany winces as her son crashes against her legs and looks down at him laughing softly as she hears Nick and Mychal roar loudly.
''Did the tigers escape once again?'' She laughs as he nods his head squeaking as Nickayla and Mychal jog into the kitchen roaring and scoops her little boy up in her arms, Liam hides his face in her neck and giggles.
''They crazy.''
''Mh they really are baby boy.'' Brittany murmurs amused, she kisses his head and smiles lovingly. ''Are you ready for the Disney night?''
She smiles as he nods his head and rubs his back, she crouches down with him in her arms and places him down in front of her. ''You can ask aunt Nick or uncle Mych to call me if you want me here okay?'' She asks softly so only he can hear her, Liam nods his head wrapping his little arms around her shoulders and smiles cutely.
''I know mommy but I know that Aunt Nick, uncle Mych, Abuela and Abuelo will chase the bad dreams away too.''
''They sure will baby.'' Brittany murmurs softly, she pulls him closer hearing Santana say good night to Sofia and kisses his forehead. ''Have fun baby boy, we will go to the park tomorrow alright?''
''With Sofia and Sanny?'' Liam asks with a bright smile, Brittany chuckles glancing up at the two in question and smiles as Santana just shrugs and Sofia nods her head with a big smile.
''Yeah I think they will join us baby boy, tomorrow night we will have a glee night with aunt HeMo, Nay and the cast.''
''To watch the new episode?'' Liam asks with a bright smile.
''Yeah, snacks, friends and the new episode sweetie.'' Naya tells him with a big smile, she walks over to them scooping him up in her arms and blows a raspberry on his cheek smiling as he giggles. ''But tonight it's Disney time with Abuela, Abuelo, Tio and Tia.''
Brittany hums in agreement standing back up and ruffles her sons hair. ''Yeah Sanny and I will go now too.''
Liam nods his head leaning over Naya's shoulder to kiss his moms cheek and giggles as she tickles him. ''Good night mommy, I love you.''
''I love you too baby.'' Brittany murmurs softly against his forehead, she smiles as Naya places him down and crouches down to hug Sofia as she walks over to hug her. ''Have fun Sof, see you tomorrow?''
Sofia nods her head with a big smile and giggles. ''Tomorrow at the park Britty!''
Brittany smiles nodding her head in agreement and runs her hand through her dark locks. ''Tomorrow at the park sweetie.'' She agrees with a loving smile, she slowly stands back up as Mychal scoops her up in his arms and turns to Santana. ''Ready to go?''
She hugs the Lopez family and her cousin as soon as Santana nods her head and takes her jacket Heather holds out for her, after slipping her jacket on and hugging her son once again she walks out of the house saying good night to everyone and smiles as Santana unlocks her car.
Half an hour later.
After thirty minutes Santana parks her car in her garage beside the house and turns to Brittany noticing her lost in her thoughts. ''Britt-Britt?'' She asks softly, she smiles slightly as she just hums and reaches out to squeeze her leg. ''We are here.''
Brittany shakes her head trying to get rid of her thoughts and turns to look at Santana. ''Sorry.''
Santana shakes her head and smiles reassuringly. ''No need, want to go in?''
Brittany hums sliding out of the car after taking her seat belt of and follows Santana into the house after she locked her car, Santana walks into her kitchen and turns to look at the blonde walking closely behind her. ''Do you want to drink something?''
''Do you have beer?'' Brittany asks softly. ''I think I need some kind of buzz to really open up.''
Santana hums reaching into the fridge and grabs a bottle of beer, she grabs her favorite white wine and reaches into the cabinet beside the fridge for a wine glass knowing the both of them will need a bit of alcohol. ''Here, backyard or living room?''
Brittany glances outside into the backyard and smiles slightly as she sees the beautiful patio overlooking a small garden with pool and a play set. ''Backyard.''
Santana nods her head walking to the door leading to her backyard and unlocks it, she walks out carrying both of their drinks and walks over to the bank she placed against the patio where she sits and works whenever her daughter is playing outside.
''It's beautiful here.'' Brittany murmurs softly as she sits down next to her looking around the backyard, Santana holds out the bottle of beer for her and smiles slightly.
''Yeah I just love sitting here with a bit of work while Sof plays, I can give you a tour inside first if you like.''
Brittany shakes her head playing with the label on her bottle and forces a small smile. ''Maybe later.''
Santana nods her head taking a sip of her wine and turns her body so she is completely facing Brittany, she tilts her head as she sees the worry in her eyes and reaches out slowly grabbing her hand. ''You know that you don't have to tell me anything right? I am not forcing you to open up Britt-Britt, so please don't force yourself either.''
''I am not.'' Brittany reassures softly. ''I just don't know where to start.''
Santana squeezes her hand softly and takes a sip of her wine. ''I know we are way too old for this, but what about a round of 21 questions?''
Brittany laughs softly and shrugs. ''I think you never had a night out with HeMo, Nay and the cast, Mark always wants to play that shit.''
''Yeah tomorrow will be the first time that I am joining them.'' Santana confesses with a chuckle, she takes another sip of her wine and places her glass on the table. ''Alright let's start, what is something you always wanted to try but you never have?''
''Food or entertainment?'' Brittany asks chuckling, Santana shrugs her shoulders and smiley.
''Both?''
''Fondue and go to a drive in cinema.''
''You never did that?'' Santana asks shocked, Brittany shakes her head and smiles sadly.
''No not really, I never found the time.'' She runs a hand through her hair and sighs. ''If you could tell your younger self one thing, what would that be?''
''Never change yourself for anyone and don't always believe someone you think you can trust.'' Santana sighs softly as she sees the confusion on Brittany's face and smiles sadly. ''Sof's mom is a bitch and that relationship definitely made me change a lot of things.''
''Like what?'' Brittany asks curiously, Santana bites her lip reaching forward to grab her wine glass and shrugs.
''Before I met her I wasn't this closed off.'' She starts after taking a sip. ''I was quite cheerful and trusted easily, she used that and well she only used it in her favor and almost made me give up everything I build up for myself.''
Brittany blinks slowly and frowns. ''You what?''
''Yeah she almost made me quit my job and shit, she controlled me and didn't allow me to hang out with any of my models or friends.''
''What? Why the hell would someone do that?'' Brittany asks shocked, Santana shrugs her shoulders and sighs.
''Someone who was scared to lose the money she was in a relationship with.''
''So she was only together with you for the money?''
''Yep.'' Santana murmurs sighing. ''I noticed it far too late and as much as I would like to say that I regret meeting her and breaking the rule I set in the very beginning of my career I don't regret my life and definitely will never regret my little girl.''
''You can still regret your relationship with her.'' Brittany states softly. ''Believe me, I regret dating his father but I will never ever regret my little boy.'' She turns around locking eyes with Santana and tilts her head. ''What rule did you break?''
''Dating one of my models, it's a rule I set up for myself in the very beginning and she made me break it and well look how that worked out.''
''Well yeah but not everyone is like her you know?''
''I know but still.''
''Do you have that rule again?'' Brittany asks curiously.
''Yes, no, kinda?''
Brittany raises an eyebrow and laughs. ''Well that are three possible answers San, which one is it?''
Santana rolls her eyes hitting her arm softly and chuckles. ''Shut up Pierce.''
Brittany laughs catching her hand before she hits her again and raises an eyebrow. ''That's no answer Lopez, so do you?''
''Do I what?'' Santana asks acting like she forgot what they were talking about, Brittany rolls her eyes and chuckles.
''Do you have the rule again?'' She asks, Santana bites her lip and shrugs.
''Kinda, someone makes me want to break that tho.''
Brittany gulps taking a sip of her beer and sighs. ''I understand where you are coming from, I wished that I had set up that rule even if it meant never dating someone going to the same high school and someone being a family friend.''
''Why?''
''My ex is my dads best friends son and we went to the same high school, I started dating him even though I wasn't really sure about my sexuality and well that was my first relationship and it definitely damaged me for life.''
''Why?'' Santana asks again frowning in concern as she sees Brittany tense.
''Bastard was or still is an abusive piece of shit, I broke up with him during our last year but having a child with him and his dad threatening me to take away my son the second I left his son made me stay with him and endure years of pain to stay with my boy.''
''He what?'' Santana asks shocked, Brittany runs a hand through her hair and sighs.
''His dad is a big shot lawyer and threatened to take Li away the second I would even think about leaving his son, he knew what I had to go through but still forced me to stay in that relationship knowing his son would never find someone else and well my parents kinda agreed with him because they all work at the same firm and my dad lives for his job and my mom loves the money he earns.''
''How did you get out?'' Santana asks softly, Brittany bites her lip and gulps.
''Thanks to Nay and Heath or well mostly Nay, she hired a bunch of lawyers here in LA to fly down and fight with me, it took about eight months and a hell of a lot of abuse but I got out and Li well Heath made sure he didn't really notice what happened.''
''Did he ever hurt..''
''No never.'' Brittany forces out fighting the flashbacks while playing with the label on her beer bottle. ''He never spend any time with Li and was out and about the whole day with god knows who, he came home after I put Li down for the night and that is when everything happened.''
She takes a sip of her beer and picks her nails a nervous habit she has. ''The house we lived in was completely soundproofed so Li never heard a thing, but he noticed the bruises and that triggered nightmares so bad that he was afraid to sleep without me which triggered my ex even more.''
''How long did that go on?'' Santana asks softly reaching out to still her hands.
''We started dating when I was fourteen and he was sixteen, we just managed to get out a few months ago so want to do the count yourself?''
''Damn B.'' Santana murmurs softly. ''What made you decide to move here?'' She asks, her eyebrows raise in surprise as she notices the sudden tremble in her hands and turns her body so she is completely facing her once again. ''What happened?'' she asks softly.
Brittany gulps trying to pull her shaking hands out of Santana's grip and shakes her head. ''I don…'' She gulps thickly feeling her thumb run over the back of her hand and slowly looks up at her tears filling her blue orbs. ''I can't San.''
''What are you afraid of Britt-Britt?'' Santana asks softly, she scoots closer as she sees the tears run down her cheeks and pulls her in a hug. ''What happened Hermosa?'' She asks as she runs her hand down her back feeling the soft tremble coursing through her body.
Brittany gulps thickly dropping her head on Santana's shoulder and sniffles. ''Him kicking me into the hospital and the thought of leaving my son with him made me beg Nay to help me.'' She forces out through a sob.
Santana freezes her eyes widening in shock and gasps softly. ''He what?!''
Brittany jumps as soon as she raises her voice and quickly pulls back her eyes slamming close in fear. ''Please don't yell.'' She whispers her voice shaking, Santana bites her lip and sighs slowly reaching out to grab her hands.
''Sorry.'' She whispers softly. ''What do you mean him kicking you into the hospital?''
''Just what I said.'' Brittany murmurs softly. ''He got mad because I talked to a neighbor and attacked me the second we entered the house accusing me of cheating and telling me that he thinks that Liam isn't his, he called me a bunch of names and threw me through the glass door leading to our balcony.''
Brittany sits up shrugging off her jacket and exhales shakily, she shoves the straps of her tank top and bra down exposing her right shoulder and slowly grabs Santana's hand in her own. She turns her head locking eyes on brown orbs filled with anger knowing it's not directed at her and slowly places her hand on her shoulder blade allowing her to feel the scarred skin beneath the expensive make up she applies every morning.
Santana gasps softly the second she feels the rough skin underneath her fingertips and slowly trails her fingers over it. ''Fuck Britt-Britt.'' She breaths out.
Brittany gulps tears filling her eyes the second she feels her gently caressing her shoulder and bites her lip. ''The doctors told me that I got lucky that my neighbor heard the crash and called the cops immediately, Li was with a friend from kindergarten that day and after HeMo heard what happened she and Nay immediately flew in and Heath flew back with him to take him far away from New York as fast as possible while Nay called in her lawyers and stayed with me until I was allowed to leave the hospital.''
''How long did you..''
''A week and a half.'' Brittany replies cutting her question off once again. ''Nay crashed in the hospital room with me because I was unconscious for two days and they only found out because HeMo is my emergency contact, Nay used her status and made sure cops stood in front of my room so no one was allowed to enter unless it was my doctor, the nurses or her lawyers.''
''Fucking hell.'' Santana breaths out in shock. ''Are you really safe here?'' She asks softly in concern.
Brittany slowly nods her head and bites her lip. ''I am as long as I don't go to NY, they don't know where I am or well they might do because it's quite obvious that I would be moving closer to the only family member who ever gave a fuck about me but as soon as they are here Li will be safe with Mychal, Nick or with Nay, Heath and their bodyguards.''
''And you?'' Santana asks concerned, Brittany shrugs her shoulders and sighs.
''I really don't care as long as my little boy is safe.''
''Yeah, no please don't say that.'' Santana murmurs softly. ''I want you to be safe too Britt-Britt, if you ever hear about them being in the city please come to me or go with Liam.''
''I can't go with him that will only put him in danger the second they find out where I am and I sure as hell won't pull you…'' Santana shakes her head reaching up to cover her mouth with her and cups her cheek with her free hand turning her head so she can gaze in her eyes.
''I don't care what the hell you are pulling me into, if that happens and Li is safe I want you to call me and come here.''
''But Sof.'' Brittany murmurs inaudible trying to shake Santana's hand off seeing the concern in brown orbs, Santana smiles slightly slowly dropping her hand and sighs.
''Sof will be safe, she won't be here and will probably join Li.'' She pulls Brittany closer still cupping her cheek and smiles sadly. ''I can't imagine what you went through and how you feel not knowing what the hell will happen, but you are not alone Britt-Britt and the kids will be safe.'' She pulls her in a hug slowly kissing her cheek and sighs. ''We will make sure nothing will happen, but please promise me to call for help and to not do this on your own''
Brittany slowly nods her head and gulps trying to ignore the fluttering in her stomach. ''I promise.''
''Good.'' Santana murmurs with a small smile as she pulls out of the hug, she grabs her wine glass and leans back looking at her with a small smile. ''If you ever break that promise I will find the worst assignment and will let you do it with Sizes.''
''You will never!'' Brittany gasps out knowing Sizes only does oil boxing shoots, she shakes her head laughing as she sees the small smirk pulling at Santana's lips and reaches out to push her softly. ''You are so damn evil Lopez.''
''Oh you have seen nothing yet Pierce.'' Santana quips snickering, she swats her hand away and shakes her head. ''Now stop pushing me.''
''Make me.'' Brittany chuckles pushing her once again, Santana raises her eyebrows quickly placing her glass back down and grabs both of her hands swiftly pulling her closer. She laughs as she sees the shock on her face and smirks.
''Not so cool now huh?''
Brittany raises an eyebrow and snickers trying to ignore their closeness. ''Where the hell do you hide that strength in your little body?''
''Did you just call me little?'' Santana asks frowning, Brittany hums and smirks.
''Well yeah, you are almost a head smaller San.''
''Not everyone is a damn giant.'' Santana quips with a small smirk.
''Well no but I love a pocket size person.''
''Oh you did not just say that.'' Santana exclaims laughing, she swiftly pushes Brittany down leaning up on her knees and runs her fingers up her sides knowing just how ticklish she is.
''Fuck, no San!'' Brittany squeaks out laughing loudly as she tries to squirm out of her way, Santana snickers digging her fingers into her ribs and moves over straddling her legs as she tries to push her away with her knees.
''Take that back.'' She tells her laughing, Brittany shakes her head laughing loudly and tries to buck her off.
''Hell no!'' She laughs louder as she continues tickling her and tries to buck her off once again, Santana yelps as she manages to buck her off both completely forgetting that they are sitting on a bank and quickly reaches out trying to grab her shoulder to avoid falling on the grass.
Brittany squeals not expecting the move and yelps as she lands on top of Santana both groaning at the impact. ''Ow fuck.'' She groans softly feeling Santana's knee dig in her abdomen, she quickly leans up on her hands looking down at Santana as she hears her soft groan in pain and bites back a chuckle. ''You okay?''
''Remind me to never do that again.'' Santana groans softly rubbing her elbow, Brittany laughs and shrugs.
''You started it.''
''Shut up.''
''Yeah, no.'' Brittany sits up digging her fingers in her ribs and smirks. ''Not so funny now huh?'' She asks in amusement as Santana burst out laughing, Santana shakes her head quickly grabbing her hands and pulls her down.
''Oh no, you won't turn the tables Britt-Britt.''
Brittany quickly braces the fall with her hand barely avoiding crashing fully on top of Santana and tilts her head down to look at her with a smirk. ''And why wouldn't I? You think I love getting tickled?''
''Well you did laugh.'' Santana quips with a smirk as she gazes into bright blue orbs filled with amusement, she laughs as she rolls her eyes and softly pinches her sides as her hands come up to hold here right where she is. ''Don't get all sassy on me now.''
''You continuously roll your eyes, don't call me sassy while being the queen of sass yourself.'' Brittany tells her amused, Santana shakes her head chuckling softly and shifts beneath her slowly noticing their position.
Brittany tilts her head noticing the slight shift in Santana's behavior knowing exactly what she is thinking and raises an eyebrow as they lock eyes quickly putting everything they just talked about behind her. ''Are we still playing?'' She asks softly.
Santana shrugs her shoulders and nervously bites her lip as soon as she notices an unfamiliar glint in her bright blue eyes. ''Don't know why?''
''What are you thinking?'' Brittany asks softly knowing her mind is racing, Santana tilts her head back gazing up into bright blue orbs and swallows thickly.
''How badly I would like to break my own rule again.'' She confesses softly, she gulps thickly as Brittany leans in closer and slowly plants her hands on her hips to keep her still. ''You have so…''
''No, no.'' Brittany murmurs gently cutting her off. ''Don't only talk about me, what are you feeling San?''
''I do have to talk about you because you are the one with so much going on Britt-Britt, I don't want to add this stress right on top of that because what is happening now can go right or it can go wrong really, really fast.'' Santana states sighing softly. ''Been there, done that and I cherish our friendship too much that I am not ready to risk that just because my feelings are changing.''
''You are thinking way too much.'' Brittany tells her smiling sadly.
''Am I? Or am I just being a bit too realistic? You already have a hell of a lot fucked up things to work through Britt-Britt, we both have our little ones who are each others best friends and I love how our friendship progresses. I really don…''
Brittany cuts her off with a finger on her lips and slowly raises an eyebrow as conflicted brown orbs lock back on her own. ''Don't only think about me San, tell me what you feel.'' She taps her heart with her free hand and sighs. ''Tell me what that little thumping thingy right inside of you wants you to do, everyone thinks head goes over heart but the heart wants what it wants and there is no denying it because in the end fighting against it will only hurt you.''
She slowly cups her cheek and sighs. ''You really don't think I felt the change in our friendship or that Q and Nick are that obvious? We don't talk, we flirt San and we do that since the very beginning. Ever since we met I felt this strange pull towards you and it only intensified even though I harbored some major secrets, you never asked and allowed me to stay so cryptic but I knew you were curious as fuck.'' She braces her free hand beside her head as she feels her abs protest at the strained of keeping her up and smiles sadly. ''We both have a fucked up past but I am done letting it ruin my future and we may not know what the future brings, but do you want our past to overshadow a possible amazing future?''
Santana bites her lip slowly shaking her head as she realizes what Brittany tries to tell her without actually saying it out loud and softly squeezes her hips. ''Next question.'' She states softly.
Brittany tilts her head in confusion and raises an eyebrow. ''Shoot.''
Santana takes a deep breath her hands slowly sliding up her sides and smiles nervously. ''Can I kiss you?''