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I heard a knock on the door and just as soon as it had finished Jesse dematerialised.
"Hey, Suze are you awake?" Andy. What a moment ruiner.
"Yeah, you can come in if you want." I quickly got back under the covers of my bed.
"I brought you a sandwich." Andy handed me a tray with a plate on it. Wholegrain bread. Andy has always been the fancy type. Ever since I've been here I don't think I've eaten any takeaways!
"Thanks, Andy. It looks good"
"Ok then. Let me know if you need anything else alright?" He really is nice. It's good to see he makes my mum happy.
"Yeah, I think what I need right now is more sleep." Especially after the events that have taken place the last 48 hours. I chuckled at this thought. So did Andy (although I think he would have chuckled at my needing more sleep) as he was shutting the door.
After all of that, I really did fall asleep. I awoke to the sound of the phone ringing.
Doc opened the door and poked his head around. "It's for you."
"Hello"
"Hiya. You weren't at school today." A chirpy voice queried on the other end. It was Cee Cee.
"Oh hi Cee Cee. Yeah, I wasn't feeling too well when I woke up this morning"
"Hard night was it?" She laughed.
"More than you could ever believe." What? It was true.
"Well are you feeling better now? Adam and I were going to get coffee and we wanted you to come"
" Um, I think I'll pass today. Thanks for the offer though." I rang off.
I walked back to my room, where Jesse had re-materialised.
"You- you gave me a fright." My heart was beating three times it's normal rate and somehow I don't think it was just because Jesse had given me a fright.
"Sorry Querida, I didn't mean to. Are you feeling better." He looked generally concerned.
"Yes, thank-you. I don't feel as tired as I did a couple of hours ago." He is so sweet. I plopped down on my bed.
"What happened with the shrieking woman last night?" Oh God. Why did he have to bring that night up? It was one of the most wonderful, yet painful nights of my life.
"Uh,' I sighed 'she said she wasn't talking about Red Beaumont."
"Well, what are you to do now?" He raised the eyebrow with the scar on it.
"I don't know. I mean, I went through so much just to find out the guy I thought she was talking about is a nut job and"
"Nut job?" Jesse looked puzzled. Sometimes I forget that he is about 150 years old.
"Crazy. The man thinks he's a vampire"
"Ahh, I see. I shall have to write that one down for future reference." He smiled. He has such a gorgeous smile. With those eyes and that smile, I could melt for eternity.
"Are you alright Susannah?" I pulled out of my daydream/
"Pardon. Oh I'm fine, just daydreaming." I said, still half absent.
A minute later I got up and went to sit down in front of my mirror and started to brush my hair. It was really knotty because I hadn't brushed last night before I went to bed.
I groaned. "This is such a pain in the bum, I wish I could just cut it all off, but then I'd be bald"
"Don't cut it off Querida, it's beautiful." Honestly, it's no wonder I may be falling in love with the guy. He's good looking AND sweet and he's dead Susannah, the little voice inside my head keeps saying. That just made me mad.
"Jesse. I think you should leave for now. I can't deal with this"
"Susannah-"
"No Jesse just leave"
"Talk to me Susannah"
"You want me to talk? You want me to talk,' I started to raise my voice, but at the same time it went squeaky. ' Do you have any idea how hard this is for me Jesse, do you"
"What are you talking about?" The sun shone through the window and showed the expression of surprise written all over her face.
"I'm talking about every time I look at you my heart starts beating overtime and then the little voice inside my head says 'he's a ghost Susannah' and it makes me mad because I can't get to close to you because I'm the one who's meant to help you leave this place," Tears started to stream down my face. I hate crying.
Jesse walked over to me and wiped one of my tears away.
"Don't" I flinched away from his touch. I couldn't help it, he still made me so mad, but it's not his fault he's dead.
"Jesse. I'm so sorry. I didn't to I just"
"It's alright Querida"
"No Jesse, it's not. I just spazzed at you for being dead and it's not even your fault." More tears washed down my face.
"Susannah, I don't even know what spazzed is and it's ok to be angry I should not have done what I did and I know that now. It's not your fault, but we can't take that moment back now"
"Jesse spazzed means to flip out, you know start yelling and raising my voice and get angry and it's not ok to be angry,' I realised I was rambling now, but I didn't care. 'and yes you shouldn't have done that, but neither should I have"
"Susannah. Breathe. You need to calm down. It's going to be ok. We will work something out." He handed me a tissue.
"Thanks,' I sniffed. 'I'm gunna go clean myself up now. It's about time for tea. Don't go anywhere. I want you here when I come back.
Well that was definitely longer than my last 2 chapters and I hope to keep them that way. Enjoy and please keep reviewing!
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