Authors note: Hey thanks for the reviews and I'm glad there's people reading still. Ok people keep telling me that the wasting is spelled wrong and I am so sorry I haven't been paying much attention. This story is almost over and you'll never believe how it ends With only a 1chapter left things take a turn for the worst this is the 2nd to last chapter before the shocking last chapter see what happens.

Disclaimer: I own nothing except the story The Song is called Sand and Water

Chapter 12: Sad Goodbyes and Eulogies

When she finished her song she got up and walked out to see everyone in the lobby looking at the TV with sad expressions she was confused then Tommy came up to Jude and started crying telling her he was sorry she didn't understand until she looked at the TV's big headline story Plane Crash Killed Passengers. She stared at Tommy not fully taking in what she just saw she couldn't believe it she wouldn't allow herself to. "No it's a mistake they're wrong maybe it wasn't his flight maybe he didn't get on board. No this isn't happening." Jude was hysterical she kept saying no and not believing it.

"Jude I'm so sorry I know you don't want to believe it but it's true he's gone Jude he's gone."

Tommy was holding Jude while she cried he was having a hard time with it to.

"Tom take Jude to studio A I'll be there in a minute everyone get back to work" Man I can't believe this happened to Jude she loved Quest.

"Come on Jude let's go let's go sit and talk." I'll admit I didn't want them together at first but now I can't believe he's gone.

"No I don't want to sit and talk I want to find my husband I want Quest." Jude was yelling and crying and trying to push Tommy away she wouldn't believe he was gone.

"Listen, Jude listen to me Quest is gone ok he's gone." It stung for Tommy to say those things Quest meant so much to him and now he was gone forever.

"He can't be gone Tommy please don't let him be gone I don't want him to." Jude had finally given up she fell into Tommy's arms and broke down crying.

"I know Jude I don't want him to be gone either but he is baby girl he's gone." Tommy held her as she cried and he himself cried to.

Tommy held Jude till she cried herself to sleep when he drove her to his house he laid her in the bed and watched sleep and for a while she looked so innocent so perfect. She didn't deserve this he kept thinking she didn't deserve it but realized in the end no one really ever deserves this. Three days had passed and Jude wouldn't come out of her room. Tommy had made the memorial service arrangements and everyone helped out including Sadie. Now it was time for the memorial service and they weren't sure if Jude was going to show up, but she soon enough came downstairs into the living room.

"Hey Jude how are you feeling." Dumb question she just lost her husband.

"I'm a little better, what time does the service star? I want to be there to say my goodbyes first." I know I'll never be able to say goodbye.

"It starts at 1:30 but I don't think they can start with out us. You ready to go." Bad time to be cracking jokes Tom damn.

"Yeah but before we go I just want to say thank you to all of you. I know I wasn't around to help out ad I'm sorry for that but I really am grateful for this, I know Quest would have been to." God I'm going to miss him so much but I have to be strong.

"It's ok Jude we will always be here for you. I know I haven't known you that long but I knew Quest well but the day I approached Georgia about producing you Quest came and told me you were harder to work with than what had appeared when you were with Shay but he also said you were a wonderful person." I never thought about it before but I am going to miss Quest.

"Hey shorty I'm sorry I wasn't here when you found out I really wish I could have but the second I found out I hopped on a plane and flew here. How are you?" Damn that was a dumb question Tom just asked the same thing.

"I'm ok thank you for coming, I heard you walked out of your concert for me you didn't have to but I'm glad you did."

"Look Jude about before and everything I said, I know saying I'm sorry isn't going to do anything but I just want you to know that I am here for you and that I love you." The room was completely silent before Jude spoke.

"Sadie I know and most of it's ok I never take what you say to heart." I feel a little better knowing I have my sister back.

"We should really get going it's almost time." Wow that was so un-Sadie well whatever it doesn't matter right now.

They all arrived at the service about 5 minutes after 1. Everyone came in and said their apologies and paid their respects. Jude was crying but not as hard as she had been over the last few days. It was time for the services to start Tommy was the first to speak.

"I don't know how to start this, I've never been to a funeral I was hoping the only funeral I would ever attend would be my own but it's not. I've known Quest for over ten years and man those were probably the best ten years of my life we were always so close. I remember when we were about 16 and we decide to go to Italy for the summer so we were sitting outside this little restaurant and this girl kept looking at us and Quest was laughing his ass off for no apparent reason and I'm over here thinking she's checking me out so I ask Quest to go talk to her for me and of course him being the great guy that he was he did it. So he comes back with her number but he's laughing a lot harder and I get tired of it and ask him what's so funny but before he tells me the girl walks up tom and kisses me which makes him laugh harder, and when she backs away from me I finally see what he's laughing at, the number I just received was from a guy the girl wasn't a girl at all. I told you all this because it was one of my favorite memories of Quest and in that same summer we walked past a church where they were having a funeral and Quest looked over at me and said when I die I want you to tell people about the good things about me the good times. So I kept my promise man I told everyone about a good time. I will miss him he's my best friend my brother and I love him I don't know if you knew that man but I do and I'll miss you." Tommy for the first time cried in front of someone other than Quest and he didn't care who saw him he didn't care. He crossed the room to sit down. The next to speak was Darius and then Sadie and Last of all Jude.

"I just want to say thank you to everyone I know Quest loved all of you. I really don't know what to say, I love Quest he's been a good friend since the day I met him. I remember days when me him and Tom were working late he would go on food runs and make jokes he was great. He was there for me in good times and bad times. We had a conversation one-day. He said to me that no matter how bad my life seemed like it was that it wasn't and that as long as I needed him he was there but I need him right now and he's not and I don't want to be mad but I am I can't help it when I lost him I lost apart of myself and I don't think I'll ever get that part back. But I can't do what he asked I can't think of the good things I tried my hardest but my mid keeps coming back to that little girl that we have that beautiful baby girl who in a couple of years we look up at me with her fathers beautiful eyes and ask me about her daddy and where he went and why he isn't here now and I can't look at her and tell her he's dead I can't tell her he's never coming back. I miss him so much he was a great friend and a great husband. Before he got on the plane he promised that he would come back to us safe but he didn't and he isn't. I have many great memories of him but my favorite is the one where I was 3 months pregnant and we were sitting in the studio and Quest was text messaging me and Tommy was getting mad so he walked out and he went into the booth with Porsche and they started acting like me and Quest and Tommy got down on one knee and he said to Porsche Jude Harrison will you marry me and handed her his cell phone and I didn't understand why he did that until I got a text that had a picture of a diamond ring and at the bottom it said will you and I got it and I started crying and I could barley say yes so Porsche did it for me and I smiled and hugged him. That was one of the best memories so Quest I hope I made you happy, and I love you so much." She was finish talking and she stood there for the longest as people started standing up and getting ready to leave she started singing

All alone I didn't like the feeling
All alone I sat and cried
All alone I had to find some meaning
In the center of the pain I felt inside
All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water, and a million years gone by
I will see you in the light of a thousand suns
I will hear you in the sound of the waves
I will know you when I come, as we all will come
Through the doors beyond the grave
All alone I heal this heart of sorrow
All alone I raise this child
Flesh and bone, he's just
Bursting towards tomorrow
And his laughter fills my world and wears your smile
All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water, and a million years gone by

When Jude finished singing she burst into uncontrollable sobs and then crying she couldn't do it she tried to be strong but she couldn't Tommy came bye and helped her after everyone left she sat there with Tommy and cried a bit longer and then talked to him.

"You know even after you it him in the jaw he still refused to think or say one bad thing about you, I always thought that was amazing." Jude was sitting next to Tommy telling him about things with Quest.

"Yeah he was just like that I don't know did I ever apologize for that." I really hope I did man I was out of it when that happened now I regret it.

"About a million times but he understood you're reasoning although I never really did but that's in the past. He was a great guy and I miss him so much I don't think I can do this with out him. He was always the reasonable one he knew how to handle things like this, he would know how to tell Aqua what happened he was the only one that I knew actually loved me and never hurt me he was my family and now he's gone and I'm lost and I'm scared and I don't know what to do." I want Quest back I miss him, do you hear me Quest I miss you please I love you so much.

"That's not true Jude I can't say that I never hurt you but I can say that I love you and I will always be here for you and Quest he is to." I don't know how to comfort her I can't even comfort myself.

"How Tommy he's dead I hate saying it but it's true and he's not coming back and I miss him and he said he would always be here and he's not. I don't think I can be strong for Aqua if I can't be strong for myself." Why did you have to go I miss you to much I can't do this.

"No Jude you are the strongest person I know and Quest is here he will always be here. Every time you hold that beautiful baby girl and every time you look into her eyes he is right there Jude. I'm not asking you to concur Rome in a day I'm asking that you be that strong girl I know you can be and that you fight and you find strength 'cause I know that's what Quest would want you to do. So can you do that for me?" Tommy asked her through his own tears he needed her to be strong.

"Yeah I think I can do that." Jude nodded and leaned her head on to Tommy's shoulder and rested.

I hope you liked it when I wrote I teared up a little but I added a little humor so I hope you enjoyed and the last and final chapter is next with one more last bang. Stayed tuned and don't forget to review.