Chapter 5 – Pain

Sakura was panting hard. She stood there for a while with her hands on her knees.

Syaoran noticed he wasn't alone. He turned his head thinking Mitsuki followed him. The person that met his gaze surprised him.

"Syaoran!" Sakura greeted hesitantly. Syaoran glared at her then smirked. He looked her in the eyes with passion no longer of loving kind but of hatred.

"Hey Kinomoto! What are you doing here? Have you finished your goo-goo song?" He muttered emotionless. Sakura was shocked of what he just called her, knowing full well that surname calls were only for beginners.

"No, I haven't finished it. Syaoran, I'm back!" She said reluctantly with pleading orbs. Syaoran gave her a pointed look.

"So what? I can obviously see that your back!" He retorted sarcastically. Sakura shivered at the mild contact she had with him.

"Yah… I was thinking if we could talk… You know, cope up with things, and work it out…" She mumbled once at a time. She gave out a forced cold chuckle as tears stung her eyes.

"Funny!" Syaoran uttered nonchalantly.

Sakura took short, fast, and shallow breaths then continued "Syaoran, I know you're mad at me for leaving you but I do have an acceptable reason you know… I left you bec.."

"Shut up!" Syaoran halted before she can go further. "You don't have to explain! Everything's clear to me, I don't need your excuses!" He shrieked while giving her an accusatory glance. His voice trailed off, lost in painful thoughts. Tears finally fell on her cheeks.

"Syaoran you don't understand me so you have to listen!" She cried bitterly with blurry pleading orbs eyeing straight at Syaoran's.

"I brightly understand thank you… I can't stand talking to you betrayer! My girlfriend's waiting for me!" Syaoran swerved and passed through her, attempting to walk away. Sakura's heart sank, his words tore through her, piercing every side of her body and cutting jaggedly through her heart.

"Wait! Stop!" She tugged his wrists tightly to stop him from flitting away, his hands clenched into a fist. He glared deadly at her.

"You can't go. I am your girlfriend, the only one." She shrilled in a firm voice. "Were not yet through. In fact, we haven't got a formal break-up." Sakura continued toughly and glared back at Syaoran who was astounded by her different stare. He chortled.

"I guess that's already understood when you left me on my proposal day! But if not, well then, were through! I'm breaking up with you right this very moment! You're not a part of my life anymore so leave me alone!" He faced her and yelled straight to her face. His anger stemmed from all the hurtful events in the past. Sakura gaped, the word 'proposal' roamed repeatedly in her ear.

"Proposal day? You were to ask me to marry you that day?" She stammered. Big tears trickled out her orbs. Syaoran gulped, he gritted his teeth hard to stanch the tears that formed in his eyes from falling.

"Yes Sakura!" Syaoran shrieked, he clasped her shoulders tightly and shook it back and forth. "I was about to ask you to marry me but you forsaken me! Darn! You left me for your stupid dreams!" He continued, just as when his tears were to fall, he hastily ran away.

Sakura fell on her knees weakly after Syaoran left her. She shivered tremendously as big droplets of tears overflowed. She felt a gnawing on her stomach then she started barfing out blood. It was continuous, the blood, not wanting to stop.

Sakura's P.O.V.

I just finished cleaning up myself from all the blood I threw up. Now, I am on my way to Tomoyo's mansion, Meiling and I were staying there. They might be home by now, I guess…

"If I just knew that was his proposal day, I would have not left. Now I know why he's so mad at me… I've hurt him, I've hurt the only one I love." I cried to myself. Suddenly, I felt something from deep within me… I'm not sure what it was… But I guess it's courage, hope, whatever… All I know is that, "I won't give him up, I love him… I know everything will be all right… I can handle this. I will explain to him everything, then he will understand, then we will be back together… Forever. I can do it!" I assured myself, now feeling much better. A new hope, that is, a new hope sprouted within me.

"I can do this!" I keep telling myself until I finally reached Tomoyo's mansion. I was right; my two best friends Tomoyo and Meiling are waiting for me inside. We had a group hug then we sat on the living room. There, I told them everything… everything that happened between Syaoran and me. They comforted me. They supported me as they always did.