She's still with me! After all of the insanity since we arrived to Alexandra! She's still with me! I spilled my guts and told her about what Carol, Daryl and I had planned. I owed her the truth. I tried to give her my gun. When she refused my offering our hands touched and I felt that touch throughout my body like a horny teenaged boy with his first crush! Could it be that she shares the same feelings that I have for her? Why would she? Could it just be loyalty or could it be more? I've got to fix things. They're holding a vote tonight on weather I can stay here or not!
I have this nagging feeling that I'm something bad is gonna happen. I just can't shake the feeling. I tried to beat Pete to death today. Not just because he's been abusing his family but for my selfish wish to return to normal to the past and Pete was standing his drunken ass in my way. Deanna wouldn't handle the situation. I went to her about it. I tried for my family, for Michonne I tried! But Deanna isn't ready to deal with the new worlds new rules! I had to do something. Carol agreed. After my talk or should I say my new understanding with Michonne I'm not sure what my objective is when it comes to Jessie! I feel like I'm being pulled between my want to return to normal, to the world I left behind and my future the unknown. Michonne said that she's still with me. She my as well carved those words into heart! Either way I still wanna kill Pete! Just because people like him shouldn't be around anymore!