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When they got to Kurama's home he got Kira cleaned up and fed like he said he would. He set Kira up in the extra bedroom the rooms in the palace have two bedrooms, a bathroom, a kitchen, and living room and then went to bed himself.

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Kurama woke up at three in the morning to the sound of Kira sobbing. He got up and started looking through the rooms trying to find where Kira was. He found Kira was no longer in the room he had been and that the bathroom light was on. He walked in and found the floor covered in blood with Kira was lying in the middle bleeding and crying. His shirt was completely soaked with blood and lying in the pool Kira had created. He was holding a small but very sharp knife and slash marks dug into his chest and arms. His blond hair was stained red from the blood, as were his pajama pants.

"Kira? What happened?" Kurama asked.

"I want to die…! I just want to escape this hell!" Kira cried.

"Calm down Kira!" Kurama said taking the knife from Kira. Kira clutched at Kurama's chest sobbing uncontrollably. Kurama's t-shirt was soaked with blood but Kurama could really care less, Kira was far ore important than a stupid t-shirt. Once the boys sobs died down Kira regained control and pushed himself off Kurama. "Kira, what's wrong? What is so bad you want to die?"

"Everything…no one cares if I die or not so why should I keep on living if all I do is hurt?" Kira whimpered. "I am just a frightened lonely little boy…who can not take care of himself no matter how hard I try and will never make anything of myself…"

"Kira, start looking at what's good about you instead of al the bad." Kurama said rubbing Kira's back gently.

"Everything is bad about me…it is obvious that I'm a faggot who can not do anything right…" Kira said bitterly.

"I can tell you a few good things about you if you cant come up with any." Kurama said. "You are adorable for one, when you are surprised there I a certain gleam to your eyes that looks gorgeous, you are by far one of the mot beautiful people I have seen, and you just want to be loved don't you. You just want someone to care about and to be cared for." Kira broke down again burying his face into Kurama's shoulder nodding. "Let me get you all patched up for now, we'll talk about all this first thing tomorrow okay? If we talk now I may forget half of it tomorrow and I don't want to forget anything you say."

"O…okay… but you don't need to dress my wounds…they are already healed." Kira said pointing to his chest. Kurama was surprised by it but guessed it was just a side effect from having the demon inside him. Akuma could not have his host dying so he probably gave Kira special healing abilities. He helped Kira to his feet and they both went into Kurama's bedroom. He'd clean up the blood in the morning; Kira shouldn't be left alone in his current state of mind. Kira cuddled up to Kurama when he climbed into the bed and griped his bloodied shirt tightly. It was obvious the boy was nervous around people still so his fear and need for physical contact must have been very large for him to cling to Kurama as he was. Kurama was a little afraid that Kira's mind was too scarred not to ever go back to a normal life.

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"What did you normally do before the demon started possessing you?" Kurama asked as they sat drinking some hot chocolate the next morning. Kurama thought Kira would like something nice and hot to drink after being stuck in that cold cell for a few weeks.

"I was being sold out for sex…." Kira said monotonously. "My father, though I have never considered him that, used me and sold me off to the highest bidder. He had done that to me since my mother died when I was seven."

"That's horrible." Was all Kurama had to say about it. Kira's life really had not been worth living…Kurama would try and change that for him.

"Kurama…can I ask you something?" Kira asked timidly. Kira's moodswings were absolutely adorable. One minute he's be annoyed, the next depressed, then shy!

"Yes, anything." Kurama said.

"What's going to happen to me…? I mean once the demon is exorcised…do I go back into prostitution again? Are you just going to forget about me and let me kill myself?" Kira asked. His voice was trembling and he couldn't stop a few tears from falling. He didn't want to go back or to be forgotten…

"No, I wont let that happen to you. Even if that is Koenma's decision I wont let you. I'll let you move in with me if you are to go straight back to the Ningenkai human world I think…." Kurama said hugging Kira. "Sending you back to a life like that would be cruel."

"You…would…? Even though you know what I do and that I'm suicidal…?" Kira asked

"Of course, is there anything else you'd like to know?" Kurama asked. Kira hesitantly nodded and looked at Kurama seriously.

"Are you only doing this out of pity?" Kira asked bitterly. Yet another mood swing, now he was angry. Kurama was surprised by the question and thought it over.

"I suppose at first that's what I felt but now…I think I'm growing quite attached. You've got a wonderful personality and I enjoy talking to you. I do feel sorry about what you're forced to go through but that's not why I'm helping you out." Kurama said.

"Do you really mean that? Or are you just saying that because that's what I want you to say?" Kira asked.

"I mean it, I wont lie to you." Kurama said. The boy's eyes locked and they simply stared at each other for a few minutes. A knock on the door brought them out of their moment. Kurama got up and went to the door to find Koenma standing there.

"It's time for Kira's exorcism." Koenma said in a somber tone.

Kira whimpered pitifully as he was strapped down to a table. It was just a precaution to make sure the demon didn't take over and attack. Kurama was sitting in a chair next to the table stroking Kira's hand gently and telling him everything would be okay. A mask was put over Kira's face and a strange gas put him to sleep.

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Kira slowly woke up what must have been hours later. He was lying in a bed instead of the table he had passed out on. His head was pounding and his whole body ached but he still forced himself to sit up.

"Are you feeling okay Kira?" Kurama asked from his seat on the bed.

"I hurt…but otherwise I feel fine." Kira said scratching his head. For some reason two spots on his head were starting to itch quite a bit as well as the area right above his bottom.

"That's good to hear, you're exorcism went perfectly and you're yourself once again." Kurama said stroking Kira's face gently. "I asked Koenma what he thought about you moving in with me and he thought that would be best, after your experience it would be hard to go back to a normal life."

"Did you tell him about me…?" Kira asked looking up at Kurama pathetically.

"No, that is your personal business to tell whoever YOU want, I have no right to go around telling everyone." Kurama said gently. "Are you sure you feel alright? You don't look so good anymore." Kurama asked seeing Kira's face pale quite a bit. Kira placed his hand over his mouth as he felt bile begin to rise in his throat.

"I'm gonna puke." Kira said. Kurama picking him up quickly and ran into the bathroom. A moment latter Kira emptied his stomach into the toilet. Kurama gently held back his hair and rubbed his back gently as he vomited. This was just a side effect from the extraction of the demon. Sometimes a person would get physically sick, like Kira was right now. He handed Kira a napkin after he was finished and let him wipe off his face. Kira rinsed out his mouth and flushed the toilet.

"How about you rest a while longer and I will make something for you to eat that will go easy on your stomach. You must be pretty hungry after emptying your stomach like that." Kurama said helping him back to the bed. Kira nodded numbly and climbed back into the bed. He scratched at his head again as he watched Kurama's retreating form. An odd rumbling sound erupted from his chest as he thought of the redheaded male. When Kira noticed the sound he grabbed his throat in surprise and the sound stopped.

"That was weird…" Kira said to himself assuming it was just his imagination playing tricks on him. He had been having a rough time and he probably just needed some more sleep. He lay back down and squirmed uncomfortably, something just didn't feel right down there… Kira felt something brush against his leg and peeked under the blanket to see what it was. His frail hand wrapped around a long thin striped tail, like a tigers, and tugged at it only to feel a jolt of pain shoot to his abdomen. He craned his neck around almost afraid to see what he thought he would and screamed at what he saw.

"Kira? What's wrong?" Kurama asked running into the room moments later. Kira was still holding the tail, tears sparkling in his honey-brown eyes, and rounded cat-ears dropping in his blond hair.

"W-what's wrong with me?" Kira asked letting a few tears escape his eyes. Kurama walked over to the bed and wrapped his arms around Kira gently.

"Shhh, don't cry Kira." Kurama said rocking him tenderly. This was a big surprise to him when he had found out a few hours before, but it was probably scaring poor little Kira more that he could imagine. Kurama blushed as Kira pushed his face into his chest, having his crush in such a position without being able to touch him at all. Kira crawled into Kurama's lap and moved his head to Kurama's shoulder. "You feel a little better? I'll try to explain this the best I can. You're a half demon. Koenma cannot find out how or why, you've got no family of demonic heritage, but you are. You're a tiger to be exact."

"I-I-I…" Kira couldn't say anything but started crying into Kurama's shoulder again.

"What's so bad about it?" Kurama asked curiously.

"I just want to be normal…" Kira said.

"Kira, you were never going to be normal, but I'll try to make everything as normal as possible for you. You aren't that different anyways, you've just got a pair of cat ears and a tail, it's not as bad as it seems." Kurama said holding the boy. He scratched one of Kira's ears and Kira started purring again. His tears stopped flowing and he just rested his face in Kurama's shoulder purring happily with his tail swaying gently from side to side. "See? It doesn't seem as big now does it?"

"I guess not…at least I have my own mind back…" Kira said.

"I myself think it's cute, I like the way the colors look with your eyes and hair." Kurama said. "How do you like this? I'm pretty much just doing what my friends' cat liked…" he chuckled.

"I like it, it feels…I dunno, just nice." Kira said. He pushed himself up and off of Kurama. He curled up wrapping his tail around himself. "Can I take a nap Kurama? Between throwing up and finding out I'm a demon I got extremely tired…"

"Yes, you don't have to ask if you can sleep, you can just go to sleep instead." Kurama said giving Kira's ears one less stroke. "Just come out when you wake up, I'll most likely be in the living room or my bedroom." Kira nodded numbly as he fell asleep. He still felt sick and was confused, all he wanted was to sleep it off and forget everything, if only for a few hours…

End Part 3

A/N- okay...i wasnt in the best of mental states when i wrote the first part. i was sorta suicidal for a while and it was really getting to my writing that day. but i wrote that quite a while ago. i'm over it mostly. it was annoying to write when i did it cause i just couldnt do anything happy for that time...JA NE!