Filling In The Gaps Chapter 5, a teen titans fanfic

Sorry for being able to post this story but not Four Seasons it takes a long time to write a chapter down. And the next chapter has a lot of long paragraphs.

Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans or Running From Lions

A/N: This chapter should explain some things and it is in Robin's POV just… talking.

Chapter 5: Running From Lions

I guess the saying is true.

'You don't know what you have… till it's gone.'

Like Starfire.

Get me out of this place,

before I cause more damage,
a small price to pay for building houses out of matchsticks;
and when things get too hot,

you've got me to blame for,
every fire that breaks out in every lover's name, so...

I know I shouldn't have met Cassandra… but when I asked her out… I just felt like it was the right thing to do. To find someone who could love me back. Not knowing me for my true nature but for what they thought I was.

I knew Starfire could never love me back.

She said she did that day… and then… everything after that went downhill. She stopped loving me. Her heart stopped hurting.

My heart stopped beating.

Of course I knew that she knew that I loved her… I just wasn't sure of how she felt about me… sure… she gave me clues and stuff but… she treated everyone else the same.

...Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold,
and I regret not knowing when to put an

end to all this madness,
keeps me wanting,
keeps me wanting more...

When I proposed to Cassandra… I knew it was wrong… but I was so desperate to be loved by someone… I… I just… freaked.

And took too big of a step.

Which caused Starfire to run even farther away from me.

And I disappeared out of her life forever.

Cassandra had almost the same reaction. She denied my proposal and said that she wasn't ready. I understood. I wasn't ready either but… it was so hard for me… just to know that when I showed the ring to Starfire… the look in her eyes. The look of sadness. And that was when I was regretting my descision.

And I knew… I knew then… I made the biggest mistake in my entire life.

Sell me out I'm yesterday's old news,
phrases left

on paper,
black ink bleeding through
the pages where we

made our history.
Call me foolish,
I feel hopeless...

When they walked through the door hand in hand, her telling me over and over again that he was good now. I didn't know what to do.

I didn't know if he was right for her.

I didn't know if I could stand her loving him. And kissing him.

Him filling in the gap in her heart.

I used to fill that in. But then I had to be stupid enough to go and break her heart! I never really knew why Starfire was so desperate to be loved by someone. So desperate to know that she could be loved.

Because… I was desperate too. I was afraid of it though.

Love.

I was afraid.

I didn't know if I could be loved. After my mother and father died… I didn't think I could ever be loved again. A whole appeared in my heart. Too big of a whole for anyone except them to fill. Only they could fill the gap in my heart.

But the SHE comes along. And she slowly starts to fill the gap in there. Not at first site no… she did it slowly… bit by bit she would fill in the gap.

Molecule by molecule.

That's when I knew I shouldn't be afraid anymore. I should open up my heart… but even though I knew it was still so hard… after… I kept it closed for so long. After I froze it in ice… my heart wouldn't thaw out.

So Starfire couldn't get to it.

Cassandra couldn't either. They both tried, Starfire especially, she tried to know that she could save me from… me. But I was too stubborn and I was Robin. I couldn't let her in. I couldn't let her know I needed help.

I couldn't let her love me.

Running From lions, never felt like such a mistake

Cassandra was going in a whole different direction. She wasn't going for might heart. I knew I could let her love me… but I… I couldn't let her know I couldn't love her in return.

I wanted Starfire to see… that I loved her. But every time I tried… something would happen. Something that I hated.

That damn alarm.

If I never were a Teen Titan I wouldn't have ever had that damn alarm.

I never would have had to stay up at four in the morning trying to track down someone that couldn't be tracked.

I wouldn't have met villains.

I wouldn't have met my friends.

I wouldn't have met… Starfire. OK, there are more good things than bad.

Like a dear caught in the headlights
I won't know what hit me...
Running from lions,
never felt like such a mistake

When I told Starfire I did love her. It wasn't true. I still loved her then… and now. And after that I knew I broke her heart. And she was… hurting so hard inside.

I knew she couldn't keep loving me after what I did.

She couldn't keep loving an ass like me.

...Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold,
and I regret not knowing when to put an end to all this madness,
keeps me wanting,
keeps me wanting more...

End Chapter 5

This song like meant… like… running from what you knew was wrong or right… I'm not sure.

NO FLAMES!

-Emerald-Mask