Hikari – Planet B Remix
Chapter Four:
"This is what I thought, I thought you'd need me.
This is what I thoght, so think me naïve.
I promised you a heart you'd promise to keep.
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep"
"Prelude 12/21" – A Fire Inside
My Sora? Somehow those words seemed like such a joke now. Is this what it really felt to have someone truly betray you? Somehow it felt familiar. I had felt such despair before. But when? When had I been this miserable? I looked around me and spotted the papou. For some reason, it made me laugh, out loud even. I got up, flinching as I stretched the wound on my back, and felt it start to bleed. I didn't care and I crouched down and picked up the small start shaped fruit. I stood straight with my back away from Sora. I tossed it back to him and I felt his aura seem to sink further into sadness.
"Here Sora, you wanted one, didn't you?" I started to walk away. Not into the house but towards the docks. It would take about ten minutes to get there, but only because of my injury. I knew he wasn't going to folow me right away.
"Riku…"
Rewind. Stop. Play.
"Riku," I felt horrible. How could I do such a thing to him? After he had gone through all the trouble of throwing such a fabulous party. He had gone through all the trouble of getting all my friends from Radiant Graden and getting my Pooh's Sotrybook. I wanted to just collapse infront of him, to grovel and beg for forgiveness. Actually, what I really wanted him to do was talk to me. Even if it was yelling at me. I could handle it, at least it would be some kind of emotion.
Suddenly I heard him laugh and he stood up, the wound on his back bleeding again. He had fought for me hadn't he? No, that wasn't it. I knew it, he fought out of pride, and out of hatred. He walked over and crouched down, picking something up. He threw it back at me.
"Here Sora," I caught the papou and tears started to build up in my eyes, "You wanted one, didn't you?"
My eyes widened at those words and a tear fell onto the papou. Those words…..those words. He started to walk away, into the early morning sun and the scene was just to familiar. I felt the darkness come back to him, and I had noticed the slightly crazed tone to his voice. I got realy scared all of a sudden.
"Riku…"
Stop. Fast Forward.
I looked out into the sunset as I sat on the dock. I don't know what I was thinking right than. My mind just seemed numb. I just kept seeing it all, over and over again. The kiss, the papou, the cocky girn, aeroaga, the gash, Sin Harvest, Oblivion, Sephiroth gone. I could see the papou tree out of the corner of my eye, but that's not where I wanted to be. I stood up and walked into the secret place.
This is where it had started so many times. This when Kairi first came up. This is where I let into the darkness. This is where I saw them kissing. This is where I now stand, n a place that use to be so happy, but now is nothing more than a pool of ill feelings. A place where the dark resides. A place where I can find some peace, if maybe just for a little while. I could justopen myself for a little while, not go in to deep. If I felt myself slipping I would just leave, right? I have self control. I can take care of myself. Right now I just needed some space…just a little space.
Switch to Camera B
I jumped off my little boat and looked around wildly. I could feel the darkness rising again. I didn't know where it was coming from though. Maybe Riku…no! he wouldn't do such a thing again, would he?
I ran across the beach and jump onto the rook of the seaside shack, run as fast as possible across the bridge to the papou tree. I saw a dark figure and smiled with relief, goo,d he was just thinking in his favourite spot.
"Riku!" I slowed down a little and the shadoew turned around. I stopped dead. It wasn't Riku at all, but a soldier heartless. I stood int eh middle of the little island and summoned my keyblade. I ran up to the soldier and slashed at it. I hit it dead on and it vanished, only to be replaced my five more. I was surrounded. It was just like five years ago. It was happening all over again.
I slashed out at hit two of the heartless. One jumped up and spun, diving straight at me, I rolled under it, kneeling up and slashing at one in front of me. I spotted one of the two left prepare to use cyclon so I sprung forward and stabbed it square on the crest. The last one spun up in the air and disappeared.
"Where do I go now?" I heard a shout, "That's Riku voice!"
I ran to the secret place. As I got in their I saw Riku standing their with his hands over over his ears.
Camera One zoom in.
"I WON'T GIVE IN THIS TIME! I WON'T! I just needed some place quiet. I didn't mean for this to happen again. Leave me alone you damn heartless!" I yelled out presing my hands over my ears. I could hear the darkness beckon to me. Trying to soothe me.
"Riku! Riku!" I heard Sora call to me. I looked up and I saw a bright light. I was surrounded by darkness except for that one light. I knew it was him.
I reached for it, than let my hand drop. Did I really want to go back to him. After this entire night. My back began to ache in reminder of the events leading up to this.
"Sora…go away," I stood up, still seeing nothing but darkness. I closed my eyes to try and shut out his light.
"Riku, no! I won't lose you to the darkness again! I won't let you throw yourself away!" He grabbed my hand and I was now caught inbetween the light and dark.
'Okay Riku, wich one do you chose?' I asked myself. I had believed him when he promised he'd take away all my hurt, and he had, until now. Everyone is allowed to make mistakes.
"Riku, snap out of it. I'm sorry. It was so wrong of me to do that to you. I made a promis to you. I'm sorry I broke it, and I will probably never forgive myself. Just come back home with me, and we'll find a way to get past this. Please, please just me another chance." He stepped back and offered me his hand.
It was the complete oposite this time. Here I was, sinking into the darkness, as he stood in the light, offering me his hand. I stood strong and defiante. I could see him now. His eyes shone passionately. I reached out my hand, and it wavered there in the air, before I finally latched onto his.
Okay so, I just got December Underground and that prelude just reminded me so much the story. I had to get it in here! It belongs to A fire Inside! If you don't listen to them you should! Majour props to AFI here guys! They are the cool!
Okay so I'm gone until Thursday soemtimes, and I wotn have access to a PC so maybe count on my next chapter in about a week. TTFN!
- Kirux