This chap became a pain in the ass for me ...but finally is here!
Okay I dunno if is as good like the others and probably you are going to hate me!...hides

Thanks to Kate, Aly and Stephmuah...and Carol of course who is my co-writting

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Chapter 5: Una di queste notti (One of these Nights)

The night was slow and painful. A long, low and sad night. That kind of night you wish to be able to erase from your mind and memories. Those long nights, when you remember every mistake, every word you didn't speak, every single thing you did to hurt someone else. And all the things you should've said but never did. All the things we should've done, that we never did. All the things we should've given, but we didn't. And you pray that some how someone or something can give you these moments back, give them back to us.

Every one of those regrets wasn't haunting his painful memories anymore. Because of soft and tiny body, curled in his arms was giving him some kind of ...relief. Her soft perfume, in some ways calming his soul, the was full of promises the we never make. And beside she reminds him so much of Jordan - the color of her hair, the curl's she would have when her hair got longer, the shape of her face - she was surrounded by Jordan's presence. Sure Jordan adored Caterina, he could bet the she was a terrific mother...was? no still is "Because mommy is no death princess" he whisper softly to his daughter while trying to believe the words himself. As the time past there still wasn't any news about Jordan and his hope were faded more and more. All the victims were just recovered bodies. No one alive was left alive. He could see the dark faces of the hospital personal. He could hear the screams even though he was on another floor. They knew with each passing hour the probability to found someone alive became less and less. They knew it the conforming the hours were passing, the probability to found someone alive …was more and more distant.

"I should have hope but I can't stop thinking," he said to himself in a whisper looking down again to his small daughter, "No I have to do it for her" Woody placed a soft kiss on the baby's cheek. Caterina snuggled a little into her father then opened her eyes. Woody was still amazed when he saw those eyes. They eyes that were exactly like his own.
"Hey, princess" He said smiling but in response Caterina started to cry. Loudly. "Oh …calm down sweetie. Everything is fine" he tried to calm Caterina to no avail, "Oh What I do?" he asked out loud, gently rocking his daughter, wanted to cry in desperation too.
"She must be hungry" Antonia appeared in the doorway again, smiling.
"What?" Woody questioned, looking up.
"It's been about five hours since the last time she ate. Come here, little one," Antonia said trying to take Caterina from Woody's arms. Woody kept his daughter firmly in his arms. "Can I?" he asked.
"Ah?" Antonia gives him a puzzle look, "Ah Sorry! I forgot! Sure, wait for me here. I'll be back with the formula" She said and disappeared for minute. When she returned she was carrying a bottle.
"Here Dad, you daughter needs to eat," She smiled passing the bottle to Woody. He looks to her saying with his eyes "What do I.." Antonia caught his gaze.
"You've never feed your baby, before?" she smiling again "Watch how I do it, Dad" She took Caterina in her arms gentling putting her little head in the right position. The baby just did the rest, happily sucking on the bottle "See? She knows what she has to do. Here," She put Caterina back in Woody's arms, "Call me when she finish"
Woody looked amused at how Caterina was eating her food but then again he noticed how much she needed her mother. How much she needed to be in her little bed, in her house. House. Woody realized he couldn't stay in a Hotel anymore - not with Caterina. He needed to find a place. But for that he would have to have certain arrangements and they couldn't be made by phone. That one would have to be done in person. Face to face.
"Nurse? .uhh...Antonia?" he called
"Yes?" Antonia appeared from in the doorway
"I have a couple of questions…what do I need to take Cate with me?"
"Uhh….well do you have any papers justify you are his father?" Woody shocks his head "Oh, then I think the you can't take her from the hospital ,you would need a blood test or someone can testify the you are the father and also, it would be great if the mother recognize you as well" She finishes
Woody swallowed hard. He needs to do a lot of things. First to all call Paul. Then found a good lawyer." Antonia did you know any lawyer?" She nods.
"Actually my fiancé can do it, if you want" Antonia says
"Can you make the arraignments?" Woody replies
"Sure …I would call him and….Bianca?" Antonia asks to the woman who was walking faster to them.
"Antonia, perchè ha Caterina?" Bianca said
"È il padre, lei è il suo proprio bambino, lui ha tutta la destra in mondo del thid"
"Ma la sua madre non desidera questa!" Bianca yelled
"Pozzo non è ora qui ed, è l'unica cosa lei ha ottenuto in questo mondo!"
"Excuse me…There is the problem? Woody says looking to the angry faces of both women's
"She is Bianca, your daughter nurse and neighbor. She knows Jordan pretty well" Antonia say annoyed
"Oh!...Do you know when Jor is?" Woody say quickly…maybe she..
"No…I don't know…sorry…I just found the Caterina was here…." Bianca say a little confused
"Then why you make such a mess?" Antonia say angry
"Is just the…well Jordan never talks about…" Bianca stammered
"I know" Woody say softly ..."I understand….probably Jordan only said the she hates me" he smile sadly
"No…I never heard one word like that coming for her lips" Bianca smile to Woody "I'm sorry…Is Just this situation overbold me….I'm Bianca, I'm her daughter legal guardian." She extended a hand to Woody
"I see…" Woody said afraid...because this woman has all the power to take Caterina to whatever she wants.
"You can come with me" Bianca say catching Woody's alarm…."to Jordan's apartment, Caterina would be better there"
"Sure" Woody says, he knows the he need to take Cate to other place.
"I give you my fiancé name and number" Antonia say passing a card to Woody "Call him in the morning. Now go home, take a rest and back with al the energy's to found her" she smile.
"Thanks' you Antonia, for all this …really I'm" Woody replies taking the woman hand.
"You welcome" she smile again
"Can you give just a couple of seconds?" he says turning to Bianca "I need to make a call"
"Sure, I get ready Caterina"

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"Hello? ...Woody? Oh my God, Woody...did you?" Garret swallows hard.
"Nothing yet," Woody tells him, "I'm just calling to say that I have Caterina here... my daughter. She is fine, sleeping now. I'm going to send you a couple pictures tomorrow."
"Jordan?" Garret asks again.
"I need your help Doctor Macy," Woody says softly, waiting for a angry answer.
"Whatever you need son" Garret replies firmly "Right now I don't care how this happened, I just want Jordan safe"
"I need to coordinate a search here, I need all that can be useful, so then we can find Jordan" Woody starts
"I'll send Nigel to work right away" Garret says
"Doctor Macy, uhhh You, well…Lu" Woody stammers
"Yeah she was here" Garret say a little bit annoyed
"Oh" Woody breathe, he didn't want that.
"She yelled at us, saying we are just a confabulation family of deaths and the only thing we want is to screw up your life together" Garret says frustrated, "She is a child, a jealous woman, angry, hurt, pissed. Period. I can understand"
"I should had ended this a long time ago" Woody said in a low tone
"Yeah you should've…" Garret says harshly.
"But I didn't" Woody replies "So I have to deal with the consequences."
"Woody" Garret voice holds a warning.
What do I do?" Woody starts to sound anxious "I have not right over my daughter. I exchanged her and her mother for"….Woody voice faded, "Security". Not love, not passion. Not happily ever after."
"Woody…"
"No! It's true!" Woody yelled "What if...what am I going to tell her…..How…"
"Then don't" Garret voice commanded, "Find Jordan and bring her back. And for now take care of your daughter."
"But I don't know how."
"You will learn. No parent knows everything at the beginning. It's a timing process - long and not always successful but full of happiness and rewards" Garret tells him trying to give him some comfort.
"Yeah she is the most precious gift ever," Woody says looking to the little figure in her bassinet.
"So then take care of that blessing. We'll be in touch," Garret replies.
"Thanks Doc" Woody turned the phone off.
"And?" Lily asks anxious.
"Nothing on Jordan yet" Garret said sadly
"The baby?" she asks worried
"Fine. Caterina is with him now."
"There is but there…" Lily pointed
"He really doesn't know what to do. A single Dad, missing Mom and all the guilt that he can carry on his shoulders" Garret said dejectedly.
"I must have been so tough on Woody" Lily said looking threw the window.
"Well he knows that he has a lot of responsibility in this mess" Garret replies distracted too.
"Yeah but" Lily says turning to Garret …"the price is higher than what ever he is waiting for"

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"Here we are, that is my place and this one is….well you know" Bianca said quietly.
"Jordan place," He replies softly.
"Okay let's in!" Bianca replies, trying to be optimistic. She opens the door and immediately Woody thought that she maybe wrong. "This can't be Jordan place" He thought

There were soft colors everywhere. Everything was neat and in place. Paintings were on the walls. Photographs of Lily, Nigel, Bug and Garret graced a desk. He wasn't a single one of them. That hurt. It hurt that she didn't even want to remember him. He tries to avoid that turning his attention to the kitchen. Again, everything was fixed up with flowers - purple tulips.
"Why don't you put Caterina in her room?" Bianca suggests, "I'll prepare something to eat and her formula."
"Sure," Woody says taking the bassinet, Caterina was sleeping in. He opens the door of the room. Only one room, but a very large one. Woody was surprised again. Jordan's room was always a mess and she had to have bright colors. But this room was white with soft colors. Actually the room looked like it was out of a magazine
And it was full of girly stuff. Clothes for the baby, toys, flowers. Jordan was completely devoted to her baby. That made him feel even worse. She does it all alone and she did great. She didn't need him. Not now, not ever. If it wasn't for the accident he would never have met his daughter. Ever.
"Did you need help?" Bianca asks entering the room.
"Did she...?" Woody pointed at the room.
"Huh?" Bianca inquires, "Oh yes! She did all of this herself. It's pretty isn't it?" Bianca smiles, "Jordan passed the last four months doing all this. Well she was on bed rest so she had to find something to occupy her time."
"Four months," Woody thinks, "And I wasn't there to help"
"Well Jordan wanted pretty stuff for her daughter," Bianca continued. "So she made it …see the crib?" she pointed "She made all the sheets and decorations. She was so proud of herself."
"Sure she was." Woody said softy "Jordan didn't need me if she could do all this by herself. I never thought the she can be like this…I'm so damn stupid. Great job Hoyt, you lack all this."
"Which one you prefer?" Bianca said interrupting his thought
"About?" Woody said confusing
"This. Purple or Blue?" she show him two pj's.
"Purple?" Woody answered.
"Okay, you want to change her Dad?" Bianca smile
"Thanks."
"For what?" Bianca asked, surprised.
"Everything….I mean you were pretty angry at me." he said.
"Oh that…well Jordan never give me details about you two…you know her," she said with a comic grin.
"Yeah." Woody smiled…that sound like Jordan.
"It just ….I'm sorry if this sound awful…but for a father the wasn't here and didn't care …you fly to fast to get your daughter…I just thought the you don't have good intentions with the little one."
"Ouch" Wood thought "Well is not, I don't wanted to be here…is the I never knew about Cate."
"You what?" Bianca yelled shocked.
"Well ….Jordan ran."
"Yeah she told me that part…but she never says ...I just assume…I'm sorry." Bianca said softly
"I understand….bad guy…inglorious bastard….I get the point ...I deserve it." Woody smiled ironically.
"No….I mean she never talk about you like that….maybe I think like that." she smiled ironic "but she don't, Jordan always talk about you with …care….even the her eyes speak for a huge sadness…"
"I have the fault of that…I'm an inglorious bastard." Woody said
Woody and Bianca were interrupting by Caterina cries.
"What is little one?...you are not hungry…" Bianca says…."Oh ….Mommy's time."
"What?" Woody said curious
"Is 9 am…Jordan get up at this time, to dressed her and then play with her, after to leave for the job, for a little while" Bianca explain.
"So what do we do?" Woody asks
"Well ...actually what you do….because I have to be go to make the arrangements for the bloods test."
"For how long?" Woody's voice sound concerned.
"2 or 3 hours….you would be just fine"
"Just plays with your girl Dad. I prepared the formula and all. Even I let the instructions in a paper. Arrivederci"

"So I just you and me, Cate….you know I hear a pretty nice song in a movie…We just would change the name of the girl." Woody smile winking an eye to Caterina "Daddy's little girl paints the world with her magic wand. Daddy's little child breathes new life to the morning time for me. Though we're apart, her thoughts follow me. When I come home, "Cate" smiles with the dawn. "Cate" smiles, and she radiates the glow around her halo. When she plays, "Cate" smiles. On a summer day, "Cate" smiles. A new day, "Cate" smiles."

Cate hear his father with attention, like she was trying to decide to believe him or not. Woody keeps singing for a while, watching to her daughter and at the same time making faces for her. The baby laugh and in some how Woody knew the he can still be there for his daughter, make some kind of arrange for all the mess he as done.
He put his daughter in the bed, Jordan's bed and keeps playing, as he thought the Jordan would do it with her and it seems the his baby have a little routine, want the bunny first, then a little frog and the a teddy bear. That teddy bear was definitely the most using; it seems the she never let them down. One thing catch Woody's attention, the bear have a card in one ear. He wonder why Jordan would let the card there, knowing how dangerous could it be for Caterina. He reaches for the Bear, for taking a way the note, when he see it was writing. Curious for know who send it; Woody took the Bear passing the frog to Cate. He read: "Just a little present for this piece of heaven. Make all the blessed were with her, now and forever. With love, Paul."
Paul. What to think right now of the man who told him how to find his little girl? On the other hand, Paul was also the man who kept his child from him. Woody shook that thought out of his head. There were only two things that mattered right now: he had his girl, he needed so badly to find Jordan. God, Jordan! She didn't need him, but Woody needed her so badly. More that he could ever articulate in words.
Caterina got his attention by moving her little hands towards the picture frame on the nightstand.
"Do you want the picture, sweetie?" Woody asked picking it up.
It was Jordan and Cate at Fontana di Trevi. She looked beautiful with her sunglasses pulling her curls back and Caterina smiling in her arms. They looked so happy that warmed Woody's heart.
"It's Mommy, Cate." Woody smiled at his baby sitting her on his lap. As he moved, he spotted another thing on the bedroom. A half-opened drawer with a picture album in it.
"I know you wanted to play, but I'm hoping we can work out some sort of deal." Woody picked the album up "I think you can be still for a moment, right little one?" he put a kiss in her daughter kiss, making ticklish on purpose. Cate laugh "I get that as yes" he said winking an eye.
He focus his attention in the album…some pictures just slipped, probably Jordan was filled the album the day after…he better don't think in that. He took the pictures and watched. They were recent…no more the 2 weeks ago. Jordan was holding Caterina in her arms; they were playing in the park. Caterina have a beautiful dress, pink and fluffy and Jordan was...using a dress…a Mommy's dress, with little red flowers, it was not totally fit to the body and show her shoulders. But the smile and glow in her eyes catch Woody's attention. When he saw that glow in Jordan eyes?...never, never before…she looks so happy with his little girl and it gave him some comfort even though he wasn't there to help her through pregnancy, he was now sure that Jordan had had the best part of him, their child. It made woody feel a little better that even when he was unbelievably stupid to push her away, he could still give her a reason to be happy, he stared down Caterina, he had never falled in love so hard in so little time. Truth is he had always loved her, even before she was conceived and when he got the -letter that Jordan left him saying she was pregnant; all he wanted was to be with the two people he loved the most and it was overwhelming to hold Caterina in his arms, look into her bright blue eyes and know that she was his now, that he loved her more than he believed it was possible to love someone.
"Your Mommy is the most gorgeous woman the I ever know Cate" he whispered to his daughter, who was making little sobs "Let see what else is here" Woody start to pass page by page, watching Jordan tummy turns in a small belly to a ver expanded one. Every picture was writting with the date,month and little notes aside "Today I feel the baby's kick for first time...it was I have no words for!". he smiled to this coment, feeling a little filp on his stomach for been missing all that."My first visit it was overbold me!...see it the baby and hearing the heart beat!.." He pass over a few pages...to the 6 moths of pregnantcy "OMG! Is a girl! I going to be a Mommy for a precious little girl!...crying"...I hope the she have his eyes..." Woody dropped his mouth at this last note, after all the mess, in some how she was still thinking on him...and where she was? If he could sale his soul for founded , he would do it, not questions asks...but...he can't ...and Jordan was still missing.

The phone started to ring...
"Hello" Woody answers…
"Ciao?" a voice asks
"Damn…and Bianca is not here!" Woody yelled "What do I do"
"I'm back!" Bianca salutes "How is …oh phone" she looks to Woody's confused face and took the phone from Woody's hand ""Ciao? Chi è questo?
Woody was almost letting Bianca deal with the stuff, when she screamed loud and painful.
"What happened?...It something wrong?" Woody asks worried.
Bianca stays there, with her back at him. Woody watch like all her body start to shivered and how slowly the phone down from her hand. It panicked him. He takes two steps closer to her and puts his hands on her shoulders, turning her around to see her face, it was white and her eyes were full of tears, some already running down her cheeks. A huge fear rise in Woody's heart and it get locked there
"Bianca What?" he yelled
"Th-ee-y" Bianca stammered, shaking for all her body "Th-e-y" she looks with horror in Woody eyes before screaming desperate "They find Jordan's body!