Lucius paced his study for the third straight hour.
He didn't know
what to do next. Imagine. HIM...at a loss. He knew he
couldn't
tell Narcissa what he'd found out. He knew she wouldn't
understand.
And it would probably drive her even further away. He didn't
want
that to happen. He stopped pacing for a bit and stared into the
flames of the fireplace. HIS...daughter.
He couldn't get
over that one. Inside his heart was bursting with joy.
She was a
beautiful little girl. Long blonde hair and those eyes.
Like...well...like...her mum's. Pools that you
could never
escape from. Not like any boy in his right mind would try to esca--
Wait. Boys. Snort.
Over his dead body.
He closed
his eyes and sighed. By the gods. What was he going to do? He
looked up at the clock on the mantle. 4:15 am.
With a
heavy sigh he turned and left the study and headed up the stairs
to
his room. Once inside he reached for the lightswitch and -- no. Not
tonight. He waved his hand and a few of the candles lit, throwing
off a
soft glow.
He walked over to the valet and
pulled out his dark green robe.
Heading across to the bed, he
slipped out of his coat and unbuttoned his
shirt, leaving the
black silk to hang losely on his body. He stood
beside the bed
for the longest time, lost in thought. Finally he sighed
softly
and slipped off the shirt and pulled on the robe, tying it around his
waist.
And more pacing.
Finally juat as the sun was
struggling to rise over the treetops, he'd
been standing at the
window watching the dawn break and he heard a
sound.
A
soft squeak...and the quiet voice of a child singing some
unintelligible song that only a 2 year old would
understand.
Lucius turned and left his room, walking over to
Fallyn's nursery
door...he pressed his ear to it for a moment to
listen. And a smile. He
looked up and down the hallway and then
quietly turned the knob and
pushed open the door to peer in.
The
moment she saw him, her face lit up and her mouth opened, and Lucius
put a finger to his lips. She mimicked him but her other hand
still
held onto the railing of the crib and she bounced happily.
Lucius
slipped in and made his way to the crib and when she
reached up to him,
he threw a look over his shoulder at the door
and then reached down,
lifting her up.
Fallyn giggled
wildly and as one arm wrapped around his neck, her other
hand
began to toy with the lapel of his robe.
"Papaaaa...purtyyyy..."
She said softly...and those blue eyes turned to
his
silvers.
"Yes it is, hm?" he said softly and walked
over to the rocking chair and
slowly sank down into it, settling
her on his lap. "But you need to get
some sleep,
princess...your mother will be awake soon. And I'm sure you
have
plenty planned to keep her busy during the day...now go to sleep..."
And he began
slowly rocking her, as she flopped back against him,
thumb stuck in her
mouth and one little foot bouncing as she
hummed quietly.
Lucius couldn't help but chuckle softly as he
kissed the crown of silken
gold on the baby, and she looked up at
him -albeit upside down- and a
blinkblink.
He looked down
at her and kissed her forehead as he felt a swell of
emotions.
"My princess...Fallyn Tanis...Princess of Chaos...true to
your
title.. How can I explain to someone who doesn't understand now...and
probably never will..." Heavy sigh. "I do think you're
the most
precious thing...but...for reasons you may never
understand...I can't be
your Papa. At least...like you want.
Please...when you're old
enough...I'll explain it all. And only
pray that you'll be able to
forgive me..."
Another
few minutes and when she was lolling off to sleep finally he
eased
up and carefully walked over to the crib again and laid her down,
pulling the blanket up over her. He stood over her for a little
while
longer and finally when he heard Narcissa's alarm ring down
the way he
leaned over and kissed the baby's forehead and turned
and left the
nursery.
As he walked back into his room,
that cold exterior washed back over him
and all of the previous
emotion was lost.
And for the next 14 years...this...is the
man Fallyn would know as
Father.
The End
